NOSTAR AMONG THE STARS* - (feat. @melanstalgie)

i saw u in the morning :(

[Chorus]
Grab a pack of 25
Smoke it like it's '05
Will I make it past 25 ?
Started my life in 2005
I get so fucking, fucking, fucking high
All my, all my, all my life
Hiding all the pain and I always deny
Never try, I put effort and I cry
Closing my eyes, hope I die
My whole world fucking on fire

[Verse 1]
The sun come out like it's LGBTQ
Mama always said mind your P's and your Q's
My flow is saucy like it's BBQ
She want a family but I got scars to stitch
She want a family but I got scars to stitch
I really thought that this shit would of happen, shit
I'm missing my goals like Ibrahimović
I don't even care about being rich
(I don't care about being rich)

[Bridge]
Hcir gnieb tuoba erac t'nod I (I don't care about being rich)
Hcir gnieb tuoba erac t'nod I (I don't care about being rich)
Hcir gnieb tuoba erac t'nod I (I don't care about being rich)
Hcir gnieb tuoba erac t'nod I (I don't care about being rich)

[Chorus]
Grab a pack of 25
Smoke it like it's '05
Will I make it past 25 ?
Started my life in 2005
I get so fucking, fucking, fucking high
All my, all my, all my life
Hiding all the pain and I always deny
Never try, I put effort and I cry
Closing my eyes, hope I die
My whole world fucking on fire

[Verse 2]
Will I make it past 25 ?
Started in 2005
No lie will be told when we cry
Do not try to end your fucking life

[Outro]
Don't end your life

cigarettes for no reason.

cigarettes

I see mama crying on the floor
That shit hit me right to the core
I wish I never saw you on the floor
Used to blame it all on them and now I understand
I used to think I can't and now I know I can

Let it fly
Mama cry, I'm sorry
Don't try to end it
Don't try to end it
More time
More efforts left in me, me, me, me
I just said some dumb shit
Now I regret it, you best believe it
I will never make that mistake again

You left without a goodbye (No goodbye)
Never even said goodbye (Goodbye)
Saturday night, never thought I'd hear about that (Death)
Where'd you go ?

I wish you the best luck
I wish you the best fuck
I wish you the best of everything
I wish you the best of everything
Not the worst to come and ring
What the fuck is this love ?
Unconditional love
What the fuck is this love ?

Come with me, next to me
Let it flow, let it be
What will you see next to me ?
Another road, another path
Another sea, another adventure
For you and me, you and me, you and me

Take it back, all those bad things you said about me
They ain't true, you're just saying what you feel
But deep down they still hurt even though it ain't true
Even through it ain't true, deep down
Wish I could kill me, deep down
Wish I- Wish I could end it
But I can't, no I can't
I got mom, I got dad
I got my sister waiting for me
To live a long life
To live a long life
To live a long life

flowers of hope, part 1

[Intro]
Pink blood

[Chorus]
This pink blood, blood
This pink blood, blood
She ripped my heart in pieces
I couldn’t deal with the pain

[Verse 1]
Let the battle to death begin
Who will end up on the top of the hill
I’m a shark and your a little fish
Swim swim ‘till you can’t swim
Swim in this ocean of blood

[Chorus]
This pink blood, blood
This pink blood, blood
She ripped my heart in pieces
I couldn’t deal with the pain

[Verse 2]
One more lost and I’ll be gone
I won’t come back when you come back
I’ll be there tonight
Every day, every night
I contemplate my life, too many times
Every day, every night
I search for purpose and meaning

[Chorus]
This pink blood, blood
This pink blood, blood
This pink blood got me burning up
This pink blood
She ripped my heart in pieces
I couldn’t deal with the pain

ocean of pink blood

[Chorus]
Find the time to make it right
Again, Again
Why do you lie ?
I'm in the darkest of pits of Hell

[Verse 1]
Make it right (Make it right)
With the time we have (Ah-ah-ah)
Is love a crime ? (No)
Your soul is mine (Would you make the time?)
To take it from me, take it from me

[Chorus]
Find the time to make it right
Again, Again
Why do you lie ?
I'm in the darkest of pits of Hell

[Verse 2]
Create and explore
Find a little bit more
Never go for the lore
Always moving forward
Always moving forward (Ah-ah)
Towards the battle inside my mind (Inside my mind)
Take a step back from all the drama inside my head
Take your soul from me, soul from me (Ah-ah-ah)

[Chorus]
Find the time to make it right
Again, Again
Why do you lie ?
I'm in the darkest of pits of Hell

[Outro]
Ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah (Find)
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah (Why do you lie ?)

