Always in the background thats where im staying

do 2 much

Prod. By: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrSl474HOTnqSExd6pHKIJw

life's fucking crazy
I think I'm fading
always in the background
that's where I'm staying
she gunned my fucking heart down
and replaced it
I have nothing left now
man I hate it

even if you tried to
you couldn't save me
always getting lied to
my life is wasting

I'm so fucking tired
my dreams are dead to me
I'm not gonna make it
the reaper next to me

watching over every move
so much sleep I lose
every night I contemplate
like what the fuck to do

I don't wanna feel this way
I'm so stuck in place
all I ever knew was pain
and fucking rainy days

I can't get outside my brain
I'm smoking purple haze
make the demons go away
and all my thoughts erase

don't know why they fucking hate
it makes no sense to me
I just wanna help myself
discover inner peace

to me I am the enemy
theres something wrong with me
the chemicals inside my brain
are fucking hurting me
the memories keep coming back
it's like their haunting me
lying to my fucking face
just tell me honestly

you ain't got no loyalty
I hate this fucking town
wish that I could burn it down
all these snakes around

life's fucking crazy
I think I'm fading
always in the background
that's where I'm staying
she gunned my fucking heart down
and replaced it
I have nothing left now
man I hate it x2

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fading (prod. cartier)

prod. www.youtube.com/user/Xtravulous

from the bottom of my cold heart
you know I loved you
put you in my past life
that's what the drugs do 
acid on a cold night
fucking freezing
oh my god
I'm so high 
think I'm peaking

I'm going the distance
just gotta stay consistent 
they would never listen
but now they treat me different 
it's because I'm glo'd up 
gave it all my focus
you gotta work your hardest 
if you want people to notice

no days off I'm never sleeping
writing songs in my head 
while I'm dreaming
all my life I'm stuck
searching for a meaning 
wish I gave a fuck 
I can't find a reason

I can't find a reason 
bitch I'm smoking trees 
and I'm so clueless 
does she love me 
or she leaving 
oh that's perfect 
that's exactly what I needed 
a broken heart 
my soul is dark 
I feel defeated

a broken heart 
my soul is dark 
I feel defeated x4

a broken heart
I'm rolling hard
in the night 
and I'm looking at the stars
took my life
and she ripped it all apart 
I put it back
but you can see the scars

you can see the scars 
all the pain inside my eyes 
I'm just another kid
that's tortured by his mind 
thought of getting out 
like 1000 fucking times
I can barely breathe 
but I just say I'm fine

I just say I'm fine 
anxiety inside 
makes it hard to sleep at night 
smoking get me right 
gets me out head
you talking shit to me 
but I'm in your bitches bed
in between her legs

I be going stupid 
I'm ruthless
go behind my back 
I'll leave you toothless
leave you looking useless 
like bro what are you doing 
your whole life a lie
say you winning but you losing

from the bottom of my cold heart
you know I loved you
put you in my past life
that's what the drugs do 
acid on a cold night
I'm fucking freezing
oh my god 
I'm so high 
I think I'm peaking

past life (prod. xtravulous)

hey, i missed u

lyrics-

i'm so cold
i'm so lost
grown so old
now i'm gone
we were younger when i left
but now i'm back and you've moved on

tell me where i'm going
i've been lost for a minute
i ain't got the time
you just tryna get my digits
racing through my brain
like my mind's in the olympics
drinking down the bubbly
now i'm spinning like a fidget

seasons going by
like the girls i fucking cared about
understanding why
'cause my life's something i'd do without
you should know i try
but you always fill my mind with doubt
leaving me alive
but my heart is fucking black by now

my heart is probably gone by now
buried somewhere in the ground
people change
i stayed the same
thought i had it figured out
my brain is full of rain and clouds
everyday i'm filled with doubt
constant stress
i'll let em down
take a pill
i'm better now

take a pill
i'm passing out
right up on her parents couch
we were at her parents house
but she still topped me with her mouth
we been going through some things
i don't wanna feel this pain
run away
forget my name
run away from everything

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seasons going by like the girls i used to care about w/ hammy [prod. nciku]

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

convolk - weird freestyle (original)

prod. jD & Xander

hope I get to see you again 
before this life comes to an end
cause you make my head fucking spin

on the edge 
I don't wanna fall 
mastercard 
when I hit the mall
girl for you 
I'd buy it all
dress you up 
just like a doll

pins and needles
when she's on me
in my lap in the backseat
she's my heart
she's all I need
late at night 
and I'm smoking trees 

up all night 
I still can't sleep
head's a mess 
yeah I'm a creep
on my own I walk the street 
her shadow's haunting me

her shadow's haunting me

only thing I wanna see

I wish you were next to me 
forever till we rest in peace 
together till we both can't breathe
connected through our memories
I love how she's so unique 
I'm so high they cannot reach 
margielas up on both my feet
they jealous now 
wanna be like me

margielas up on both my feet

they jealous now wanna be like me

on the edge 
I don't wanna fall 
mastercard 
when I hit the mall
girl for you 
I'd buy it all
dress you up 
just like a doll

