If you wait

My incomplete music box

Written, recorded, produced by Reserv

One sunny day
music from the 80's
that I don't really love
but you really do baby
so we dance all day to Dance Hall Days
and the thought don't cross, just look both ways
but not too much
or else your cheeks will flush
but don't you fret
because mine are in the same shade
it's scarier than anything
but anything's the hard way
and I know why you look away sometimes
and I can tell you everything that's on your mind
because I am you
and you and I
feel closer than June and July
and I don't wanna lose the prize
and I don't wanna lose my eyes
holding the lids open all night
holding the lids open all night
holding the lids open all night
I can put every candle in my window
and I'll burn them one by one
and I'll shoot them out when I'm done
I will sit underneath the orangest Autumn lead
I'll let it fall to my head
and I'll feel myself again
one sunny day
music from the 80's
that I don't really love
but you really did baby
so we danced all day to Dance Hall Days
and the thought didn't cross, we just looked both ways
but not too much
but not too much
because I am you
and you and I
feel closer than June and July
and I don't wanna lose the prize
and I don't wanna lose my eyes
holding the lids open all night
holding the lids open all night
holding the lids open all night

June and July

nouns - i feel as though i’ve failed (permanent dog paw print dirt stain remix)

co-prod. Talli Sow
Guitar. Camel_Bleu

HEART2HEART PRODUCTION

Our reputations got us
Ya im just speaking honest
the whole crowd waiting on us
This ego you got a lot of
Our reputations got us
Hold on to our old promise
Lessons on lessons taught us
Im just here being honest

You see me
discreetly 
I'll tell you things
You didn't know
Conceited
With reason
Ill keep this on the low


What they say about you 
What they say about you 
What they say about you 

Ya you got it all
Never see you fall
What can’t you do

Lights flashing out
I talk out loud
Do they see me now

When im around
Insecurity
Insecurity

Falling on me 
Falling on me
I wish things were simple 
Calling on peace
Calling on peace
Help me break this window

Falling on me 
Falling on me
Time and space have me now
Calling on peace
Calling on peace
This silence speaks so loud


You see me
discreetly 
I'll tell you things
You didn't know
Conceited
With reason
Ill keep this on the low

What they say about you 
What they say about you 
What they say about you 

Ya you got it all
Never see you fall
What can’t you do

Lights flashing out
I talk out loud
Do they see me now

When im around
Insecurity
Insecurity

Insecurity
It's got its hands on me
Insecurity
When you're looking at me
Insecurity
Don't know what to believe
Insecurity
Insecurity

At loss
My fault
I'll be
Your god
Put off
White cross
Break arm
Coin toss
autumn
Your lawn
I'll be 
Your god

Insecurity

https://soundcloud.com/xnovellax

I won't see the morning sun again.
Could you take this pain away?
I don't wanna feel that again.
As my eyes glaze over, I see your face in them.
Everything that you ever told me ricochets like a bullet.

The stars won't shine on me again.
The moon whispers it's goodbyes through the wind.

I see my reflection in cold steel.
Let it open, I cut the seal.
My mind is dizzy, I feel like a pinwheel.
But it feels so good, I see the appeal.

I won't see the morning sun again.
Could you take this pain away?
I don't wanna feel that again.
As my eyes glaze over, I see your face in them.
Everything that you ever told me ricochets like a bullet.

The stars won't shine on me again.
The moon whispers it's goodbyes through the wind.

pinwheel (novella)

https://soundcloud.com/xnovellax
https://soundcloud.com/feralcatshelter
https://soundcloud.com/emotionalsoldiers

Dreaming of a world where my name isn't muttered
I'd do anything just to get out of the gutter
When I say anything, I really mean that
Open up my arms I just really want to go back

I don't care who finds me, just as long as it's long enough to where I only see black
Too far gone there's no way I'd ever come back
Old habits, yeah they got me by the neck
Muscle memory every time I try to quit
Glued to the floor and the moon looks like the face of God
Would he forgive me for extracting all his blood?

@xnovellax
Take this script and burn it all
The shape of your heart, tattered and torn
Forget your lines and laugh it off
Under the moon we'll break this vow
In this world of sin, we could play a pretty part
Open up my veins, turn the bloodstains into art
Now we're falling down, down the rabbit hole again
We'll break this vow...

I don't care who finds me, it will be far too late

far too late with novella (feral cat & tekken)

would hurt a fly (built to spill cover)

genuinely in love with this electric chord organ lol

leave me flowers

This song is titled Flesh . Life is good . how r u ? 

prod mach5
co prod + vox tonguetiedd @patientassumption
additional vox dulien @dulien

Cover artwork by the wonderful Her story

Flesh +dulien

Demo Clip

Fifth-wave emo musician

https://linktr.ee/heccra

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Demo Clip

Heccra