looking forward to the moon

A song for those who know how to function, but don’t feel present.
For those who say “I’m fine” like a ritual, while something in them stays silent.
“It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me” is about splitness—about playing yourself so well even the mirror stops questioning.
The skin fits, but it’s too quiet inside Like someone left the room but locked the door It’s about being seen, but not really there.
About smiling at the right time—and wondering who, exactly, is smiling.
—
“My Head Can’t Hold It” is not an album.
It’s a slow unraveling of what awareness sounds like when it slips through the seams of everyday life. 
For those who function—and sometimes quietly ask:
is this really me?

It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me

Morning Mist

Afterglow is a reflection on love’s aftermath—where passion once blazed, only clarity remains. This neo-soul/alt-R&B ballad traces the quiet transformation that follows emotional chaos: from longing to release, from hurt to healing. With vivid imagery and soulful lyricism, Afterglow lives in the space between what was and what’s left behind—a warm echo of truth, resilience, and quiet closure.

Afterglow

Verse 1
The fire’s gone, but not the flame,
It lingers soft inside my name.
We danced through sins and silent cries,
Now only truth beneath the skies.

Pre-Chorus
No more running, no disguise—
Just the afterglow in your eyes.

Chorus
Afterglow, we made it through,
Not untouched, but somehow true.
What we burned became our light,
A quiet blaze to end the night.

Verse 2
Your breath no longer haunts my chest,
But left a calm I call my rest.
And though the stars begin to fade,
I feel the peace that we have made.

Pre-Chorus (2)
I won’t forget, I won’t rewind,
But I’ve outgrown what kept me blind.
Chorus (repeat)
Afterglow, we made it through...

Bridge
No bitter end, no last regret,
Just warmth in places we once wept.

Outro
So let the morning slowly rise—
I’ll meet it whole, with open eyes.

Afterglow

Verse 1:
I found your letter on the dresser today,
The words blurred as my tears gave you away.
“You need to find yourself, it’s not you it’s me” –
But all I find is heartbreak where you used to be.
Our pictures on the wall now just haunt the room,
Echoes of laughter turn to silence and gloom.

Chorus:
This is my shattered heart serenade,
A song for the love that decided to fade.
Pieces of me lie scattered on the floor,
Since you’re not here to hold them anymore.
I’m picking up fragments of what you left behind,
Trying to solve this puzzle of lonely nights in my mind.

Verse 2:
I still set the table for two out of habit,
Then I remember – and the pain, I can’t stand it.
Your coffee cup sits cold, collecting dust,
Like the plans that we made and the dreams that went bust.
Friends say “time will heal,” but I feel every hour,
As if I’m walking through fire that’s lost all its power.

Chorus:
In this shattered heart serenade I sing,
Every memory cuts, every promise stings.
Our song on the radio brings me to my knees,
Because it was ours – now it’s a bittersweet breeze.
I’m clinging to the hope that the pain will subside,
But it hangs in the air, an uninvited guide.

Bridge:
Late at night I swear I feel you here,
Your touch in a daydream so painfully near.
I reach across the sheets to your empty side,
It hits me again that our forever died.
My chest tightens up and I can’t breathe in,
They call it “heartbreak” but it feels like a knife sinking in.
(If pain is love’s residue, I have enough for a lifetime…)

Chorus:
This shattered heart serenade drifts in the dark,
I strum these chords on the strings of my scars.
Every note is a teardrop, falling in time,
For a heart that was yours and a love that was mine.
Though you’re gone, this melody remains true,
A lullaby for the pieces I must mend without you.

In this song I find solace, however small it may be,
A way to bleed out the poison you left inside me.

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Shattered Heart Serenade

Wrote this one early Spring morning long ago, when out walking with my 3 year old daughter, Janine.

Little Legs (Janine's Song)

Text:
[Verse]
He died in a rocket crash on Mars
They gave me his military records
And I saw my name
He had a secret family with me

[Verse]
They brought his body back to Earth
I opened the casket and
I saw his face
He had a secret family with me

(Instrumental-Part)

[Chorus]
I want to love you for a long time
I want to see your face
You are the most important thing to me
And I love you

[Bridge]
He was already married
He had a son and a daughter
He was in the Air Force
I thought he was in the Army
He had a secret family with me

(Solo)

[Verse]
His body was on display in an open casket
His parents asked me not to come
But I couldn't miss it
He had a secret family with me

[Verse]
I saw his wife at the funeral
She looked just like me
They all thought it was a coincidence
He had a secret family with me

My Secret Family

**About This Track**  
An original AI-assisted composition by Rob Nelson (*Bring Your Own Brilliance*) and Ron Cameron (*Alien Garden*). This song blends human creative direction with AI tools to bring our vision to life—merging storytelling, mood, and innovation into a dynamic listening experience.

**Creative & Technical Details**  
- **Lyrics**: Alien Garden tracks by Ron Cameron; Bring Your Own Brilliance tracks by Rob Nelson
- **This song track, created lyrics based on the poem titled, “Dead End No Exit,” by Tyler D. Knight (a.k.a. Gerald Ruskinov).  
- **Executive Producers**: Rob Nelson  
- **Vocals & Instrumentation**: Produced using TopMediAI and AIGenMusic.AI  
- **Audio Format & Editing**: Mixed from MP3/WAV with NCH Software (trims, fades, conversions)  
- **Stem Splitting**: Processed with LaLaLaLa AI  
- **Cover Art**: Created with Stable Diffusion 3 Online, Aiease.ai, Pollo.ai, and Pixabay (Creative Commons)  
- **Song Structure & Mood Profiling**: Cyanite AI

**Our Creative Blueprint**  
“CHOICES” is our internal code for the DNA of each track: genre, vocal tone, tempo, instrumentation, and emotional arc. Every detail is human-directed—AI simply helps us realize it.

**Rights & Licensing**  
We retain full commercial and non-commercial rights under our membership with [TopMediAI’s Terms & Conditions](https://www.topmediai.com/terms-conditions/). Lyrics, production, and arrangement are fully original works by Rob and/or Ron.

**Creative Use & Inquiries**  
Artists and producers are welcome to adapt or re-record our work—please credit us in any public releases. For licensing, collaborations, or sync opportunities, reach out directly:

Bring Your Own Alien Garden  
c/o Rob Nelson & Ron Cameron  
1211 Huron Street N., Suite 202  
London, Ontario, Canada  
N5Y 4L1

**Final Words**  
Each song we share is made with intention, imagination, and care. Thank you for listening—your support brings these stories to life.


Morning Mist

HNNS

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