I cry 2

YNotzALots

New Demonz

indeed 3

50/50

Can You Be My New Hope?

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

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//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

my debut album 'we' is out now: https://gnash.lnk.to/weSO
shop exclusive 'we' merch bundles: http://gnash.us/bundles
get tickets to the broken hearts club tour: http://gnash.us/tour

lyrics:

(verse 1)
i need emotion novocaine
i need a numbing of my brain
i need something 
to take away 
the remains of ur name

i need amnesia for a day
& an umbrella for the rain
that hasn't gone away
since u said u didn't need me

lately, 
been thinking maybe
there's a place we
won't feel so crazy

then in a hazy
mid-morning daydream
i found a shady
spot that they saved me

they said

(hook)
come be the newest member of 
the broken hearts club
we hate every little thing
about the people that we loved
we’re the let down, we’re the lied to
where the lost go
when it finds u
where the lonely,
make the lonely,
feel less lonely
& we’re dying to
invite u to stay
& take away the pain
cuz misery loves company 
so hey, what do u say?

(verse 2)
& at first i wasn't sure
if there's even a cure
for what i'm feeling cuz what i'm feeling’s
been feeling more & more absurd
the repeating in my head
of every last word that u said
feels like ever since u left
u still won't leave me

& lately, 
been thinkin maybe
there might be a place we
won't feel so crazy

for changing 
the way u made me
& in a daydream,
i let them save me

(hook)
i'm the newest member of 
the broken hearts club
we hate every little thing
about the people that we loved
we're the let down, we're the lied to
where the lost go
when it finds u
where the lonely,
make the lonely,
feel less lonely 
& we’re dying to
invite u to stay
& take away the pain
cuz misery loves company 
so hey, what do u say?

(bridge)
i guess
if u can't beat 'em join 'em
that's what they always say
let's go inside, let's coincide, 
& all commiserate

singing

(hook)
we're the newest members
of the broken hearts club
we still feel pretty lonely 
& we wish we didn't but
we're the newest of 
the broken hearts club
& we all kinda hate it
but it's easier than love
singing
we're the newest members
of the broken hearts club
& we still feel pretty lonely 
& we wish we didn't but
we're the newest of 
the broken hearts club
& we all kinda hate it
but it's easier than love

Download

the broken hearts club

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//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

I dont condone suicide these were just the thoughts on my mind at a point in time...
prod by:@mental
MIxed by:@lofeetunes
art by:@oddyssi

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Dead And Cold

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-too-much-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

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Too Much (feat. guccihighwaters)

prod: @mental
mixed: @mental and @kammichaelmusic

mental was here OwO

Worried (prod. mental)

Walk Away (ft. Aiko & Teqkoi)

Demons (feat. Braden Barrie)

Demons (feat. SayWeCanFly)

"𝕒𝕕𝕕𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕔𝕖𝕡𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖"

First track with the new mic, thought i would go for something different then i usually do hope you guys enjoy it!
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Lyrics:
[chorus]
just when i thought i got my shit on track 
i go back to the thoughts that i think of myself
when im crying alone, on my phone
dry like my throat when that weed hit my dome
pupils they dilate, pupils they tryna hate. but i dont let that shit get to me
singing these songs is my destiny, feel like each day is a test for me
 
[verse 1]
waiting for someone that i can commit to
asking myself, is it me or is it you
i cannot keep going i need a tissue
tragic, im panicked i think i need help
i don't think she's good for my mental health
think of the memories that we once held
think of the feelings that both of us felt

[bridge]
Was it love or was it fucking lust?
I leave all my friends in the fucking dust
addicted to the concept of love 
but when it comes down to it i'd rather do drugs

[chorus]
just when i thought i got my shit on track 
i go back to the thoughts that i think of myself
when im crying alone, on my phone
dry like my throat when that weed hit my dome
pupils they dilate, pupils they tryna hate. but i dont let that shit get to me
singing these songs is my destiny, feel like each day is a test for me

[verse 2]
why am i here
laying decaying in the atmosphere
look in your eyes
cant tell if i want you, are you in disguise?
my purpose in life
wish i new that, it might restart my strife
pick up the knife
asking myself who would care if I died

I'm falling tonight
always gon find a way out of these lies
never gon find a way out of my mind
i cannot fucking see it i know i am blind
~
procrastinate all problems
nobody will ever solve them
wait as I slay all my demons
fucked in the head for no reason

never gon find a way out
throat dry its like im in a drought
contemplate all that i think when im high
yeah sure im glad that you met a new guy.

