Always with the genius lyrics with you.. Thank You.

really lovely overall! you captured these confusing feelings hanzo has really well!!

Honestly my main goal in life at this point is to create something that ebbs as much emotion as your music, Phemiec

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A Karkat Vantas Fansong, long awaited. It's basically about Karkat's perspective on Gamzee, Terezi and recent happenings in homestuck canon. Slightly spoiler.

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LYRICS
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There will be no soft sounds this time
no arms, not mine at least
should've expect this, I guess, no “shh” can sooth your beast
and it was my problem once, that violence inside your eyes
bright red and high with death and pie, and rage that never dies

and I used to blame myself, then I blamed everybody else, but never you
cause you were just a messed up kid, 
who'd step in it, get scared and sit,
and pray for goats and gods who would know what to forbid 

and when you would reach out, well I'd run my big mean mouth and make it worse
And maybe I deserve that hurt, 
destruction of my universe, 
so if you've gotta beat somebody up don't make it her.

I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore.
I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader. 
Not a leader.
Not a leader, friend.

No more attempts to make you see, I tried, he succeeded, oh well
but what I can say to a girl who'd play with a noose of excuses until
her big wicked grin disappears in the smoke, and crack goes the rope pulled true
I know enough about doubt, and hating myself, to tell that you now know it too

and I used to blame myself, then I blamed everybody else, including you
but you were perfect as you were
all angled out, a blinding blur
so bright and beautiful, and clever, yeah for sure

But when you would reach out, well I'd run my big mean mouth and make a mess
And now it's my turn to confess
I wasn't there, I didn't guess
that you were slipping, 'till you tripped right off the edge

I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore
I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader,not a leader, not a leader...

Said a thousands words but they never helped
I hid my scars from you out of shame
Took up the cause, Yeah I took the helm
But I'm not the only one who's changed
I knew you first, I knew you best
I wish I'd stopped it way back then
when things were bad, but they still made sense
when we were kids, when we were friends.

Friendleaders...

Friend, Leader.

James and a Guitar

Pretend. Truth.

I do not claim this song! This is just a soundcloud version, because the other version doesn't run well.

PhemieC - Let The Dread Come In

Friendleader- PhemieC

A somewhat rough fansong for the Pricefield ship from the videogame Life Is Strange. it also became sort of a personal piece as well... Enjoy.

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Lyrics
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Inevitably you in blue and me
we are young and chlorinated
laughing as we flee security
this feels safe and free and fated

unaware that there are bones among the weeds
lying underneath your posters
and dressing in your missing girlfriend's tees
I'm the picture of a poser

but I'm not anybody's muse of purity
and you're no problem child or cautionary tale
and I'm not innocent and you're not guilty
but we'll both be punished by the howling wind and hail

before this ends
the world is not a friend to girls in love
and I keep trying to rewind
but the world's not kind to girls in love

they pin our wings and keep us under glass
try to understand our beauty
say they have to see us after class
it's a privilege and our duty

but they will never know what we possess
strange attractors, we are fractal
and with Schrodinger's devotion in my chest
I'm a quantum chain reactor

and you're not venison to be consumed
and I am not some armless marble carving to admire
and we are not red roses to be cut before we bloom
and we are not the virgin victims for their sacrificial fire

to the gods
against all odds, we're girls in love
and the storm is on it's way
cause the world's not made for girls in love

so batten down the hatches, arm the canons, grab your cutlass, set the compass, 
we are sailing for a future where there's gentleness and justice
you wont have to fight, or pay a price, or pray you gave enough
and the lighthouse always shines 

for girls in love 
for girls in love

Girls In Love

A fansong for the character Nick Valentine from the game Fallout 4. Sorta peaky but I I've been sitting on since the game came out so...I still like it ok.

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Lyrics
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The words I speak put shape to someone else's thoughts. 
I am uniquely defined by the person I am not. 
My face is lined with the evidence of someone else life 
and my racing mind finds paths of personality and faithfully 
connects familiar dots. 

All I want is to have something that is mine 
from the start every part of me chosen not assigned. 
all I want is know for certain that my wanting is my own
And I own what is mine and what is mine is mine alone.

