Hell yeah

Themesong

special thanks to Weej for the guitar and drums!!

lyrics:
You give me your hearts and confetti
Am I your favourite, really?
But even if you didn't mean it,
to me it's bounded, sealed, hid the key and

You got my arms so tired from reaching
Try'na sneak a peek behind the curtain and

You got me chained chained chained
to my screen
Only existing when it's you that I think

I’m at your disposal
Do what you will with me
Give me a call and I’ll make sure that you got what you need

But what you don't know is
I got some tricks up my sleeve
and every move you make is just what I knew it would be
What I knew it would be

Now when I’m on the marquee, you're the first in line
You're obsessed, almost just as much as I am
Told I should be treading lightly
but they don't really know where I’ve been

Jack of all trades, yet I’ll act like a fool
Watch this clock move, then want nothing but to

Be at my disposal
Hung up on every word I speak
Next thing you know, I’m in your cortex pulling on your strings

Just you wait babe then
You'll be the one anticipating
You had your magic wand, but I got smoke and mirrors
I’m the mastermind, baby
It’s what I knew it would be

At Your Disposal (live demo)

im in my childhood country but i dont remember what happened here
up until i was six even then i 
depend on pictures to tell me if
what i went through was real

but i know i dreamt of being older
and living out all my dreams
like ending world hunger or at least starring in some big theater play
i mean, i still dream of doing it all today

who wouldve thought i'd be me now
kinda sad it'll go to waste

cause the worlds gonna be so bad when im older
dont need to be psychic to know that
must be why i like movies from the 2000s
so my eyes are only ever looking back

if i hear "you've got potential" one more goddamn time, i'm gonna scream
they tell me i've got time, i think they mean: sentence to pay, then ask me
where do i see myself in five years from today

god, can i just be my best self now
or else it's all gonna go to waste

cause the worlds gonna be so bad when im older
dont need to be psychic to know that
everyday something crashes, only leading to the planet's inevitable collapse

there was some anticommunist prop in the bookstore
read a book or be judged by the good lord
(lord) if your plans for me are apocalypse when i'm 20, then i don't want it 
daily spams from an anti-vax auntie
telling me what the chemicals will make me
i'm betting on her word i'll be a robot hybrid by 2030
people say it's been a different world lately,
as if it even changed at all since the 40's
then we say "take me back", crying laughs, watch the daily death on a screen
watch it all die on a screen
watch them all die from our screens
watch the world die from our screens
i watch it all die
die die die die die

not saying there's no reason for living
but things will go to waste someday

is the world even gonna be there when i'm older
i'd be more scared if the answer's yes
cause that means doing something about the state of things
and i'm really not up for doing all that
but i'll roll up my sleeves

so bad when I'm older - Japanese Surplus

lyrics:
katulad mo rin ba akong
naghihintay sana
na bumalik at maulit
mga halik? oh, sana

'wag mag-alala
'wag mag-alala
tayong dalawa
magkikita pa

hanggang ngayon gan'to pa ring
naghihintay sana
na matuklas mga bigkas
sa'yo 'pagkat, oh sana 

nag-aalala
nag-aalala
baka 'di na nga
magkikita pa

katulad mo rin ba ako?
katulad mo rin ba ako?

that post-talking stage hapdi

will i still love you in the spring?
cause my heart's got lots to give
or will you let it wilt away?
color my world, then leave it grey

will your picture stop my heart again
so bad i light a cigarette
then i summon my ancestors
who shame me for how down bad i am

will you be aching for my presence
the way you crane your neck for a kiss
from the summer sun to your skin

sorry for all this talk of seasons
i just fear for a future where you wont be familiar with my name

will you still like me in the spring?
does your heart have room to spare?
if/when you thirst for tenderness
know that my spring's for you to rest in
dive in

will you feel so unreal to me
i reach out for your hand
when you hold it back
feels like i'm finally running my fingers thru some grass

and it won't feel like the first time
ever again, but i'm fine with that
just as long as you want me for the next

cause you can bet that i'll still want you
but if my spring of love's a bit too big
for you to swim in

you can tell me, like we practiced
better to quit while we're ahead

but if i still love you in the spring
when my heart's got more to give
please don't let it wilt away
please don't let it wilt away

lovespring - Japanese Surplus

This is the end, to my lover
I'll cut my neck for you
to show you

My blood
My guts
My love for you

This is my promise if I'm gone
visit my body
take it if you want

This is the end
Take my heart
It's yours to keep
Stay until the end

I will give my skull to you
if you need it too

Walktrip - Ilostmysanityanditskindascary (cover)

(happy holy week. this is a worship song.)

told me that he made you question
if you're someone who could ever be loved
let me tell you that everyone who knows you
feels the pull to love you so naturally, like gravity

i know your mind is heavy
you feel stuck, but you’re exactly where you wanna be
and i would hate to be a part of all the complicated shit
so just hear me out plain and simply

don’t you worry, my love
i know this isn’t how it’s supposed to go
but don’t you know?
it wouldn’t kill us to break the rules

at least for tonight
so hold me close
then when the morning comes, let me go
but for now let me have
the honor to warm your soul

your eyes shine like the Second Coming
come on over, the guilt's worth laying by your side

wouldn’t you like some company while waiting
for your eyes to see yourself the way i see you through mine?

i’m selfish, you already knew that
you’re curious, won’t you give in for a minute?

