My track "Alone", but with some mastering done by the extraordinary tbagzprout

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Lyrics:

A light before my eyes, a sound in my ears
sensations coming back, with a hint of fear
A mirror next to me, I try to take a peek
try to set the focus, try to make it clear

but I'm met with a mess, a blur, a haze
blinded by emotions, can't make out my face
I fumble in the dark, distraught and dazed
I'm a stranger to this world and my home is space

So of course I feel weird when I get to witness
beauty and perfection in this land of weakness
my own demons tremble like they can't deal with this
What is this sweetness? I've been rendered speechless

Despite the darkness, there's an angel here
I struggled with this but I'll make it perfect
I'll defy the odds and shape my own mind
I'll destroy the evil and make my soul shine...

I try to take away... take myself away
I try to take everything I can and run away...

After many nights I feel the pain again
Of too many fights, it's turning me insane
New leaf, wilted, as october leaves
The synth plays higher, I feel my heart give in

Tell me what to do now that the shadow's back
How can I go on as I sabotage this
Carnage that's my life, and I've become this bad
...I've found myself back.

Everything's the same, but it still keeps on changing
Every time, I move, but I keep regressing
What could I do now that I am hopeless trying ?
What should I do now that my hope is dying ?

God won't help me now, he's dead and buried
as the god of all gods remains unworried
Spent the past decade crying and weeping, I'll
Spend the next decade chasing the fleeting

You can only get good if you lose yourself
As if only you knew how to cope with this
And I've cried for too long when I found you here
Got to find a way out of this awful place

And I love you way more than I can say
Come with me take my hand and we'll go away
I'll make sure to embrace you in the night
Try inverting the past, make your future bright

Alone (Tbagzprout master)

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You were the light that would lead me to die
Apologize for your lies, and the lust in your eyes
Should have known that you were right, it was all in my mind
I was the one that let your madness trump my advice

You were the light that would lead me to die 
and that's why I confide in your upcoming demise
Déjà vu, I see your pupils are devoid of life
I cry for letting you think you had any value

But you knew you didn't you little disgrace, 
As soon as you came in my life you erased
That puny facade you maintain around them
They think you're the shit but you're nothing but scum

An ego so low you had to kill my flow
and put me below, yeah you don't even know
How many times I have, dealt with the likes 
of you
I can predict you'll have, nothing to show
in a few

And as days pass by, I hope that you'll die
and I know the truth and they all should too
And yeah the outside should match the inside
Baby come to me, I'll show you a preview
And as days pass by, I hope that you'll die
and I know the truth and they all should too
And yeah the outside should match the inside
Because you're dead inside and I'm done with you

Jaded and broken, my past was dark and unspoken
But there was one thing in common you had with one of my girls
Hungry for power I was enough for your hour 
of glory then you'd devour my skin, my eyes and my soul
There was one thing you ignored when you fucked with me
Was that never would I be what you wanted of me
Sorry, I was pretty sweet and you'd have to agree 
When you were on your knees and begging for D

But you were my bitch for a second or two, 
and those where the times I'll remember with you,
The rest is adressed there's no trace of unrest, 
go back to the rest, see who you can posess

You weak motherfuckers will never get good
If you have to fuck with the only ones who
Give you their purity, I gave you the best of me
Try to dismantle me, come out with naught and see

And as days pass by, you hoped that I'd die
and I know the truth, but you'll never do
And yeah the outside should match the inside
Now I'm glorious, and a little see through
And as days pass by, you hoped that I'd die
and I know you hoped, but I'll never do
And yeah the outside should match the inside
Cuz I'm beautiful and I never missed you

Die (Jade) - prod. tbagzprout

This song has been finalized today, but it's more than 3 years old.
It was my first song from the emo synth rap EP c: 
So it's been barely salvageable.
But it still contributes hugely to the story, so here you go lmao.

This is the 'prequel' to Alone.


Lyrics:
Today I woke up with depression feeling worthless 
and as time passed by, it would only get worse
I kept thinking of the people who were born blessed
I'm not one of them, neither was I born cursed
Remarkable in how much I suck as always, 
I'll never reach this high, as I try, forever
Keep crying and keep thinking as the music plays
Keep praying and keep hoping, you won't change, never

Happiness and honesty are a luxury
How could I forget that I once have had them
Now living in the past is all that's left to me
try to become better before I succumb 
From those years of pain and denial in mayhem
Forget everything, start from scratch, again

How many more times before I really get numb
How many more worlds should I catch, in vain?
In my veins flows the stream of all (of) those past lives 
Transparent and clear, so far yet so near
Cut open the skin, I'll give you the sharp knives
Give me back those things that I've held so dear

I've never been one to confess like this
I tried to keep this front but now I've failed 
As I finally follow into the abyss
Everyone can see that I have derailed

Worthless

2017.
This was my first electronic instrumental song. Collab with Erwil (guitar)

undying attempts (ft.Erwil)

iz my edgy emo synth rap, hope you enjoy!
Fun fact: I wrote 1st verse in 2018, 2nd verse in 2019, and finished the beat in 2020

Lyrics:

A light before my eyes, a sound in my ears
sensations coming back, with a hint of fear
A mirror next to me, I try to take a peek
try to set the focus, try to make it clear

but I'm met with a mess, a blur, a haze
blinded by emotions, can't make out my face
I fumble in the dark, distraught and dazed
I'm a stranger to this world and my home is space

So of course I feel weird when I get to witness
beauty and perfection in this land of weakness
my own demons tremble like they can't deal with this 
What is this sweetness? I've been rendered speechless

Despite the darkness, there's an angel here
I struggled with this but I'll make it perfect
I'll defy the odds and shape my own mind
I'll destroy the evil and make my soul shine...

I try to take away... take myself away
I try to take everything I can and run away...

After many nights I feel the pain again
Of too many fights, it's turning me insane
New leaf, wilted, as october leaves 
The synth plays higher, I feel my heart give in

Tell me what to do now that the shadow's back
How can I go on as I sabotage this
Carnage that's my life, and I've become this bad
...I've found myself back.

Everything's the same, but it still keeps on changing
Every time, I move, but I keep regressing
What could I do now that I am hopeless trying ?
What should I do now that my hope is dying ?

God won't help me now, he's dead and buried
as the god of all gods remains unworried
Spent the past decade crying and weeping, I'll
Spend the next decade chasing the fleeting

You can only get good if you lose yourself
As if only you knew how to cope with this
And I've cried for too long when I found you here
Got to find a way out of this awful place

 And I love you way more than I can say
Come with me take my hand and we'll go away
I'll make sure to embrace you in the night
Try reverting the past, make our future bright

Alone

forever beginner. I try to make tracks and tell stories with my limited skills.
Not here to blow your mind, here to discuss who we really are.

Hayny

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