[chorus SLOWED]
just when i thought i got my shit on track 
i go back to the thoughts that i think of myself
when im crying alone, on my phone
dry like my throat when that weed hit my dome
pupils they dilate, pupils they tryna hate. but i dont let that shit get to me
singing these songs is my destiny, feel like each day is a test for me

cycles [prod. Discent]

"𝕚 𝕓𝕖 𝕤𝕖𝕖𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕘𝕙𝕠𝕤𝕥𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕤𝕞𝕠𝕜𝕖 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕚 𝕣𝕚𝕡"
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lyrics:

[chorus]
left me for that bitch take that bong hit
*inhale*
i be seeing ghosts in smoke when i rip
phantoms in the night like i'm ridding in the whip
getting short of breath when i say this
*inhale*
I aint fucking lying when i say that i miss
your eyes and your hair and your succulent lips
 
[verse]
fuck dial tones im
always gon pick up the phone ight
don't leave me alone 
she like medusa she makes me get stoned, might
call her again but i remembered i dont win fights
quit texting me when im getting over all the insights

[bridge]
psycho i might go
just repeat the cycle
all this pain inside of me feels like a fucking knife though

[chorus]
left me for that bitch take that bong hit
*inhale*
i be seeing ghosts in smoke when i rip
phantoms in the night like i'm ridding in the whip
getting short of breath when i say this
*inhale*
I aint fucking lying when i say that i miss
your eyes and your hair and your succulent lips

fuck dial tones [prod. jody]

lyrics
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i bet you like
the way that i
sit inside on a friday night
doing nothing with my life
while you’re out partying with other guys 
but i’m not wise 
& these aren't lies
according to you it’s all in my mind
but i see the things that they post online
and it makes me sick to my fucking spine
i worry a lot about the day you leave 
cause the day you leave is the day i leave 
and i think too much about suicide 
about killing time 
about time i try 
something new 
cause this shit gets old but i love the way that she says i love you
and i tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
and i tried many times to erase what we made what have i done
cause a part of me died when you left in november that night 
think he’s right beside you telling you what to say to me why
do i think what i think cause i think i’m in love with a lie

inside

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool 

let go of the feelings that you felt right here
ask me how i feel i'll say i'm feeling like shit
open up my eyes, see you in disguise
just tell me you're here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

it's been a minute and all the tension is killing me
i been driving for hours 
yeah fuck a meal or a shower 
I just been waiting to see you 
dressed in hot pink 
but this time the colors 
will fade into nothing
quit saying that you don't remember 
crying on my sweater 
i tried to make it better 
you just pulled over 
said that me and you can never be together
tears so soft like a feather
wait, the darkest heart cannot be harmed
we've had enough time to depart
you have my heart dont leave it broken here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

crash inside ur pool (prod. pretty boy ron x van beats)

"𝕀𝕥'𝕤 𝕣𝕚𝕡𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕪 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕨𝕠"

Fuck, I want u back in my arms :(

cover art credit: https://www.instagram.com/exchoess/?hl=en
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lyrics:

[intro]
Tonight last night, we gotta make it special
but girl there ain't no pressure
hold your heart so gentle
I just wanna chill with you
It's ripping my heart in two
fuck it i'm coming through
like right from the start I knew

[chorus]
I'll be there for you every time
you stole my heart that is your crime
i'll get upset but you can find
a way to calm my nerves this time

[verse]
I want to be with you
I might need a tissue
cause when you'll be gone I will so fucking miss you
I wish I did kiss you 
but anxiety in my brain could not let me
please do not forget me
you really do get me
so please girl just let me
look at the stars tonight and point out to you all the cool constellations
we going far tonight your beauty a 10; matched by our conversations
I really do like this girl, would take her forever with no hesitations
we're stuck in this stupid world but all of it seems worth it for our obligations

[bridge]
don't want a broken heart again
i'll hold you in my arms till then

[chorus]
I'll be there for you every time
you stole my heart that is your crime
i'll get upset but you can find
a way to calm my nerves this time

[outro]
tonight last night we gotta make it special
but I just made this song instead, i'm feeling sentimental

I wish you were here [prod. Ellit]

explicit

"𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕘𝕠𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕤𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕥 𝕠𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕤𝕨𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕣𝕥"
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lyrics:

[chorus]
still got your scent on my sweatshirt
I cannot seem to forget her
thinking bout you and i'm starting to cry every time
I have not been okay lately
I am just missing my baby
sit all alone until you hit my line every night 
the feelings inside my head blow up again
release it with the smoke
alone I cry, i'd rather die I toke until I choke
I'm sorry I offended you Its just a fucking joke
my life without your warmth beside got me feeling so broke

[bridge]
you're perfect from inside to out
I think I'll stay with you baby no doubt
Can't keep my feelings inside 
when i'm without you I think I might cry
please baby take away pain
fucked in the head and i'm caught in the rain
feelings of love I will gain, I cannot wait until we meet again

