its not personal, its strictly business
prod. @jolst @irby314

im drunk again
i miss your face
just wish that i 
could replace 
the memories 
that are haunting me 
i miss the simple pleasantries
like sitting with you
staring at the sea 
this sullen panic
slowly surrounds me 

you dont know
you dont know
wat you're doing to me
you dont know 
you dont know 

you never loved me and it shows
it hurts me more than u could ever know
that im not the one you chose...

i wake up, 4 am
staring at the clock
wishing that i was him 
u dont know what your doing to me
baby
thought you were the best
rip my heart 
out of my chest 
i know that you 
would do it all again

i know that youd do it all again
but lets be real 
you're proabably better off with him
you're probably better off with him

you're probably better off...

im drunk again
miss your face
just wish that i
was what you wanted...

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better off [+irby & jolst]

Hyperpop Heartbreak (johnnyfriend)solo version

a little experimental song i did, the drums are mostly made up of things i recorded myself :) let me know what you think!

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i think, and i think

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

Wait (Feat. Guccihighwaters)(Prod. Notmorgn)

@scottysplash

i thought the worst of it had already happened again
so im back on my bullshit
posted up in the ruins of my city
been fed up with the life ive been livin
til i get fucked up and hang with the homies
livin it up while were all goin down
i fuckin hate this town but i can deal while ur around

"u know u only make things worse
when u bring it up again it only makes me hurt"
well im glad to know
u can start to imagine how i felt
ur locked inside my heart
found ur way there like a shelter
but u cant run from ur fuckin shadow
dont u know?

give me ur worst when i gave u my best

i thought the worst of it had already happen again
so im back on my bullshit
posted up in the ruins of my city
been fed up with the life ive been livin
til i get fucked up and hang with the homies
livin it up while were all goin down
i fuckin hate this town but i can deal while ur around

Follow me <3

ruins (prod. scotty splash)

produced by @splashgvng

Yeah it's been awhile since I've seen your face
But I really hope I hope you're okay 

I feel off and winters going all in 
Feels like the snows not stoppen 
My head it does this often 
And I’m all in nothen to lose they call it 
Got a couple of bruises fallen
All old news no problem it’s common 

To me I see my friends all in my rear view past loves and lusts they’re mixed in too 
Spend a night getting sad to some indie
I don’t think they see anything in me  
I don’t need it and I never really knew that 
Till I hit stop listened to the playback 
Still got a want but I think she a need 
say we so close that we could never be 
I always have a couple of excuses why I can’t go planned out like blueprints 
Just in case someone other than you ask me
I never really know when you wanna hit the backseat 
I always have a couple of excuses why I can’t go planned out like blueprints 
Just in case someone other than you ask me
I never really know when you wanna hit the backseat

I feel off and winters going all in 
Feels like the snows not stoppen 
My head it does this often 
And I’m all in nothen to lose they call it 
Got a couple of bruises fallen
All old news no problem it’s common 

Exhausting don’t know what it costing 
Hearts halting I’m up late mocking 
Myself cuz I’ve felt like fake latley
Don’t help when you call cuz I really can see 
you’ve been on a bender said you wouldn’t binge again 
but I’ve really been here with a couple of my friends 
So cliche so true they say 
Can’t help if they don’t want it no way 
Top shelf when it come to the old days 
Just stay put cuz I dont wanna throw away 
I know that you’ll hit me yeah
when I’m ballen 
Scales just tipped I don’t think they stallen 
Give it 2 years and I’ll show u what I saw in myself when said that I was all in 

I feel off and winters going all in 
Feels like the snows not stoppen 
My head it does this often 
And I’m all in nothen to lose they call it 
Got a couple of bruises fallen
All old news no problem it’s common 
I’m all in they call it