I'm known to speak in a simulated sort of sounding voice. 
Its been so long I can no longer tell if its by choice. 
I could pretend to be any sort of person I suppose. 
But whats the point id still be an imitation of a human 
I'd still never fit my clothes.

All I know is that there's nothing that's been mine 
from the start, every part of me chosen by design. 
All I what is to be the person no one ever thought id be. 
I don't want to be anyone but me. 

So please...

Is there something new for me under the sun?
Is there a rock unturned?
Is there a new trick up a hidden sleeve that this old dog can learn?
Is there a story doomed to repeat? Or is this a bridge I can burn?  And can I find treasure in trash of another man?
I hope I can.

That's all I want.

All I want is to have something that is mine
from the start, every part of me chosen not assigned,
All I want is to know for certain that the wanting is my own
and I own what is mine and what is mine is mine alone
and what is mine is what I want
and what I want is what I want

That's all I want...

All I Want

A fansong for my favorite visual novel of all time. We Know The Devil. I don't think any peice of media has moved me as much as that game. please go buy it!

http://store.steampowered.com/app/435300/

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Lyrics
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doubt's an elastic that snaps where you grasp it 
with idle hands clasped on your wrist just as sharp as 
a kiss on the scar where you carved out her name 
or a line that is straight and confined to your fate 
you're resigned to be damned by your hand in her hand
she will hold you as soft as feather on water
you float on her fingers, she pulls you apart 
it's not hard, it wont hurt, it's not right for a daughter of god

not for one of his flock
not for good little girls
but good god you're not 
good girl

hate is a bile that starts in your guts and erupts 
from your throat like a geyser, you try  to provoke 
and emote and spit angry black stains on their lies 
as they hock more to block out their shame
and their cries, how they try, but it wont be enough 
not as long as you live, you'll all drown in the stuff
it wont help to be patient, the water will rise after all 
you're all in the same place aren't you, daughter of god?

just one of his flock
like the good little girls
but good god you're not 
good girl

good girl...

light, you can see now the dark is receding 
parts leaving, not bleeding, just holes for the healing to start
there's your heart and it sees with it's wings out 
it reads what you think in the bones of the body
you shrink and you smile and you try to make small 
but the devil sees all and she thinks you're a beauty
you're bursting and beating and burning up 
hotter each second, the reckoning comes for you daughter of god

comes for one of his flock
for the good little girls
but good god you're not 
good girl

love is a place where she touches your face, but also your thighs (and it's alright)
love is a place where the tide always rises, the ink never dries (and it's alright)
love is a place where you see with your heart and fly with your eyes (and it's alright)
love is a place where your innocence goes when it dies.

You'll never know what you could find (let love turn on the light)
You'll never know what you could find (let love touch you tonight)
You'll never know what you could find (let love drown your soul)
You'll never know what you could find (let love make you whole, daughter of god...)

Daughter Of God

My first overwatch fansong, this one's about Hanzo Shimada and his feelings surrounding himself and his brother. One of the simplest and most satisfying (at least for me) songs I've ever written. Enjoy :)

Track art from the Dragons short.

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A sharpened sword stuck in my side
fool to think that I could dig it out with arrows
I shot one into God's left eye
and then no more light hit mine
as the sun set one last time
to the song of the sparrow

A feral beast, more thorn than paw
claws the rooster from his nest, for lest he dare to crow
I'll aim again to make God blind
lay my pelt upon your shrine, as the sun sets one last time
to the cry of the wolf and the song of the sparrow

the dream of light; a baited cage
to trap me where it waits, in its glare, if dare I go
but to outrun that horizon
would take stronger legs and lungs
and wings, and I have none
since last I saw the setting sun and sung the song of the sparrow

And here again, that stubborn flame
I am immolate with sorrow, his forgiveness is my pyre
and he stokes a fire that burns like shame
and he calls himself your name
says the sun will set the same
and sings the song of the sparrow

so what will I when dawn arrives?
Guide the hand of blinded god, or guard the hen, a loyal hound?
Perhaps a breath, a chance to fly
see the sun rise in your sky
feel the warmth and hear the sound...

