Growing up, taught me hard lessons, gotta face it🖤🥀

I’ve been lonely since I was a kid, isolated 🫤

prod. @freveltrothy & @jolst

bloodshot eyes
in the backseat
staring at the streetlights
broken inside
i've been up all night
baby i'm a fiend
yeah i'm always high
knives in my back 
got scars i can't hide
told you i'm alright
but i'm barely alive
i know i'm a mess
but i still try
and imma stay true 
till the day i die
till the day i... 
yeah

if you're down to ride
then i'm down for life
i would kill for you 
wouldn't even think twice 
i might crash out 
and never say goodbye
i can't tell what's real
they all tell me lies

racing to the top
i can't waste no time
working every night
till stars align 
devil on my shoulder 
i might lose my mind
reaper coming closer
dancing on thin ice

bloodshot eyes
in the backseat
staring at the streetlights
broken inside
i've been up all night
baby i'm a fiend
yeah i'm always high
knives in my back 
got scars i can't hide
told you i'm alright
but i'm barely alive
i know i'm a mess
but i still try
and imma stay true 
till the day i die
till the day i... 
yeah

down 4 life (prod. frevel & jolst)

Babe you’re like the stars on the drive home
The ones that give you hope when you’re all alone
They replace all of the love that you couldn’t show
I might crash the car but you wouldn’t know 
You can’t tell me it ain’t something I said back to you
In the heat of the moment while my face turning dark blue 

Why you puttin up a fight 
Always say you love me but you never stay the night 
I’ve been dancing with the devil baby I might take my life 
Got a rope around my neck baby it’s hard to breathe alright 
Everytime you tried to hurt me was it always out of spite 
So fucked up, nauseas, stomach hurtin 
Tried to write you all these songs can’t get the words in 
I can’t stop shaking baby you make me so nervous 
Everytime we fall in love you leave me hurtin 

If I crashed tonight I know you wouldn’t care 
I keep dyin in my dreams blood everywhere 
Yellow tape around the scene you can meet me there
Broken, blood on the floor you cut me open
All the lies make your words worth nothing 
Tongue tied no I don’t like talkin
Saw her face now I can’t stop fallin
In love again I lost my mind 
Don’t know where it went 
I think of the days and the nights we spent 
Remember every second no I can’t forget 
No I can’t forget 

Babe you’re like the stars on the drive home
The ones that give you hope when you’re all alone
They replace all of the love that you couldn’t show
I might crash the car but you wouldn’t know 
You can’t tell me it ain’t something I said back to you
In the heat of the moment while my face turning dark blue

u wouldn't even notice :( w/ hamilton [prod. noahmadethiss x jolst] *LYRICS IN DESCRIPTION*

It's okay I'll just act like I'm okay
Erase the pain getting high everyday
It's all the same nothing matters anyway
That's why I treat this fuckin life like a game
When it comes to faking feelings
Bitch I know I'm great
Serotonin always slipping 
Out my fucking brain
I'm a waste baby
Sometimes I just feel insane
Dying slow baby 
I got poison in my veins

Dying slow baby
Falling back into my grave
I see things in my dreams 
That I can't explain
Watching time fly by 
While I rot away
All this stress stacking up
I can't catch a break
Day by day these feelings never fade
Face my fate I know I can't escape
Way too late yeah I can't be saved
It's okay I'll just act okay

It's okay I'll just act like I'm okay
Erase the pain getting high everyday
It's all the same nothing matters anyway
That's why I treat this fuckin life like a game
When it comes to faking feelings
Bitch I know I'm great
Serotonin always slipping 
Out my fucking brain
I'm a waste baby
Sometimes I just feel insane
Dying slow baby 
I got poison in my veins

I got poison in my blood
I got blood up in my cup
Take my life and fuck it up
All these scars it's hard to trust
Cover me in fucking cuts
Tell me that I'm not enough
Let me down just let me go
All these lies are getting old
Tell me something I don't know
Something I ain't heard before
Knocking on the devils door
Show me what i'm living for 

It's okay I'll just act like I'm okay
Erase the pain getting high everyday
It's all the same nothing matters anyway
That's why I treat this fuckin life like a game
When it comes to faking feelings
Bitch I know I'm great
Serotonin always slipping 
Out my fucking brain
I'm a waste baby
Sometimes I just feel insane
Dying slow baby 
I got poison in my veins

spotify

okay (prod. methboiswag)

