Bedroom Eyes

a song about hurting myself and a call that affirmed my worst fear

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sorry god
think i did it again
but im flawed
i dont know why you expect
oh so much
from a girl who’s in a panic
i dont want
you to just tell me im manic

please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself
if you look at me, i might just slit my throat
i still dont know why im in the hospital

its too much
why do i even try
i dont know
sorry if im always crying
im just so
wrapped up in my aching head
im thinking bout
every single time i said

please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself
if you look at me, i might just slit my throat
i still dont know why im in the hospital


oh please dont leave me by myself
ill rot forever in this cell/hell
please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself

please dont tell me what im missing, this is hell
they won’t let me shave because i’ll cut myself
if you look at me, i might just slit my throat
i still dont know why im in the hospital

hospital song

and i’ll say, 
“this not good enough for you?”
for my sake,
could you please give us the room?
and bend your shoulders into my neck

and i’ll stay,
bended over talking to
your last day,
when you lifted me in bloom
and i felt better under your skin.

and i
i’m too young to cry like this for all my life
and it’s not right

and i,
i need you by my side,
but i still feel alright
i still feel alright

and i
i’m too young to die
with all this hate inside
inside my mind

and i’ll say,
“this not good enough for you?”
“could you please give me the room?”

not like this please

KITCHENBASTARDS

irlydkwhyoucame

Until Dawn

Whispers before the wild

here's a sp00ky throwback to my sophomore year. happy halloween.

we were walking down the street
keeping pace, with an unspoken beat
i turned left and you turned right
disappearing into the night

but i'm not even trying
no i'm not even trying

to you i'm just a stranger
you don't even know my name
but i don't want to be your stranger
tell me did you feel the same?

i see you again from time to time
knowing that your eyes won't reach mine
i want to walk right up to you, but that's something i'll never do
you never knew

but i'm not even trying
no i'm not even trying

to you i'm just a stranger
you don't even know my name
but i don't want to be your stranger
tell me did you feel the same?

but i'm not even try
no i'm not even trying
no no i'm not even trying
no i'm not even trying

i don't want to just be your
i don't want to just be your
straaaaaanger

sp00k

sp00k (demo)

me and this boy i know, 
we are both awfully bad at goodbyes.
next time we should just 







kiss

2018 ASCAP
CALIORA MUSIC
p.s. put your heart out on the line sometime. it's scary, but a little fear is good for you. especially if there is a chance of falling in love.

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