The Sparrow

Another Life is Strange fansong, this time for the pairing of Chloe and Rachel, in honor of Before the Storm getting announced! I am Ready To Hurt lol.

Music and Lyrics (c) Phemiec

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LYRICS
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she was an angel
she was a leo
she helped me dye my hair in the sink

she was the bringer of change and of spring
wearing her flannel and feather earring

she made it okay, to not be okay
made me believe that someone would stay...

she was a charmer
she was a changer
she could fit in with every crowd

but I fit with her, like a storm for my cloud
pulled into the eye of her, high off the ground

she made it okay, to not be okay
made me believe that someone could stay...

she was a model
she was a rebel
one second with her you'd know she's a star

and I kissed her hard on an old junkyard car
and I carved her name on the wall in a heart

she made it okay, to not be okay
made me believe that someone could... 
that someone would stay...

Stay

“An Idiot” by PhemieC. Track art by the super talented moggettt! Who you can find at moggettt.tumblr.com!

~Spoilers for The Adventure Zone postcast. Story and Song arc~

A fansong for the podcast "The Adventure Zone", from Taako’s POV, set during Ep 67. Enjoy. :)

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LYRICS
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I have lived a hundred lives
and I have died a dozen times
but the reaper hasn't caught me yet
though his scythe is often at my neck

and I have learned a trick or two
though I've forgotten quite a few
and might have told a hundred lies
twice as many half as true

Oh I have been an idiot
missing some key ingredient
and waiting as I fail to rise
never guessing what it meant

I lived adrift on luck and looks
'till hungry hearts struck hard and took
and made afraid of what I'd done
my skills were nil, my friends were none

I could not trust my empty mind
these stolen holes of space and time
the faces, newly strange, I'd find
none of them resembling mine

Oh I have been an idiot
missing some key ingredient
and waiting as I fail to rise
never asking what it meant

I barely cared, and rarely tried
to find some reason I should fight
but in my hand and at my side
you, my heart, my arm did guide

for I had been your long lost twin
closer than a second skin
and now I am alone again
wiser than I've never been

Oh I have been an idiot
missing some key ingredient
but now I know how I will rise
oh how on earth could I forget?
knowing you has made me wise
now I am not an idiot!

An Idiot

There are some audio Issues in this one but after Ep 49 I just had to write something quick for Nott from Critical Role about her relationship with her husband, Yeza. <3

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LYRICS
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You're not special
You're not useful
You're not normal
You're not sane
You're not clever or insightful
You're not calm or well behaved
not a leader, not a hero
And not good at being brave
you're just not, no you're not, you are not

You're not beautiful or pretty
You're not flattered when they stare
You're not lovable or likable
Or wanted anywhere
You're not good enough
To get enough
To have enough to spare
You're just not, no you're not, you are not

But he loved you like you were something
He loved you like you were someone
He loved you like you were 
And like you were not
Yeah he loved you, Nott

He's not handsome, he's not charming
Does not stand out in a crowd
Not a looker,  not a fighter
Not too much of which hes proud
He's not fast or fit or strong or rich
Or tall or well endowed
He's just not, no he's not, he is not

But he's not selfish or deceitful
He's not hateful, he's not cruel
He's not someone who would hurt you
Or who makes you feel a fool
Not at all like all the boys
Who used to torture you in school
no he's not, he's just not, he is not.

And he loved you like you were something
He loved you like you were someone
And you loved him for all the things he was
And for what he was not
Yeah you loved him, Nott

It's not right and it's not fair
And It's not what you'd always prayed
That someday you'd wake to find yourself
Somehow finally changed
Someone worth the love you've had
Instead you find you're more the same
And now you're not, you're still not, you are not.

But you're not giving up on hoping
not alone, at least not yet
You're not ready to go home
But you're not staying playing dead,
You're dying to believe you'll live to be the lovely things he said
That you are, that you are, that you are
You hope you are, hope you are, hope you are

And he loved you like you were something
That you are, that you are, that you are
And he loved you like you were someone
That you are, that you are, that you are

That you are
That you are
That you are

The Sparrow

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