Name: Not me by SpiralStone in A new Page
Duration: 4 min 38 s
Description: A haunting cinematic ballad exploring themes of unrequited love and silent observation. This melancholic composition weaves together rich piano melodies, ambient strings, and minimalistic electronic textures to create a deeply emotional soundscape. The narrative follows someone watching their beloved find happiness with another, capturing the bittersweet pain of loving from the shadows.

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Sea of Clouds and Haze (from "Demon Slayer")

Sea of Clouds and Haze (from "Demon Slayer") (Cover)

This is an experimental Song - written and recorded as a flow - in 15 min
The Effekt are Mixtaped with voice in a 2nd Session

More Purple In The Sky

Cape Town

Every day feels the same
I don't see anything new
Sometimes I feel like
I'm stuck in a time loop

I didn't want things to be this way
I really tried to change, to do things differently
But everything keeps leading me
Back to this same scenario

It's hard to do things differently
When everything stays the same
It's hard to persist when everything
Everything is falling apart
It's hard to pretend to be okay
When nothing is okay     

It's hard to pretend to be okay
When nothing is okay
Everyone claims to know
What I'm feeling

Everyone pretends to care
But the truth is, it's not like that
I don't want to repeat myself
But here I am, in this same scenario

It's hard to do things differently
When everything stays the same
It's hard to persist when everything
Everything is falling apart
It's hard to pretend to be okay
When nothing is okay  

Everyone pretends to care
But the truth is, it's not like that
I don't want to repeat myself
But here I am, in this same scenario

It's hard to do things differently
When everything stays the same
It's hard to persist when everything
Everything is falling apart
It's hard to pretend to be okay
When nothing is okay

Hard to Do

A song for those who know how to function, but don’t feel present.
For those who say “I’m fine” like a ritual, while something in them stays silent.
“It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me” is about splitness—about playing yourself so well even the mirror stops questioning.
The skin fits, but it’s too quiet inside Like someone left the room but locked the door It’s about being seen, but not really there.
About smiling at the right time—and wondering who, exactly, is smiling.
—
“My Head Can’t Hold It” is not an album.
It’s a slow unraveling of what awareness sounds like when it slips through the seams of everyday life. 
For those who function—and sometimes quietly ask:
is this really me?

It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me

Seeking the Path

A haunting cinematic ballad exploring themes of unrequited love and silent observation. This melancholic composition weaves together rich piano melodies, ambient strings, and minimalistic electronic textures to create a deeply emotional soundscape. The narrative follows someone watching their beloved find happiness with another, capturing the bittersweet pain of loving from the shadows.

Not me

WHY DREAMS SO REAL (DEEP HOUSE MIX)

Dear friends - Chlorophyll is also our friend - it absorbs carbon dioxide and uses sunlight to make wood. Scientists are increasingly emphasizing the importance of preserving the greenery on Earth. Trees also provide shade, coolness and retain moisture in the soil. Trees are the climate's friend! At the same time, I would like to tell you what my grandfather taught me: chew each bite at least ten times so you don't get fat and have no stomach problems - and - save on electricity!!

Quietly the River Flows

Quietly the river flows under the green embrace 
of the willow trees whose leaves are moving with the wind
and birds like to catch all the flies swarming around here
and under the trees a lot of children have
gathered here to learn
all to know about our nature

They all lose their breath when they see the greenery
over the stream that sparkles by the morning sun
they enjoy their life and they can’t understand why
that not everyone are able to see this 
wonderful show
that are created for all of us

And they listen to the words given from their teacher
that say how it is when everything is falling down
how nature react - during the years that lie ahead of us 
it is magical how - nature swallow all the
carbon dioxide 
that we people have let out in the world
It is a magical sight to see these green leaves here

Lyrics in Swedish

Tyst flyter floden

Tyst flyter floden under den gröna famnen
av pilträden vars löv rör sig med vinden
och fåglar gillar att fånga alla flugor som svärmar omkring här
och under träden har många barn
samlats här för att lära sig
allt att veta om vår natur

De tappar alla andan när de ser grönskan
över bäcken som glittrar i morgonsolen
de njuter av sitt liv och de kan inte förstå varför
att inte alla kan se denna
underbara show
som är skapad för oss alla

Och de lyssnar på orden från sin lärare
som säger hur det är när allt faller ner
hur naturen reagerar - under de år som ligger framför oss
det är magiskt hur - naturen sväljer all
koldioxid
som vi människor har släppt ut i världen
Det är en magisk syn att se dessa gröna löv här

Quietly the River Flows - 2025-07-13 14.27

This instrumental track builds on a collaboration with my brother https://soundcloud.com/skai-eriksson/desert-odyssey-acoustic-guitar-and-piano 
The original song just had acoustic guitar and piano.  Torben Fugger heard the song on SC and took it to a new level of orchestration adding tasty slide+electric guitar work.  At that point it sounded like it needed some low end, and Wayne Cribbs stepped in to add a tasteful bass guitar track.

You can listen to Torben's other elegant orchestral music on SC: @torben-fugger

Here is the credit in the order the instruments were added.

Acoustic guitar: Timothy Lundberg
Piano: Skai Eriksson
Electric guitars: Torben Fugger
Bass guitar: Wayne Cribbs
Mixing/Mastering: Erik Lundberg (Skai Eriksson) with lots of help/feedback from the rest of the group.

Desert Odyssey (w/ additions by Torben Fugger and Wayne Cribbs)

Hello everyone,
This is the first of three songs we will present during the first part of the autumn. We wish you a pleasant listening, and maybe they will arouse a thought or two. ;)

Are your pursuits in life leading you to find, maybe only when you are old enough, that you just been running around in circles? That you have repeated your mistakes and assumptions over and over again, without gaining insight and understanding, and learning from them...... and perhaps you even recognize mistakes that your parents made, that you promised yourself you would never make......then you are probably not alone.......

