Can't Turn off My Brain to Go to Sleep

Beatjunky
Other than Love, Music is my drug. 
I have no favorite genre, what I'm listening to will always depend on my moods and the surroundings I’m connected to

@karmacloud9

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Thats not a kind message to send but if thats how you feel about me then I guess thank you for telling me even if it feels like uncessisarily twisting a knife. I'm not overly sure where the offense has come from but the parts that I can guess at I will adress. 

I thought I had made myself pretty clear that I would not come and see you when you have a partner, appologies if that got lost within the rambling mess of what I have said previously. I also tried to express that if that wasn't the case to let me know, currently I don't see any message to that fact but I could be mistaken.

Secondly last week on thursday morning I flew to Florence and returned home on Sunday late. Whilst I was there I was not exactly keeping up to date with everything online, so I'm sorry I missed you attempt to make plans. Please understand that I also have a life and am sometimes busy and can't just drop things last minute, particularly when I'm in another country. However, as I stated above if you have a partner I will not come so if its the fact that I won't see you based on this boundary then I'm sorry but I'm not about to self abandon and ingore a boundary I have set.

Thirdly, I resent the insinuation that I only want you because its "on a platter" that as soon as things get tough I pull away and cancel on you. I have tried for years to see you, to speak to you, to understand you, anything only to get nothing back, and still I tried. It was madening to try over and over and get no where. None of that was plain sailing or remotely easy to keep trying and yet I still did. There are plently of other accusations that I take umbrage with but I guess thats part of the point of such a message.

If you truley feel better slamming the door on me and hating me, that obviously hurts, and I'm sorry that I have done something to make you feel that way towards me. I dont feel that I deserve what has been laid at my door given the context that I believe it sits, but I dont know your mind and what slight I have comitted.

If you want to speak to me you know how to reach me. If you want to see me I am free next weekend

Yours sincerely 
Nik

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Can't Turn off My Brain to Go to Sleep

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