locked in

produced by xona

@caspywaspy

-lyrics-

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

fighting against myself until the party ends
it’s not good for my health but it makes me understand 
tell me am I dying? cause I don’t feel alive 
baby I’ve been gone and I’ve been working 9-5
crying in my bedroom I don’t wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it’s going by so fast

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

take any more of this 
a new season and a new best friend 
I feel so bad, I don’t want to lose this
cause I’m in love with who she is
I’ll push everything that grew
on my chest and let you through 
and no i don’t feel deja vu
when I know I love you

spotify

forever w/ casperrr

prod kimj
https://www.instagram.com/2hollis
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Always questioned it, always questioned it
I always questioned it, I always questioned it
I always questioned it, questioned it

Racks on the doorway, she keep trying to escape from me
Put a pass on your old ways, You’ll make a mistake some day I promise
I put a scar on the bad past, scar on my right eye, put me in the sky man
Switchin’ up the climate, sit in ancient silence, can’t resort to violence
And when I cry, a thousand tears, and when I lie, a thousand years
And when I say goodbye it’s our last one (and when I say goodbye it’s our last one)

I always questioned, always, uhhhh
I always questioned it, I always questioned it, yeahhh

i always questioned it

produced by xona

[war, imperfection]

-lyrics-
my walls cave in and you might be
the one to change the worst of me
I walk with the scent of ash and the dirt between my hands
it’s a waste that I stand, I’m on my way I need plan for you

I’m meant to live my own life
but I’m stuck within ruts with you
bitter hatred made it show
colors moving like they were before
am I really not worth?
I’m just like you and everyone else 
filament to what I hold
yet, I felt the guilt of your help

wonder why I stare? I said I wouldn’t even care
if I die, I think it’s fair 
if i don’t talk then they’re right there 

~

you think I’ll dive right back but I don’t live like that
I'm on a voyage that last, way more than the past

relinquir

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and melonmusik

lyrics:

leave it down in my heart now
seeing stars in your eyes now
im alive but i cant tell
my life is fading out
stay here in my arms fly away
i look at you in my head to keep away
tomorrow dont come so i say today
i need you and i love you
ima relive it again
again again again
again again again

i slammed their door im scared of it all
ran past a brick wall and threw my phone
it felt alien that place you call home
i was never welcome there
inside the ufo
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
and says im not having this
and says im not having this

suck me up in the ufo and tell me you wanna go with me
you can feel my cuticles ur face has took a hold of me
pressure on my arm babe you damaged my artery
i might be unusual atleast i got everypart of me

feels like you had afair
places i wouldn't not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this

am i the anomly
or am i common
im not an enemy
im too broken
im too broken
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here

come here, i love you

Prod by me :l


"Fuck-Society."

I see blood red, keep a [?]
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen
I see blood red, keep a [?] 
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen


I got attached now I know I should have closed you, 
your virus spread quicker than some ordinary flu, 
infecting all my cells, somethings with you
I could have sworn that I would only trust you
I came to find the things you say aren't right
I see your face and it gives me fight or flight
My circle is small because I like it being tight
I never talk so don't expect an invite 


I see blood red, keep a [?]
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen
I see blood red, keep a [?]
kissing on my bruises, she might cause an omen


[bitter-sweet short term re-acquaintance]

epicure

prod hira

If I disappear 
nobody would know

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

Disappear 
Nobody will know

So please don’t let it
Go to your head love 
I’ll be fighting after the war 
Do you not feel the regret from all the  blood that you’ve poured 
Psycho little bitch should be assigned to a ward 
Ruining yourself downing bleach on the floor

You don’t wanna talk to me 
You never even had to
I’d break another bone but
I just can’t seem to fight for you
But I’d die for you
Down another bottle and I’ll lay with you

Why you gotta be so far
Put another s into the side of my arm
You could never be more wrong
Tryna let it go but I had nothing to start 
Why u tryna prove me wrong
I’m such a lost cause bitch u did it again
Drowning and it’s all your fault 
Fingers getting cold wrapped my hand round her neck 

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

after the war

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

prod logan

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

cover of the song "fraulein" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
far across the deep blue water
lives an old germans daughter
by the banks of the old river rhine
where i loved her and left her
now i can't forget her
i miss my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night, as them stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein

when my memories wander
away over yonder
to the sweetheart that i left behind
in a moment of glory 
her faces comes before me
the face of my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night as the stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein
you are my pretty fraulein

fraulein cover (tyler childers)

cover of the song "lady may" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
i'm a stones throw from the mill
and i'm a good walk to the river
when my working day is over 
we'll go swim our cares away
put your toes down in the water
and a smile across your face
and tell me that you love me
lovely lady may
now i ain't the sharpest chisel
that your hands have ever held
well darling i could love you well
til the roll is called on high
i've seen my share of trouble
and i've held my weight in shame
but i'm baptized in your name
lovely lady may

lord the wind can leave you shivering
as it waltzes o'er the leaves
it's been rushin through my timber
til your love brought on the spring
now the mountains all are blushin
and they don't know what to say
except a good long line of praises
for my lovely lady may
now i ain't toughest hickory
that your ax has ever felt
but i'm a hickory just as well
i'm a hickory all the same
i came crashin through the forest
as you cut my roots away
and i felt a good long way
for my lovely lady may

lady may cover (tyler childers)

prod by me :>

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

you stabbed me it wont happen again
all these bruises and cuts i wont forget 
lonely nights i was calling your name
no one answered i was in pain

i dont want u to leave me even if i say that i do 
every single night all the things that i think about is u
i was beggin on my knees for u please do not leave my life
all my tears are hitting the floor and i only see ur eyes

u aint gettin nothin related to my love
u can keep on wishin or something, get better luck
no 1 can touch this, my grind, i swear to God its up
n when i feel sad bout u my new girl she suck me up x2

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

[[resentment - adaptation]]

convert

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

produced by: ilyl1ght 
lyrics:
why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see oh 

𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚 
𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩, 𝙞 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 
𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 
𝙞 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪

i feels like i’ve nowhere to go
your not here and im trying to cope 
that look in your eyes feels like home 
home, home 
ohh 
with you it feels like i belong 
with you i don’t feel im alone 
ohhh

why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see ohh

you, i wont cope in a world without you
i wont live in a world without you 

<3

comfort

RXGE

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

clone

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