All these drugs help the pain
But it comes back worse
Leave right now
Or Imma leave you hurt
I can't rest till I'm food for the worms
We all die one day
I'm just waiting my turn

Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
When you break my trust
Tore it right in half
I don't even know what's real
When you always tell me
This and that
Smile to my face
And go behind my back
You never really cared
But now I know that
I gotta cut you out
It's really for the best
Can you hold still
It'll only take a sec

Feel like this every night
Frozen cold dead inside
Blowing smoke getting high
Like the stars in the sky
I wanted love not a fight
You cut me deep like a knife
Made me hate my own life
You drive me crazy no lie

You drive me crazy no lie
I've been losing my mind
It's getting harder to find
Any peace
I've been falling into pieces
Out of place
Yeah i'm always fucking anxious

Lines on lines
Until my nose bleeds
Staying up till the suns out
I don't sleep
Undercover on my fucking
Jeans and my sleeves
I can't be your lover
Everyone I love leaves

Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
When you break my trust
Tore it right in half
I don't even know what's real
When you always tell me
This and that
Smile to my face
And go behind my back
You never really cared
But now I know that
I gotta cut you out
It's really for the best
Can you hold still
It'll only take a sec
(Only take a sec)

this & that (prod. lil biscuit)

She got my heart beating
Left my heart bleeding
On the pavement
Growing up
Taught me hard lessons
Gotta face it
Rolling round
On some hard drugs
Where my face went?
I don't really think I need love
I'll replace it
She got my heart beating
Left my heart bleeding
On the pavement
Growing up
Taught me hard lessons
Gotta face it
Rolling round
On some hard drugs
Where my face went?
I don't really think I need love
I'll replace it

Got this empty soul
Inside of my chest
Yeah it's vacant
I've been lonely
Since I was a kid, Isolated
I know I don't really fit in
I can't fake it
Nowadays they wanna be my friend
For a payment
And nowadays, I couldn't care less
I grew colder
Hanging with the devil
Got him chilling on my shoulder
Every single night
I'm watching death come closer
Tired of it all
I wanna know what's after

Yeah
She got my heart beating
Left my heart bleeding
On the pavement
Growing up
Taught me hard lessons
Gotta face it
Rolling round
On some hard drugs
Where my face went?
I don't really think I need love
I'll replace it
She got my heart beating
Left my heart bleeding
On the pavement
Growing up
Taught me hard lessons
Gotta face it
Rolling round
On some hard drugs
Where my face went?
I don't really think I need love
I'll replace it

I don't really think I need it
But I want it
You can tell me all your secrets
I won't flaunt it
You can tell me how you really feel
Feel about it
I know how people can be
Yeah it's toxic
I can't trust, I got scars
All these cracks in my heart
Knew the love wouldn't last
Should of saw from the start
Now I'm left here to die
It's alright I'll be fine
Cause I've been on my own
The whole fucking time

face it (prod. michaelwarren)

Yeah, yeah
I got a feeling inside
And it's eating me alive
Poppin' up in my brain
Every single night
I wonder if you think of me
Like I think of you
I wonder all the time
Cause you leave me so confused
Walking with my head down
And my eyes low
I've been feeling empty
My heart is hollow
The world is ice cold
And that's why I'm all alone
Smoking on a spliff
Dropping pills in styrofoam

Okay, let's go!
Got vertigo the rooms spinning
Can't say I love you
Cause I don't love living
I'm running racks up
I ain't got a limit
Cause when you run it up
They all act different
That's the reason that I'm distant
You broke my trust, can't fix it
You tell me stories
They don't make sense
You say you're sorry
You don't mean shit

I got a feeling inside
And it's eating me alive
Poppin' up in my brain
Every single night
I wonder if you think of me
Like I think of you
I wonder all the time
Cause you leave me so confused
Walking with my head down
And my eyes low
I've been feeling empty
My heart is hollow
The world is ice cold
And that's why I'm all alone
Smoking on a spliff
Dropping pills in styrofoam

everysinglenight (prod. tonycomputerlove)

Desaturate and fade
Watch the world turn grey
Dead and decayed
You can throw me away
When it's all said and done
I'll just be another grave
Going insane like a dog in a cage
Going crazy, yeah I lost it
She just wanna play me
Like a puppet
She just wanna make me
Feel like nothing
Make me feel like
I'm not worth loving