REDEMPTION (grayskies)

[Pre-Chorus: penumbra]
So I take another hit, take another bowl
Take another one, but I don't even feel whole

[Chorus: penumbra]
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise

[Verse: Melanstalgie]
She had a silhouette of dreams
Like all those faces on the magazine
She tried to escape the world of fiend and drugs
I know you too well with your pretty little eyes
I'm such in love with the bag
Why the clock is ticking too fast
I cannot realize

[Verse 1: penumbra]
I cannot realize
That you were wearing a disguise
You will never go to paradise

[Pre-Chorus: penumbra]
So I take another hit, take another bowl
Take another one, but I don't even feel whole

[Chorus: penumbra]
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise

[Bridge: penumbra]
This is my demise (This is my demise)
This is my demise (I'll make you alright)
This is my demise (You will be alright)
This is my one and only demise

[Verse 2: penumbra]
Can you tell me how you feel about me
We could sit out and make a family
And we could be together
And we could be forever
Let me just take a final hit

[Pre-Chorus: penumbra]
So I take another hit, take another bowl
Take another one, but I don't even feel whole

[Chorus: penumbra]
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise

[Outro: penumbra]
This is my demise

demise w/ melanstalgie (deadyami)

@3ashluv2012
@hatepenumbra


[Intro]
Ashluv

[Verse 1]
Let's go back where we had our first dance
Shying away like this is my first rodeo
When we had our first kiss, I was in a trance
I thought that we would split but now we're like a duo
Come aboard my ship (Come aboard)
If you fall, you'll be falling with me (Fall for me)
One day we'll make a kid (Like a kid)
You'll be growing old with me (Yeah)

[Chorus]
Always together, always together
Always together (Always together)
Always together, always together
Always together, woah (Yeah)

[Verse 2]
Yeah, listen to my heartbeat when we're kissing hard
We're synchronized and my heartbeat is beating so hard
Just like the way when I fell for you so hard
Do you wanna die ? (Do you wanna die ?)
I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die)
Should I go ahead and die ? (Hell no)
I don't wanna die too you
I want a big long life
Let's make the best of our evil
Watch out for the evil eyes

[Chorus]
Always together, always together
Always together (Always together)
Always together, always together
Always together, woah (Yeah)

alwaystogether (3ash)

[Intro]
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
I just fucked up with my day one
I been on my toes since day one
Bouta hang out with my day one
Bouta hang out with my day one
Yeah, I just want that one girl

[Chorus]
You're my one and only
You're my one and only
You're my one and only, yeah
You're my one and only
You're my one and only
You're my one and only, yeah

[Verse 2]
Fly around town like I'm a fucking ghost
I'ma hunt you down 'till I become a ghost
All those fake people 'round me, I don't fuck with those
In a year or two, I'll make a fucking show
My bedsheets are full of fucking blood
Ripped your heart out when we fucked
Heard you still fucking with me
But I'm not fucking with you
Said fuck you
Umbrella on my head, I still feel the rain
I've been working hard trying to forget the pain
I don't like it, I'ma fight it
We gon' make it, dream chasing
Dream chasing in this bitch
Already hooked on this shit
R-I-P Lil peep, save this bitch
Oh my god, no, tell me how to live
Never again I'll cut my wrist
'Member the days when the blood be drip
Vampire hours, take a sip

[Chorus]
You're my one and only
You're my one and only
You're my one and only, yeah
You're my one and only
You're my one and only
You're my one and only, yeah

[Outro]
My bedsheets are full of fucking blood
Ripped your heart out when we fucked
Heard you still fucking with me
But I'm not fucking with you
Said fuck you

one and only (variant)

Lyrics:

18 years old
I found my home
You're my home

I just got a text, It's my ex
And she's telling me I never loved her
She is probably right (Fuck)
Never thought I'd fall again
It happened right after we fell apart
Two broken souls

Told myself "I'll never fall again for another one"
But I still did, is this another trick ?
Tell me right now, am I cursed ?
Burst into tears when I make 'em hurt
Sorry I don't have trust in myself

So many regrets in my life
Cigarette might fill in the void
Why was I chosen with the curse for true love ?