[verse]
oh I know that you can't go back
I'll just wait here in the cold
lets cuddle up till we grow old 
my growing love for you is gold
I got one chance so I take it 
I won't fuck it up imma make it right
staying with you every fucking night
baby I know yeah your heard it right
got one more chance so I take it I
won't fuck it up imma make it right
staying with you every fucking night
baby I know yeah your heard it right

[chorus]
still got your scent on my sweatshirt
I cannot seem to forget her
thinking bout you and i'm starting to cry every time
I have not been okay lately
I am just missing my baby
sit all alone until you hit my line every night 
the feelings inside my head blow up again
release it with the smoke
alone I cry, i'd rather die I toke until I choke
I'm sorry I offended you Its just a fucking joke
my life without your warmth beside got me feeling so broke

sweatshirt [prod. jody]

lyrics
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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

lyrics
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it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
(x2)

hell if i
stay inside all fucking night
where were we when our love died
getting drunk and killing time
sober mind
clouded eyes
do you believe me when i say goodbye?
sorted my things & i hopped in my ride
where are my keys did i leave them inside?
forward in time
our paths collide
i caught a glipse of you right from the side
wanted to meet but you said that you're fine
chatter my teeth when i'm nervous it's fine

it's cold out i got no jacket
i left it beside my mattress
it's dark out my visions static
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic
i'm home now alone in the attic

follow hateful

alone in the attic (prod. hateful)

tell me when you change (ft. Powfu)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-insecure-lyrics

guitar by noah walker!

Insecure

~2300~

Lyrics: 

Chorus:
I can’t count the times I’ve been double crossed on my 2 hands. You’re in your Sunday best but you’re dancing alone again.

And I know I can’t uphold the promise that I made. At least my words are good for something. Lie through the proof while I lay here with you, she said never I’ll never be the same.

Verse:
Toxic goodbye, homesick lullaby. I only sleep in my own bed, or spend every night feeling hopeless.

Gone out the window my friends went, they figured I wouldn’t notice. Disrespected hearts come out after dark, I’ll find place out among them.

When you notice the pattern it all doesn’t matter, and everything we had in common is gone. Why are we stuck on this wreck in a bottle and who has to know when it’s all said and done?

*CHORUS LOOP*

Double Cross (prod. Bapsxx)

~2300~

Chorus: 
Something isn't right at a phone booth now I'm riding down I-95 and I tried to tell you. That I'm not coming back alive, You'll never get here in time.

This is how it's always been. I've been down and never begged. Now you seem less like all my friends don't say it cause I was afraid of this.

Verse:
come on show me why. Self-destructive all my tendencies and is that how you'll remember me? When my tender love sang you to sleep. Feeling above the world when I'm with you I never doubt those days I still miss you. Sat and we count the rain through your window, same one that I would always come in through.

Tired of thinking that you're better off without me. You stayed away for so long. My skeleton all my bones still long for you to come home.

*CHORUS LOOP*

How It's Been (prod. Bapsxx)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/weepings/useless

ohh somethings been missin man
I see you pullin that sleight of hand
dark out at night when I spark the blend
dark in my mind I can't see an end
~
I've just been making excuses
won't fix the problems laid out for me deuces
I run away from that shit I am useless
stuck in my mind again, can't reproduce this

get so damn high; I cannot think about pain make me cry
think about life; think about kicking the bucket grip knife
perception pry open the gate to just open my mind
might realize that I am the nuisance thats been fuckin my life 

ohhhh right from the start I got blood on the cardigan
like I think I need a friend, that I won't fear will end
might sew up the seams that have ripped from my heart again
like asking myself will I see to the light again
I'm asking myself will I see to the light again
asking myself will I see to the light again
asking myself will I see to the light again
asking myself will I fix up the mess I'm in

ohh somethings been missin man
I see you pullin that sleight of hand
dark out at night when I spark the blend
dark in my mind I can't see an end
~
I've just been making excuses
won't fix the problems laid out for me deuces
I run away from that shit I am useless
stuck in my mind again, can't reproduce this

Useless

useless [prod. tothegood]

"𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕪 𝕦𝕟𝕤𝕡𝕠𝕜𝕖𝕟"

I can't sleep at night again
stay up write my spite again
lost me from inside, within
my mind grind perceptions man

like whats your decision, I know I am fucked up
hardly blinking, overthinking. I suck
I'm making changes, clearer thinking a must
Like please be patient, I'm falling in the hole I've created
every time I cope
I'm wrong and high and I'm losing hope
scream to sky wheres my antidote
I'm losing it lately, my mind has spoke
~
get to high think i'd rather die
blacken till the center lays an eye on me
feeling like death is all around me
holding my breath for words I don't speak

yeah words stay unspoken
blackout the stress when I'm toking
blowing out all of the potent
but I'm gonna try again
Hope to god it works out so I don't see an end