That's why I'm on prescriptions, I'm broken
When it all ends
I don't know where I'm going
When I can't sleep
I just stare at the ceiling
Feeling like I'm sinking
'til the morning
Got a feeling in my chest, I can't fight it
Got a voice in my head, it's not quiet
Feeling sick off the meds, like I'm a patient
And I'm sick in my brain, like I'm infected

Think about her all the time
I can't stop it
Memories in my mind
I can't forget
That's why I'm staying high
To ignore the bullshit
Don't you tell me that you love me
If you don't mean it

Desaturate and fade
Watch the world turn gray
Dead and decayed
You can throw me away
When it's all said and done
I'll just be another grave
Going insane like a dog in a cage
Going crazy, yeah I lost it
She just wanna play me
Like a puppet
She just wanna make me
Feel like nothing
Make me feel like
I'm not worth loving

another grave (prod. frevel + thislandis)

love u all <3
vocals by harvest & @hammy
production by @memoryroseishere @gonetoofar @morgnbates & harvest
art/mix/master by harvest

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6ivVlTzoSvE6xLDtLdHp6g?si=bcafbe00735c440c

lyrics:
(hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

got a spark in my heart
i got smoke in my lungs
should’ve known from the start
you were never the one

im not the one that you want
why you put up a front
playing me like im dumb
make me feel like a dub

baby im done
yeah im movin on
you can call my phone
but i’m already gone

yeah im already ghost
i can’t let you close
no i don’t know
so my heart stay closed
no i don’t know
i just can’t tell
fucked up in the head
i can’t trust
one minute im cool
then the next im manic
crushing scripts up
under plastic

rolling spliffs up
i can’t feel shit
when i can’t think
that’s my favorite
when you kissed me
i just lost it
wishing i could’ve told
what it costed

(harvest & hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

(harvest)
you don’t even know what happened
I don’t want to fix it all
seeing through our glass it’s cracking 
hourglass, not filled at all

ill never know your passions
cause we’re in a late stage, we’re in a late stage 
i’m breaking down i’m crashing
not on the same page, not on the same page

i want you to be here, a main stay 
one day I wanna play on the main stage 
it’s just the same shit, said a different way
I’ll cough it up, I’m feeling grey 

i want to be in the nosebleed, know me, everything is better when you hold me
or scold me
im slowly 
finding somewhere to hide like brody

knowing that you’ll never know me gives me piece of mind 
i hope you know im lonely like all of the time

i start to realise that I won’t come to my senses
I hope when I leave this place I go on to the next thing

never knew feat. hamilton (prod. memoryrose, toofargone, homesick & harvest)

down 4 ever w/ kennedyxoxo (prod. noahmadethiss)

the little things in life ft. Love Jai + Hamilton *recycleBin*

No I won't lie I miss her touch
Felt like pins and needles
On my skin at 4AM
She so bad, she evil
It's hard for me to open up
Cause I don't fuck with people
But whenever you're around
It's easy to breathe still
Yeah, it's like room gets filled with fresh air
Then I wake up from my dream
And you're not there
I could die right now, no I'm not scared
Give my life to you, no I don't care

Don't wanna feel no more
Leave my body on the floor
Her love's a bloodsport
Left me bloody and sore
But I've been here before
Way too many fucking times
Always going back and forth
With voices in my mind
I'm always going back and forth
And I'm so sick of it
Don't wanna talk about it
I would rather sing this shit
These days I'm careful who I trust
And who I call friend
So if we're riding together
Just know it's till the end

If you got me
Then I got you
Imma stay down
Imma stay true
Long as you feel
The way I do
We can make it
We can break through
But we broke apart
Burning out just like a star
Hurt me bad
Like a knife across my fucking heart
In your arms
Only place I ever wanna be
But now she's gone
And I'm lonely when I go to sleep

No I won't lie I miss her touch
Felt like pins and needles
On my skin at 4AM
She so bad, she evil
It's hard for me to open up
Cause I don't fuck with people
But whenever you're around
It's easy to breathe still
Yeah, it's like room gets filled with fresh air
Then I wake up from my dream
And you're not there
I could die right now, no I'm not scared
Give my life to you, no I don't care

face it (prod. michaelwarren)

hamilton

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