All In (prod. splashgvng)

throwaway song no. 1483284523

lyrics ~

fell in love with your energy
i need you here right next to me
i wanna
get drunk, drive endlessly
watch your hair fall perfectly
i wanna
waste time and kiss you slow
face the world sun rain or snow
it's all i
ever really wanna know
and i want it here right now with you

baby
can you feel your emotion?
it's running through your heart
and trust me we'll make it so far away from here, love
and lost in the rainstorm
but you know i'll keep you safe
fingers through your hair 
you know you just deserve the best

fell in love with your energy
i need you here right next to me
i wanna
get drunk, drive endlessly
watch your hair fall perfectly
i wanna
waste time and kiss you slow
face the world sun rain or snow
it's all i
ever really wanna know
and i want it here right now with you

fell in love with your energy
i need you here right next to me
i wanna
get drunk, drive endlessly
watch your hair fall perfectly
i wanna
waste time and kiss you slow
face the world sun rain or snow
it's all i
ever really wanna know
and i want it here right now with you

~ we'll make it so far away from here, love

* Can you tell me what the fuck is going on? *
* Can you tell me what the fuck is even wrong? *

Shooting star, you're my sunshine.
Remember nights where I'd cry alone..
Told me move on, and it's okay; I hate you now.
I pretended like it'd work out.
Now I'm overreacting x4

Am I overreacting, told myself that I'd be fine. Thanks for asking.
No one was asking, no one was asking.
Gave you the world, in return I am dying.

Yah,

Shooting star you're my sunshine,
remember nights where I'd cry alone. x2

Shooting star, you're my sunshine.
Remember nights where I'd cry alone..
Told me move on, and it's okay; I hate you now.
I pretended like it'd work out.
Now I'm overreacting x4
(Running away from me girl, now you're running away from me girl.)

*I can't even tell if you want me or my bands now.*
*I can't even tell if you want me for my bands now.*

Pop at your party,
Im off the molly,
say that she want me,
I do not want you,
Say that she want me,
she did not fuck with me when I had no one,
I was outside of the crib and it's snowing,
momma I made it im makin that money,
momma I made it im makin that money,
momma I made it im makin that money now.

Overreacting (prod. remghost x sanctuary)

Fuck fake ass friends. on the real though, I love y'all <3
Mix & Master: @itsyungvan
Cover art: @SL33P1NCLASS

Lyrics-
Stabbed through the chest got me feeling like I’m Caeser
Et tu, Brute? got me writing a new heater
All my friends wanna tweet they don’t care though
As long they get their next song on the stereo
Fake ass friends wanna front say they love me
Strapped a bomb to my chest so don’t hug me
Words are cheap, let em talk with their money
All y’all broke you can’t even spend a hundred

Julius Caeser (Prod. LCS x Subro)

Prod. @lilduckk
💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Lyrics:
why is it stuck in my brain
I know that it was all fake
You always wore that sad face
You were my little heart break 

Was it all just a mistake
I never know if im okay 
Watch it all fade and decay
I only cry with my blade
Tears only fall in the rain

Im not who i used to be
Let him die, let him fuckin bleed
Try to hide, every part of me
I cant rely, no ones saving me
X2


Imma make it this year
This year
I dont give a fuck if i give a bitch tears
I dont give a fuck if i die no fear
Imma give it all imma grind till its here

I live in the dark like a ghost
All my friends go
Watch the dreams fade slow
I just want the most

Goth boy with a new flow
Goth boy with a heart cold
Whoa


Fuck a limit i dont have one
Dripping on the floor skin burn in the sun
Fuck her twice and im done
Need a new bitch, real bad, draw blood

Draw blood
My gun on my side
Shawty do you wanna ride
Her lips on mine
She could take my life


why is it stuck in my brain
I know that it was all fake
You always wore that sad face
You were my little heart break 

Was it all just a mistake
I never know if im okay 
Watch it all fade and decay
I only cry with my blade
Tears only fall in the rain

Im not who i used to be
Let him die, let him fuckin bleed
Try to hide, every part of me
I cant rely, no ones saving me
X2

Little Heart Break (Prod. WellFed)

MY CURRENT PROJECT: @whykemusic

the boys: @acidcastle

i think, and i think

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