Tell me do you love me ? I'll always be there for my baby
I'm sure if you ever leave, I know you'll come back to me
Because I know that we're forever baby
I hope you'll be next to me my baby
I wouldn't want to have anyone else my baby
I really hope we'll be together at 90

It'll be forever (Ever, and ever)
It'll be forever (And ever)
It'll be forever (Ever, and ever)
Forever (Forever)

I thought I was done with that shit
I was done with the heartbreak and the pain and everything else
But I still fell for you and I'm happy I did
I love you

A CURSE FOR TRUE LOVE

[Pre-Chorus: penumbra]
So I take another hit, take another bowl
Take another one, but I don't even feel whole

[Chorus: penumbra]
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise

[Verse: Melanstalgie]
She had a silhouette of dreams
Like all those faces on the magazine
She tried to escape the world of fiend and drugs
I know you too well with your pretty little eyes
I'm such in love with the bag
Why the clock is ticking too fast
I cannot realize

[Verse 1: penumbra]
I cannot realize
That you were wearing a disguise
You will never go to paradise

[Pre-Chorus: penumbra]
So I take another hit, take another bowl
Take another one, but I don't even feel whole

[Chorus: penumbra]
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise

[Bridge: penumbra]
This is my demise (This is my demise)
This is my demise (I'll make you alright)
This is my demise (You will be alright)
This is my one and only demise

[Verse 2: penumbra]
Can you tell me how you feel about me
We could sit out and make a family
And we could be together
And we could be forever
Let me just take a final hit

[Pre-Chorus: penumbra]
So I take another hit, take another bowl
Take another one, but I don't even feel whole

[Chorus: penumbra]
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise
Pretty girls with the pretty eyes
Never mind, I never realized
Love letter to you, yeah I wish I was right
Sacrificing my love, this is my demise

[Outro: penumbra]

demise w/ melanstalgie (deadyami) [sped up]

@hatepenumbra


I told you not to call my phone
I know you really felt at home
I was really so done
Now I’m living like a bum
Acting like I’m so strong
But really I’m just crying inside
I’m crying, I’m falling
Don’t tell me, that we can’t fall in love
Oh we can’t fall in love

I ate a poison
Suppressed emotions
I hate these motions
I hate the ocean
I’m feeling so stressed
Think that I’m depressed
Full of regrets
Never confess-fess-fess
Never confess-fess-fess
Never confess-fess-fess
Never confess-fess-fess
I’ll never confess

Father I’m sorry I made a mistake
There is a feeling inside of me that I can’t shake
I always turn my back, hope I don’t get bit by snake
All these bitches being fake

I need a break, I really wish that I could end it all
I’m tired of being alive, can’t even say I’m alive
I need some space, always isolating my heart
Think I’m protecting myself but I’m just hurting myself
I’m fading from all the drama inside my head, I-
I don’t want you gone, so I’ll do my best
We got so many problems
We forget to check in with our loved ones
And I know
And I’m sorry
I’m so sorry
I’ve been sorry

I ate a poison
Supressed emotions
I hate these motions
I hate the ocean
I’m feeling so stressed
Think that I’m depressed
Full of regrets
Never confess-fess-fess
Never confess-fess-fess
Never confess-fess-fess
Never confess-fess-fess

never confessed (mndls1600)

@melanstalgie


@hatepenumbra
Paint my world with a bright red sky
The blood moon seeks a friend at night
Never imagined I could be alone
With all this pressure on my mind
Could you come by sometimes
Always on my mind
Could you come by sometimes
Always on my mind

@melanstalgie
My life is such a miracle
My life it went terrible
My crown is unstoppable, yeah
You'll be there by my side
You'll be there to kick it with me
You'll be there to kick it with me, yeah
Baby, do you ride with me ?
Can you tell me one thing [?] that you know of me ?
So hate myself, I keep on falling
I be there to see where I be belonging
Where I be belonging
Please bae, just tell me what to do
I'll be there with you, crashing my love
You'll be there to the end
Just tell me what to do
I'll be there with you, crashing my love
You'll be there to the end

@hatepenumbra
You'll be dead tonight, get ready for this coffin
I was always in the right, you was always bluffing
Do you not remember everything you said to me ?
"I trust you" "Love you" So why do you keep lying to me ?
Saw your phone full of messages that day
None of them would tell your friends you feel good about me

alwaysonmymind w/ melanstalgie

flowers of hope, part 2

@hatepenumbra


“I don’t want to let you go”
I said in my heart I swear
Inhale exhale, I can’t breath
I think my heart is locked up

Angel stop hiding in the sky
Wonder where you’ve been all this time
Heal the wounds I carry with my
Fallen battles in my mind

Love you more
For the rest of my life
Butterflies, i’ll catch em later
Be there with you no matter what

Hi girl, I want you now
No matter what or where you are
Come here, I’ll make you a vow
The moon will never leave the sun

What about the things I said ?
Reshape, reform and forget
Blacked out drunk instead
Demons in my head