pins and needles
when she's on me
in my lap in the backseat
she's my heart
she's all I need
late at night 
and I'm smoking trees

up all night 
I still can't sleep

head's a mess 
yeah I'm a creep

creep (prod. jD & Xander)

prod. @softhert

life is spinning circles 
round my head
will it ever stop?
wanna tell you how i feel 
but my tongue is tied in knots
it seems like there's nothing real
i keep having these hopeless thoughts
wish i could've got through to you 
before our love was fucking lost

wish i could've meant more to you 
they don't love like i do
staying right beside you
take me out my bad mood

i know i'm bad news 
hate me i don't blame you
eversince we fell through
i'm ice cold my hands blue

see it all got a clear view 
now i know i can't trust you
no one i can turn to
all my bridges burn through
i don't know what's true
old friends act brand new 
wish i never met you
cross you out forget you

wish i never met you
cross you out forget you
old friends acting brand new 
all my bridges burn through

nowadays i don't care at all 
i'm better off being uninvolved
stack it up
and watch it fall
in my room 
wanna paint the wall

paint it red
and leave a mess
had my fun 
i'm over this
fading out
losing interest
lost my hope 
finding purpose

life is spinning circles 
round my head
will it ever stop?
wanna tell you how i feel 
but my tongue is tied in knots
it seems like there's nothing real
i keep having these hopeless thoughts
wish i could've got through to you 
before our love was fucking lost x2

how it seems (prod. softheart)

@prodjody

new day 
same pain 
old problems
in a trash can 
laying at the bottom
all the stress piles 
up i can't function 
all the drugs help 
remind me i'm nothing x2   

new year 
same dreams
old faces
i'm tired
i can't take it
so sick of this bullshit 
i might fill my brain with a full clip

i might fill my brain with a full clip

they wanna see me dead 
voices in my head 
falling off the edge 
i can't stop it

it's hard to love again
i don't have no friends
i just got a hole where my heart is

yeah i got some scars 
don't get me started 
gave my all for you 
i tried my hardest 
we're nothing in the end
we die regardless
i just wish my head 
wasn't like this

i isolate myself i can't help it
cause nowadays i'm always fucking anxious
waking up at night still faded 
i don't even know what the day is 

new day 
same pain 
old problems
in a trash can 
laying at the bottom
all the stress piles 
up i can't function 
all the drugs help 
remind me i'm nothing x2

problems (prod. jody)

prod. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCirvEQp_xHc02TdHYt89OrQ

going insane 
imma fiend 
i can't fucking stop it
always staring at my screen
i wanna drop it down :/ 

when i think about it all 
i wanna end it
always messy in my head
i'm feeling manic now 

always lonely and confused
i don't what the fuck to do 
all my friends keep falling through 
but now i know that's nothing new 

bitch i made it by myself
i don't need your fucking help
i'd be better off in hell
always hiding my shell
wishing i was someone else
oh well oh well
i'm just playing with the cards 
that i was dealt

always gamble with my life
this game is do or die
so i roll the fucking dice
and you can't live it twice
so i'm up like every night
i wanna feel alive
but i know i'm not alright
i know i'm not alright

going insane 
imma fiend 
i can't fucking stop it
always staring at my screen
i wanna drop it down :/ 

when i think about it all 
i wanna end it
always messy in my head
i'm feeling manic now 

always lonely and confused
i don't what the fuck to do 
all my friends keep falling through 
but now i know that's nothing new

when i think about it all (prod. malloy)

prod. @tennis-player-348430837

and i swear it's not fair 
it's not right
how you tell me all these fucking lies
every night 
i've been feeling like i might die
i'm traumatized 
kiss me kiss me i go braindead 
every time
she told me i'm no good 
but that's fine 
now i know i'm always in her mind
getting to bands 
i can't worry bout you  

every time you come around me it's always bad news  
left me fucking cursed 
lonely with a bad mood 
laying in the dirt
trynna find my loose screws
i be on my own got no one to turn to 
x2

@loseher4u
braindead baby
idk what's goin on 
you don't know what i'd do
to get inside your arms
i'd go to lengths 
that you've never fucking seen 
go to all those places
that you see inside your dreams
stuck like a tattoo 
don't know what to do
drowning like a typhoon
imma die soon
alone in my room 
wanna see you
wanna feel you
wanna kill you
don't know what's goin on 
don't know what i'm doing wrong
won't be here for long 
miss me when i'm gone

and i swear it's not fair 
it's not right
how you tell me all these fucking lies
every night 
i've been feeling like i might die
i'm traumatized 
kiss me kiss me i go braindead 
every time
she told me i'm no good 
but that's fine 
now i know i'm always in her mind
getting to bands 
i can't worry bout you  

every time you come around me it's always bad news  
left me fucking cursed 
lonely with a bad mood 
laying in the dirt
trynna find my loose screws
i be on my own got no one to turn to

i be on my own got no one to turn to

fading (prod. cartier)

hamilton (@hqmilt0n)

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