NEW SINGLE w/ the fantastic @absolventmusic

enjoy yet another December 31st song  :)

Lyrics:
feel the cracks beneath your feet 
is the fear that’s in your mind
the one that helps you get to sleep 
i need to be 
on the other side of whatever is underneath 

cuz i think there’s something hidden underneath 
a rip that’s hidden in the seam 

i don’t know if it’s all or nothing 
(can we) skip the line bring me to the ending 
so i can see just what it takes 
if i’ll be waiting until this breaks 

looking through the glass, I see reflections of my past 
all the good times gone, it’s been too long, time runs away too fast 

i’ve been waiting patiently for life to let me live again 
that year long void, a path destroyed, asking will it ever end 

when life gets grim, and the pain seeps in, I like to play pretend, cause in my mind it’ll all be fine, the question is just when 

cause I know, just what’s at stake, so i’ll wait until this breaks

until this breaks (feat. absolvent)[prod. LIVING PUFF]

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @burylilac
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Rock bottom
Lower than I’ve ever been
Only hanging on for the sake of my friends
‘Cause I got people who depend on me
And a couple bad habits like dependency

I worry ‘bout my mom
How she’d get on without me
I wonder a lot if you’d still think about me
Only hanging on just to spite those who doubt me
So throw me a rope because I feel like I’m drowning

I’m running out of ways to say this
I hate who I’ve been
Need to make changes
I’ve lost all motivation
Along with my patience
Too long I have waited

I’m running out of ways to say
That I hate myself
Wish that I could change
I think it’s for the best
You and I stay estranged
You wouldn’t recognize the shell I’ve become these days

(lilac heart)
Rock bottom
I’m running out of ways to say
I miss the way you’d get under my skin
Breaking bottles broken glass
Is all that’s left of my ‘lil head
I don’t even know where all the time went

I fell asleep in the snow
And woke up burning on the sidewalk
Take this away before I hurt someone
Try to cover the pain
The broken shards are showing through the holes I burnt into my sleeves

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Rock Bottom w/ lilac heart (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

Solitude
I grew up inside my room
Does she know that feeling too?
Let me in your skin
I'll put you in my shoes
Whispers in the wind
You're cruel
Raindrops fall
I'm your thrall
Your lips met mine
Inside of the twilight
I get so high with you
You make me feel alive
Forever in debt to you
Oh, you saved my life
(I can't let it happen twice)
Our hearts no longer two
After we met that night
I can see you smiling about it
Im smiling 'cuz I'm fucking a bad bitch
And later I'ma pour up shots inside of my attic
She says she feels so much happier off the acid
Oh, baby that's not good for you
Let me take you to the mall and buy you Jimmy Choo's
I wish I could have some friends that I could talk to
Because I really trust my gut more than I trust you
The only heart I need is the one on my shoes
The one on my shoes
Sell my mind for profit and take it out of pocket
I hate it when you talk like that
Oh, when you talk like that
Take my hand inside yours
And love me like I'm all yours
I hate it when you break me down
Oh, when you break me down
Your lips met mine
Inside of the twilight
I get so high with you
You make me feel alive

Somewhere in the Woods

In Your Skin

In Your Skin w/ notahero /p. saint mike

as real as it gets

prod by me
ft. @evergardens
Lyrics:
(oh you never cared)

Get out of my life
I don't wanna see you no more
Tear apart my body, leaving me with sores
Tired of hearing that you're bored
Save your shit for the next, cause I'm not gonna take it
You must be delusional for wanting to take him
But when you text, you don't want to leave me vacant

Now, when you leave are you just gonna call his line?
And, thanks for wasting my time
I never thought you would lead me down
Oh, I'm such a let down
Oh, but that wont bring me down
I'm gonna get that frown off your face
Because that look's corrupting my life
Way that you view me sometimes :(

Tearing all these pictures, I don't want to see them no more
Oh, and i'll leave you at the back-door
Cause I don't wanna see you no more
So i'll leave this place that we call home