Maybe we are all just echoes of the past, who just running around in a inner world of circles, in a lost touch with real reality, and our perhaps shrinking belief in something more important and more valuable and rewarding than the nonsense and lies of politicians and other jawbones that just chatter without thought..... 
And yet, without thinking, we follow these so-called leaders who shouts the loudest, promises the most, are most visible...... and undoubtedly in most cases behaves like the narcissistic and self-absorbed king in the fairy tale "The Emperor's New Clothes" by HC Andersen........

Does this make us angry....or just resigned......or what?..............Hmmmmmm

Magic guitars left & right; David Dunham; https://soundcloud.com/david-dunhamuser589535203
Superb Poetry/Lyrics, Narration; Peter the Poet; https://soundcloud.com/user-264930040/tracks
Music, Mix & Production, Track image - Seagull; @farout-music-studio
Wonderful voice - Clara Sorace

And by the way, there will finally be three songs in this coming playlist that reflect this theme, when everything is ready. We hope you have a pleasant listening to these musical paintings of thoughts and ponderings ;)

A big and very warm thank you, my friends, David & Peter, for another couple of months of wonderful collaboration, conversations, laughter and anecdotes and your superb musical sense. ;)

Web of Circles

…and place the host upon my tongue
as his grace, the bishop did, when I was young
to set life's path as angels sung
since when I've tracked an arcing line
my cracked heart marinades in altar wine
as webbed circles on repeat define
…
……the mirrored threads within my mind.

…and carbon copies as before
in mobius time reflect the score 
while catastrophes gorge today once more
identikits forged on command from yesterday
nothing learned, just press replay
and watch heads in hands as the people pray
…
……for the pendulum to swing the other way

…and certain as the wheeling orbit's path
history founders on future’s aftermath
to sin once more as lucifer belly laughs
run aground we last forget that sacred host
‘neath chancel’s hell he resurrects what aches the most
humanity self-lashed to eternity’s whipping post
…
……by the Father, Son and Holy Ghost

Web of circles - David, Peter & Seagull

Please Support the track if you like it :) 

Credit: beat Produced by LickOwens

That You Were There

Classical Guitar: gaspar monterde
Artwork by Pere Vilardebó

breathe

Light In The Dark

💜🗝

Plank of Reason

Inspired by «I felt a Funeral in my Brain» by Emily Dickinson, this song is written from the voice of a young woman and a very best friend learning in her journey to carve out space for herself, even as the mourners march inside her mind, even as the plank of reason cracks beneath her.

Plank on Reason

[Intro]
Treading treading—beating beating

[Verse]
She walks to class with swollen eyes
her hands tucked deep her breath disguised
every step a drum that won’t let go
beating down the hallway slow

[Pre-Chorus]
And when the silence tolls inside
she won’t let the broken parts define
there’s more than falling through the dark
there’s fire hidden in her spark

[Chorus]
Even when a plank in reason breaks
she drops she shakes she still remakes
every world she crashes through
she stands again she finds the truth
she’s more than sorrow more than pain
a young woman learning to remain

[Verse]
They say her mind is fraying thin
but she’s stronger than the noise within
her soul’s been carried box by box
but she builds her own from shattered loss

[Bridge]
Treading treading—
but she keeps heading
Beating beating—
but she’s still breathing
when the mourners fade
she writes her own parade

[Final Chorus]
Even when a plank in reason breaks
she drops she shakes she still remakes
Every world she crashes through
she stands again she finds the truth
She’s more than sorrow more than pain
a young woman strong unchained

[Outro]
Treading treading—beating beating—still breathing

Plank in Reason

Jens Christian Grün (Jens Gruen) - geb. 1965, in Ulm-Söflingen
Guitar, Vocal, Keyboard - Piano
Selfmademan -  autodidaktischer Musiker seit 45 Jahren

War im Gospelchor - Langenau und bleibt ihm treu…

„Musik muss Spass machen - darf aber auch gerne mal Traurig sein“
Zitat vom Balladenmann - der schon immer nur Ballade kann … nicht ganz ernst gemeint

Seit 2014 an Parkinson erkrankt. 
Mag seine Parkinsongruppe, seine Therapeuten,
jegliche Art von Musik - Live oder von Konserve -
SWR1 und seinen Marcello. Arbeitet gerne mit der
Nachbarschaftshilfe „gemeinsam“ zusammen.

Die Musik von Peter Maffay, Smokie, Mark Knopfler  und Queen hat mich schon immer begleitet und fasziniert. Ich entdecke gerade die klassische Musik für mich….. und mache immer weiter ..

Meine Haupt-Instrumente sind:
Stimme - na ja - manchmal scho …
Willis Klavier - Landshut - 1980 - Deutschland
Roland V-Piano - Japan
Tanglewood Acc Sundance Pro - UK
Framus Texan 5/196 - 1964 - Deutschland 
Kirkland Acc - US
Resch Mellotron - MD4000D - Sweden
iPad 
Korg iS40 - Japan
Roland SC8850 - Japan
Roland JV800 - Japan

Immer wieder Montags:
Yamaha C5 (made in England) - pausiert

Working in the tech industry for many years, I have a passion for music production.
I am personally inclined into listening to piano music, classical and contemporary. 
But I love a lot electronic music in all its varieties: EDM, Phonk, Downtempo, Future Bass, etc. 
I also like rock and jazz music genres.

Not me

SpiralStone

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