[fall 2024]

prod @yumenikki

i could never do wrong
didnt think id really fuck up
i would never get lost
lay awake till the suns up
i was falling out of love
didnt really mean to hurt you
but you took so much
watched my wings slowly turn black

i will never get my soul back
now im walking down the wrong path
i lost friends i wont get back
i lost friends i wont get back
i wish i could just forget you
i wish i could take it all back
now im ruined cuz i let you
all my fault, yea i know that

i just get left on read
make me feel lesser than
fake life i play pretend
fake thoughts inside my head
i like to cut myself
try to get lost again
i dont need any help
rock bottom is in my bed

rock bottom is nodding off
so hard i lose my breath
unconscious almost dead
wake up and see your face
youll look so terrified
ill feel so dead inside
pinpoint dots in my eyes
but ill still want to be high

pinpoint eyes prod. dollmaker

blushxoxo & diegointhedark - spot (meta)

ballet + sglily (kir)

cover  (vox r so bad sry)


there was a time once, i thought i could be like you
you should've seen it, all of the meaning, and all of what i can't do anymore
there was a time once, that i believed in you
thought you'd keep me safe from my weaknesses when i'd speak to you


burn it out in the sun alone
fix my body, fix my soul
pour the fever from my pores
i'm better on my own
because i know what i'm like on the inside
i should know the way i can make it right
but i don't, and i'm warm and terrified
it just feels like a bad dream


and i don't know what's happening
and i don't know what happened to me
and i don't know how i can be clean again
think the dirt settle in way too deep
let it into the rest of me
and i give all the best of me too
i don't like what is left of me
i don't know what is left here to do


burn it out in the sun alone
fix my body, fix my soul
pour the fever from my pores
i'm better on my own
'cause i know what i'm like on the inside
i should know the way i can make it right
but i don't, and i'm warm and terrified
it just feels like a bad dream

and i don't know what's happening
and i don't know what happened to me


there was a time once, that i believed in you

bad dream

ripsquad - june 18 (Reprod Meta)

eversince snippet

you used to make me feel like i could walk on water
now most nights 
im just sinking down and down

you're the reason why i cant listen to those same songs
i used to

i write songs about you all the time
i bet i dont run through your mind

ive given up on you
but it still hurts to know you're not alone
dont worry
ill keep out of your life and stay awake at night

its 4am and ur keeping me from closing these sleepy eyes
does the thought of me keep you up at night
like the light on the ceiling of your bedroom?
lately , my dogs the only one around 
tht listens to my problems

its been a lonely year

i write songs about you all the time
i bet i dont run through your mind

ive given up on you
but it still hurts to know you're not alone
dont worry
ill keep out of your life and stay awake at night
with just my skin and bones
it hurts to know you're not alone
ive given up on you
and my skin
and my bones

you used to make me feel like i could walk on water

https://soundcloud.com/matthew-micallef-7/yuyoyuppe-reon

@diegointhedark

diegointhedark - By Ur Side <3

Stop Arguing Over Science

[Verse]
You can call me crazy
Baby
Say I'm wrong
You can call me lazy
Hazy
I'll still be on
You can call me monster
Yeah
Outlaw
You can call me what you want
But when the smoke clears
I'll be standing tall

[Chorus]
In a cloud of smoke and thunder
Head full of wonder
I've been living under a spell
In a crowd of ghost believers
Born to be the leader
I'm a stoned deceiver in hell

[Verse 2]
I might be your best friend
Distant
Might be your enemy
I might be a godsend
I might be your devil in the flesh
But I'll be free

[Chorus]
In a cloud of smoke and thunder
Head full of wonder
I've been living under a spell
In a crowd of ghost believers
Born to be the leader
I'm a stoned deceiver in hell
Cloud of smoke and thunder
Head full of wonder
I've been living under a spell
In a crowd of ghost believers
Born to be the leader
I'm a stoned deceiver in hell