What makes you think that i'd give a fuck about you?
Never did you wrong, but I know you cant relate too
Just comes to show, how you're degrading
And now you're just (fading)

As I run between the lines
And no more are we intertwined
I'm glad i'll never see your eyes
Cause you were nothing why'd I try?
I'll never go where you are
even if that meant i'd die

running away from this
leave it in the ditch
all u ever did
lie to me again
u spewing shit to the ground
thats all thats coming out ur mouth
time spent alone
stings a little more now

its fine i think i need to calm down
lose my mind no i cant shut it down
near the end ill make it somehowwwwwwwww

vacant ft evergarden

Prod by me

guitar by expulsing

lyrics:

my mom called me like
"aren't you coming home?"

don't worry about me,mom
cause I'm with John

he's been my way of escaping
but he doesn't know me
he doesn't even know my name

the pain never goes away
the way I'm feeling today
I felt yesterday

If there was a way to bring me back, baby

I would give you my body for you to take

(oh boy,boy,boy)keep my last words
They'll keep you warm while I am not at home
but if I was you
I would rather be alone


I think I'm in love with him
but he doesn't know my bad side
It's gonna be really hard for me when he realizes

I don't know what else to do
I don't believe him and he doesn't believe in me

I don't want to hurt you, but I always do

baby,I saw your last ten calls and it wasn't cool

my mom called me like
"aren't you coming home?"

don't worry about me,mom
cause I'm with John

he's been my way of escaping
but he doesn't know me
he doesn't even know my name

the pain never goes away
the way I'm feeling today
I felt yesterday

If there was a way to bring me back, baby

I would give you my body for you to take

The way I'm feeling

2. im in outer space

havent felt this way in awhile

@cpt_sad
vox mixed by @vibevoka

i try to act the same when i hardly know ya
anxious at the party in the corner
thrownin on my songs but they barely know me
asking who the fuck is the sad homie
they seem to like the way that i do it to em
take a sip of what im brewin
lil pieces of me in ya whole movement
actin like you dont know what the fuck we doing
same mattress with the new sheets
see the thread count shit aint cheap
checking eBay for the listing
trynna find what i been missing
monetary value at an all time low
think im going back to who i was before
tall skinny kid with a good heart
getting by trynna do his part
back up the track till im back in the zone
back up my life till im back on the road
spending  these dollars i cannot afford
dreaming of women who do not adore
my sluggish demeanor i have said before
please show me a sign from way up above
dont give me an act unless its from a god
who decides the fate im hungry for
boutta hit the fuckin road 
me n jerry on the move
when we in yo city hit us with the plug
we needa smoke a blunt before we perform 
we’re coming for your throats
you better fuckin know
we want all the smoke
throw it in the bowl
we’re way too fucked up
we need about 10 minutes  before we die
we dont wanna make you cry
we dont wanna look you in the eye
we just wanna get a move on to the next show
baby i think you deserve to know
i aint going anywhere before
i settle the score i was fighting for 

twist off cap to open up
memories ive burnt to dust
coated with a shiny rust
sat in the dark for way too long
wrote about one too many songs
the content full of repeated words
half of em come out slurred 

haven’t even really earned a check worth saving
i know you fake it the love, pain and the hurt
ill say all the right things you wanna hear 
every fucking day
can i have one thing just go my way
lifes a bitch have you met her yet?
she’s beautiful  dont need a man
or any kind of rules to follow
pop the pill its hard to swallow
fall asleep will i wake up tomorrow 
fucked if i try to make a difference
beat within inches  of this life
i take for granted 
how the fuck u gonna manage
any kind of real work schedule
trapped in this hell hole
rewind and tell me every single detail
causing me to derail
can’t be bothered to check an email
can’t be bothered to set an alarm
putting it off like it’ll do too much harm
stuck my ways since i was a kid
born knowing nothing take it all to the grave

SPOTIFY

skinny (prod yesterday)

i hope we can both get better :(

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2. im in outer space

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