I can't sleep at night again
stay up write my spite again
lost me from inside, within
my mind grind perceptions man

I'm on a mission, I'm winning I'm taking the cake (fo sho)
changing my shit for better I won't wake and bake (no no)
I'm being tethered enduring bad weather there's snakes tryna drag me down
I'm like whatever the taste of your lips got me feeling way better

Insomnia [prod. taurs]

they keep looking at me sideways
something in my head feels strange
throw me on a plastic tray
i can still feel the pressure it's high stakes
hope they dont take me away
imma pray they dont send me away
man thats one heave ass weight
i been watching signs pass on the highway
its so easy to hold it in
not that easy to show it
i swear the way that i soak in it 
you would think i dont know it
i wont stop for a moment 
but i cant see where im going
im above the exosphere floating
swear the minute that the cards dealt theyre folding 
motion sick eyes
the emotion is high
clear the air and the smoke starts rising
somethings in your eyes
somethings on the horizon
i wont say goodbye
dont say goodbye 
but regardless happy you were even there in the first place
i got there but i took the worst way
looking ahead like its my first day
when its my last day
hope its at my birthplace
is it really that hard to tell me 
whats goin on in your head
i know you didnt mean it
but its still what you said
 
when im in your arms 
theres somewhere beautiful
its somewhere beautiful 
can i be beautiful 
what some discard
some call it beautiful
some call it beautiful
some call it beautiful
its not some shit i said just to say
had to get up and walk away
made the window a picture frame 
yeah
when i get old and start to fray
i that someone remember me 
when my memory start to fade 
i dont speak right when you come around
yeah whenll you come around
i was in the clouds
now im coming down

No Trespassing

cause
I can't do shit right, I can't learn my lesson
i can't do shit right, take anti-depressants
illness and welfare robbed my adolescence
my friends probably hate me, can't answer a message

filled with anxiety, always be hidin me
feeling inadequate's always what's driving me
not a role-model, that's not what i strive to be
Can't go outside, i'm afraid they be finding me

paranoid bout my privacy

and they always asking questions bout my face, can't relate
Fuckin caught my own reflection, broke a mirror the other day
Got alotta bad shit that I'm taking to my grave 
Got a fuckin date with death, on house arrest till trial date

so I grab the red wine on rainy days and then i pour it
cause i'll age another fuckin thousand days before I know it
yeah I'll spend em all inside, waste my time while i'm scrollin 
but I love when it rains, cause i'm agoraphobic

i'm not okay
what's the point




prod. Heartful

🌧️ 𝘢𝘨𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘣𝘪𝘤 🌧️

PALACE

LYRICS:

My heart gets a little bit colder
Your lies get a little bit older
My head make it spin on my shoulders
You left and I never got closure

One call we pretend that it's not real
Lines overstepped many times 
So we don't feel
Old scars that I think about still
You can numb all your pain
But it won't help it heal

You can go home
We can lie to ourselves 
Like nothing's wrong
If I told you
I don't feel like I've noticed
A change in the slightest amount

There's another reason to think
I'm a problem
I'm not gonna say shit 
So do what you wanna 
Everything is makeshift 
And I'm never thought of
Wake up with a sense of my worth
And it's all gone

It's all gone
And it's all gone
And it's all gone 
And it's all gone

My heart gets a little bit colder
Your lies get a little bit older
My head make it spin on my shoulders
You left and I never got closure

One call we pretend that it's not real
Lines overstepped many times 
So we don't feel
Old scars that I think about still
You can numb all your pain
But it won't help it heal

Scars (prod. Poe^)

i miss the old you
do what we used to
i miss the old me
i dont know
i miss the old you
and what we used to
do when i used to
think i knew

i miss the old you
do what we used to
i miss the old me
i dont know
i miss the old you
and what we used to
do when i used to
think i knew



terrified
i can never hide
my minds sanitized
broken wide
open eyes
just to see my own demise
i wanna whip in a audi
i wanna house with my dudes
and a doggy
maybe a cat
maybe its that
my indecisiveness
holding me back

ive got a feeling my feelings are whack
but ill never know
im too scared to ask
what if its that
what if its that

what if its that
what if its that

what if its that

what if its 

my head is tearing apart at me
self sabotage is a part of me
this is the art in me
the is the feeling i get
whenever i think im depressed
whenever i think im the best
cause theres not a difference
that is my genuine inference
i am not special or different
i am not special or different
but that's no excuse to be average

i miss the old you
do what we used to
i miss the old me
i dont know
i miss the old you
and what we used to
do when i used to
think i knew

i miss the old you
do what we used to
i miss the old me
i dont know
i miss the old you
and what we used to
do when i used to
think i knew


used to think i knew

old u (p. splashgvng x saint tommorow)

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