That night my oath was defied
Told you that I’m leaving a while
First thing I saw were the tears in your eyes
Threw out the window my ego and pride

I didn’t mean to make you cry
Wasn’t my intention, oh
Thoughts of me in the dark without you
Shining bright, your the love i need to

Love you more
For the rest of my life
These butterflies are getting in the way
Be there with you no matter what

I’ll play you some chords
You’ll fall with me even more
Front door, my core
Kisses in the forest forever

Forever
Forever
Forever
Forever

under the moonlight

this is my favorite one, hope y’all fw it
@hatepenumbra

scars from a lie that never leaves
no song could ever bring a tear to my eyes
life sown, woah
just hear the crows
just hear the crows in fear 
just hear the crows in fear
sweet home
the sound of cries and screams
so long, nights of endless tears
remember the tears in your eyes
never again i’ll do that shit to you

where is my silent hill ?
where is my silent hill ?
where is my silent hill ?
where is my silent hill ?
where is my silent hill ? hill

“theres light and darkness and sometimes i cant even tell the difference, but you need both”

search for a silent hill

until death do us part (plazy)

thank you haver for this collab, amazing vocals and talented artist !!
hope yall fw it <333

@realhaverhill
@hatepenumbra

leavin me behind

leavin me behind w/ haverhill (cian, rj pasin)

Lyrics//

theres no shoulder i could lean on
my heart felt led on
i was lost in my head
waitin on death
uh, patiently
i cant lie
dont even wanna try
i dont really wanna die
tell me why
i dont wanna die
when everything is bad
i really miss my brother
hurt me like a motherfucker
when i lost you
cant you just tell me the truth

we always stuck together
i thought you were my brother
when you left, i felt all this anger
but i wont leave cause your family first


i hope yall fw it <33
- @hatepenumbra

i finally realized that i have to let you go

let you go (neverforever)

@hatepenumbra
@unsavoured

love you guys <3

trust issues w/ telis (micheal harrison)

Lyrics:

@hatepenumbra
promise i will die, sorry
for you i will stay
inside im rottin
my life is just runnin
dont want to be fallin
no more, on the floor
are my tears and my fears
waitin for me to fall, ah
im tryna find reasonn why im so fucked up
dont know why im always in my head
can i get out ?
im sorry if i always try to defy your love

@backxster
i know that u might not be here tomorrow
i cant hide this pain, all this sorrow
i hurt so i pick up the bottle
hurt so damn bad i cant solve u
and this hurt so bad i cannot call u
and i almost broke down when i saw
when i saw u
i wont forgive myself for givin up on u
i cannot find myself in times like this with u

thank u for listening, its all love <3

a sad story about suicidal thoughts w/ backxster

@hatepenumbra
@rollinggrabba

penumbra :
me n nicky been broken before
we'll never love again
my hearts on the floor
i hear god w sum love at the door
im tempted but im not really sure
have i become insane
im always stuck in pain
i guess i'll never change
just wanna get out these chains
eyes on you, woah
dont break my heart, no
and dont take my life
i wont care if u die
oh, why
why do we try
i dont really care
why do you care abt me

nicky :
i ask myself why u...
why did u have to leave
and the whole day u dont know
that i wish u was here
but i guess that u know
u used to be my life, u were
but i want her she thinks im a loser
send the message its on the computer
everybody thinks i used her
everbody thinks im a loser
everybody knows i dont wanna lose her

penumbra :
i dont know why but u still care abt me
tried to make sense but it dont make sense
why u would love someone like me
im sorry if i hate myself
its hurtin u im sorry boo
i cant take my eyes off of u
im selfish
selfish
selfish

i dont see how you could love someone like me w/ nicky

@angelravee
@symelz
@friendly
@hatepenumbra

i cant live like this

cant live like this w/ angelrave (friendly + symelz)

Lyrics:

black dress white dot
reminicing on times when we loved
to talk a lot and walk around
looking for a spot where we could build a home
wishing there were three kids
one like me and one like you
another mixed up and looking so cute
another mixed up and looking so cute

mh-mmh, ah
yeah, its been a year since we met
we've faced so many threats
feels like i've known u my whole life
will you ever be my wife
i dont want no one else
cause its u that i like
cause its u that i like

i got so many questions
are we doing the right thing
i dont know what im doing
but i would do anything for her

black dress white dot
remescing on times when we loved
to talk a lot and walk around
looking for a spot where we could build a home
wishing there were three kids
one like me and one like you
another mixed up and looking so cute
another mixed up and looking so cute

penumbra

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