trace the ink on my skin, again and again
i’ve been coveting your fingers on my chest

so if i’m your moment of weakness
have it then let it pass
cross my heart, it won’t be the death of us
come on, satiate my "what ifs"

the veil is lifted and i want you underneath
i open up fast, you make it so easy
tell yourself "it’s just a one time thing"
"you’re only human" so you wake me when you leave

don’t you worry, my love
i have no want to tie you down with rope
just know
there’s no doubt that your'e someone who
could be loved, you’re worthy of
all the love coming toward you

i want you to want you,
i'll love you way past til you love you
i want you to want you,
i'll love you way past til you love you

unceremoniously - Japanese Surplus

the flowers have wilted
i thought i had more time
but the weather has roughened
and roughened my mind
my promise expired
didn’t know that was something i could do

thought i was tough but
i must have mistaken it for
the resolve i grew with you
and what the fuck did i do?
i let it die
my bark turned into bite and it got you

now it’s too late for a next time
but your hands and your smile i could never unfamiliarize
i want to deserve you

still raining down in my heart, it’s pouring
my love for you
but the season has ended
with no assurance of when

it'll come back, i hope it does
you're not by my side, but in the meantime
i hope it’s alright that my heart
is gonna be yours for a while, a while

i wanted to be your
shelter from the storm
instead i became its eye
and when the sky
was grey, all i did was hide

now i’m aching from your absence
the way you did from mine too
i'll be better to deserve you

it’s still raining down in my heart, it’s pouring
my love for you
but the season has ended
with no assurance of when

it'll come back, i hope it does
you're not by my side, but in the meantime
i hope it’s alright that my heart
is still yours

i'll still dream for you in many more seasons
write you many more songs
til my heart runs out of pages
but i doubt that'll ever happen

cause you’re the kind that someone loves
for a long time, it’s no question
i hope it’s alright that my heart
is gonna be yours for a while, a while

i want to deserve you
will you still want me when i deserve you?
i'll be better to deserve you
please still want me to deserve you

downpour

downpour - Japanese Surplus

o mahal, kay tagal na ako'y bumubulong sa hangin
na wag sayangin ang paghihintay at pagiipon ng aking bibig
na balang araw ay maisisigaw ko ang aking pagmamahal

at mamaos man ay hindi problema
kung ang dulo ng tinig ko 
ay mahahanap ang bisig mo

ikaw na ba ang pinagiipunan ng boses ko?
sana nga, sana nga, sana nga

o mahal, kay tagal
nang lumilibot ang aking mga mata
nang huminto sila sa'yo
natagpuan ang tunay na pahinga at hindi na lumingon pa

kahit ang araw ay pabor sa'yo
gayang-gaya nya ang pagkintab ng iyong pagkatao

sa iyong paningin ba ako maliligaw mula ngayon?
sana nga, sana nga, sana nga

o mahal, kay tagal ng puso ko na iyong tangan
ugat nito'y naka ukit na sa mga linya ng iyong palad
at dito'y nakaangkop

noon pa ay nandiyan lang
naghahanda lamang na kumapit
sa puso na saktong magkakasya

akin na ba, akin na ba ang pusong iyon?
sana nga, sana nga, sana nga

huwag na mag tataka
kung hindi na ako titikom pa

at ikalma na ang iyong kaba
ikaw ang paboritong tanawin ng aking mga mata

at kung may mag tatanong man kung nasaan ang aking puso
ang nais kong laging sabihin ay nasa iyong palad

bagama’t hindi ko napansin
aking katawan may mithiin
noong una pang tingin
layunin ng mata ko’y ika’y kilalanin

ang puso ko, sa palad mo
buong tiwala na aalagaan mo
sana ay wag mong bitawan
o ibalik sa akin
sayong sayo na ang puso ko

(sana nga, sana nga, sana nga)
sayong sayo ang puso ko

~
cover art by @unardent <3
co-written with jo <3

puso, palad (sana nga)

puso, palad (sana nga) - Japanese Surplus

illicit


verse
I don't want to see your shape in my unfolded clothes 
Every single thought of you haunts me in my sleep
I wish you well but I hope that I won't see your face
Oh I'll hate myself more if I see you again

blegh

OH NO
Everything seems fine 
Then suddenly you were not mine
OH NO
Everything seems fine 
Then suddenly you were not mine 

EVERYTHING SEEMS  SO FINE 
EVERY FUCKING THING CRASHES MY MIND 

oh i wish i could stop

Portable Wireless Rechargable Headphones with Built in Mic - illicit (demo)

inlove bah u >ᴗ<
+ hartbreakidd

(prod. lyko)

major dizon love story (ft. hartbreakidd)

LABSONG (PROD. MANUEL)

(100 anxious na iyakin VS hindi nagsasawa)

huwag nang lumapit sakin
at hindi ko sasabihin sayo
ang aking tunay na damdamin
naninikip na dibdib sa aking pag gising

oh please, hindi ka ba nagsasawang
piliing manatili sa aking
pagdadrama

ako ay lumaki sa mundong magulo
sayo'y buo at makulay at punong puno
matatanggap ba ako't
sasamahan hanggang dulo't
pumiglas man ako ay yayakapin mo

oh please wag ka naman na magsawa't
piliing manatili kahit na 
nagdadrama

(sinulat ko para sa bff ko na hindi nagsasawa sakin! ILY JENI!)
pangit ng pagkarecord koes! : (((

drama (di ka ba nagsasawa?)

Force Field

Lugar kung sa'n

All the tracks in this ep were written when I was still in highschool. Writing music was one of the ways for me to cope with expressing my mental and emotional struggles, so these tracks are close to my heart. I hope people who may relate, have went through, or are still going through something similar would enjoy them.

Co-produce: Rome Gomez
Mixing: Calix
Album art: Cake Mix

Help Me I Can't Feel (demo)

new demo <3 https://www.instagram.com/p/C5qr314IOKA/

new arrivals, marlboro blues
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At Your Disposal (live demo)

Japanese Surplus

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