A's Choice

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LYRICS:

HEY! 
Do you remember me? 
I used to have a dream, a path, a way to see it through at least
that's what you sold me, so who do I believe,
when it's business 
but the business is dying well

Faster than you could dig your grave, 
You made the same mistake that everybody else has made

Never did I need to,
but I still believed you
when you said that this would be the only way

And  I know:

I can be angry, aggravating, I can be so hard on myself
I can be stubborn, I can be selfish and I'll never ask for help
I'd be lying if I said I've got my shit all figured out

This is my heavy, this is my everything

HEY!
I've had better days
but I've gotta face what's been coming my way
stop blaming everybody else but me
handle the worst with some positivity 

cuz that's not what this is all about
I need to find a way I can dig myself out 
take back the bones that were buried in doubt
and write a song just to tell you how it felt

I can be angry, aggravating, I can be so hard on myself
I can be stubborn, I can be selfish and I never ask for help
I'd be lying if I said I've got my shit all figured out

This is my heavy 
This is my everything now

I can be faithless, so damn jaded, so frustrated, filled with doubt
Stressed and hating how I fucked this up and I'll never live it down
but I'm honest, constant, faithful and I'll that's where I'll beat you out

This is my heavy
This is my everything
 
Don't let 'em bring you down
I've found a way to break us out of this machine
trust me, if you want this then be the means
Face yourself, your fear, your doubt
There's no time to waste because the world won't wait for you

I can be angry, aggravating, I can be so hard on myself
I can be stubborn, I can be selfish but god, I really need your help
I'd be lying if I said that I could do this by myself

This is my heavy
This is my everything now

I can be faithless, so damn jaded, so frustrated, filled with doubt
Stressed and hating how I fucked this up and I'll never live it down
but I'm honest, constant, faithful and I'll never let you down

This is my heavy
This is my everything

BACKGROUND

"My Heavy" is the first song I've written in about 2 years. The song came about right after HTL found out that we were getting off of Universal. I was SO pissed that they had left us waiting around for absolute nothing. All that work trying to make these people happy enough to put out a record, and it was all for nothing. I was glad we were free agents but at the same time, I just wanted Universal to fucking BURN. I was angry and just wanted to make heavy, angry music. I began writing what would become the main riff and the first verse, just titling it "Fuck Universal." As HTL began writing new songs for "Invicta," it was put to the side and abandoned. When the opportunity to do a Thief Club record was there, I knew I needed to actually WRITE new songs in order to make a full album. Honestly, I was nervous to write again and it had been so long, I didn't know where to start. I thought about what sound I would go for and knew that I wanted some new songs that were heavy. Not exactly metal-core or hardcore "heavy," but my own type of heavy. I decided to title the record "My Heavy," as it would be coming from a place of personal turmoil, loss, joy and insecurity. After that i pulled "Fuck Universal" out of my laptop and sat on it. I realized that there's this pop-punk/hardcore trend of making these call out songs where the musician is always pointing out the faults and shortcoming in others. This is something that I was good at doing in my music as well, and after all of the bullshit I've been though, I realized that I had a share in this mess, too. I wanted to write a song that was open and honest with myself. I wanted to call myself out for all of the problems that "other people" have caused me, and how I've deal with it in my own selfish ways. Not seeing the light but instead, choosing to take it to a much more negative, antagonistic place. I wanted to start flipping the tables and stop playing a victim. Keep myself honest and accountable for my life and not place blame on others when really, I'm mad at myself. "My Heavy" is about how everyone has their shit, and it's not about who is to blame, but how you handle it. Being a strong, honest, confident individual who realizes that there is fault in everyone but dwelling on it isn't going to resolve it. The first verse relies heavily on blaming someone, which I originally intended to do with the song, and by the second verse, it's me having a self realization that I've had my tantrum and now it's time to move on. This world doesn't give a shit, nor does it owe me anything. Either rise above or sink into your hole, that's your choice. "My Heavy" is my own call out. It's my "Stop feeling bad for yourself and get back up" speech. After I secured all the swear words into the chorus, I went to go see NFG and Cartel when they rolled through Columbus and brought up the idea to Will about singing a part on the song. I went home and wrote the bridge with his vocals in mind and I couldn't be more excited to have that dude's glorious pipes on a song that means so much to me. He fucking KILLED it.

Thief Club - My Heavy (featuring Will Pugh)

Downtempo style edit of "Lovefool" by The Cardigans.

The Cardigans-Lovefool (Beasts 96 Extension Mix)

Hit The Lights "No Filter"

Hit The Lights "Old Friend" Ft. Colin Ross

Hit The Lights "Sitter"

Hit The Lights "Summer Bones"

Hit The Lights "Revolutions And Executions"

Hit The Lights "Life On The Bottom"

Hit The Lights "The Real"

Fucked Up Kids Lyrics
We’re taking bats to the neighborhood 
Where we don’t belong
Where they said we can’t go
Carve our names in all the wood, in the concrete
They think they’re safe in their homes
So they can see it, remind them that we exist
This place is not their own
This city’s our birthright; we’ll keep our fists tight
So they’ll know
Hey! I can say we’re all just fucked up kids and that’s ok
If we don’t belong to anyone or anything
We’re all just fucked up kids walking on promises
We’re breaking all of them, but we could be
We’re getting good at being bad
They don’t understand
What’s it hurt? They don’t know
Apologies, we never have
We’re a shot of light in the dark, a faint glow
But we burn the brightest during the night shift
Hanging with New York’s finest
So when the bars close and everyone heads home
We don’t go
Hey! I can say we’re all just fucked up kids and that’s ok
If we don’t belong to anyone or anything
We’re all just fucked up kids walking on promises
We’re breaking all of them, but we could be
We can roam the streets, drinking Genesee
Running from police, taking shots til’ we’re lost
Or disturb the peace, cause we never sleep
Down your drink and we’re gone again
But hey!  We’re all just fucked up kids and that’s ok
If we don’t belong to anyone or anything
We’re all just fucked up kids
Breaking before we bend, born to lose in the end
But we could be more
Born to lose in the end, but we could be more than this

Hit The Lights "Fucked Up Kids"

05 Fragile Eyes (Acoustic)

Wonderful - Everclear

Matchbox Twenty - Push Acoustic

The Smashing Pumpkins - 1979

Drown 8-Track Demo

The Cure - Boys Dont Cry

Gin Blossoms - As Long As It Matters

Matchbox Twenty - Push

Blink-182 - What's My Age Again (Acoustic)

Oasis live 1997-10-09 on The Late Show with David Letterman Show, live at Ed Sullivan Theater, New York, NY, USA.

Oasis - Don't Go Away (Live 1997)

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