"paradigm shift." was originally born out of frustration, anger, and hatred.

i was going through the worst creative burnout of my life. my surroundings filled me with dread as everything and everyone around me was seeking perfection, viewing everything analytically, and acting apathetically corporate. the people i was surrounded by demanded too much from me, expecting that i would gladly devote my body and soul to make my music "perfect" for the sake of another's ego and vision, who probably couldn't care less of other people's thoughts. i grew angry, and that bled into my music to the point that i started to hate it.

i disappeared for a week. i did nothing but sleep as my dreams felt more comforting than being awake. i socialized with no one except for cat. after a few days, i became slightly better, and i opened up fl to try to make a song. that was when i began work on "paradigm shift."

after nearly a year of sheltering within it, this song, that was originally made out of anger, morphed into a story. an epiphanous story of acceptance and peace.

"paradigm shift." is about my journey as a creative that is expected to meet the demands of what others consider "perfect." it's about my journey of realizing that i don't want nor need to be "perfect." it's about my journey of realizing that all i wish is for someone to feel something from my creations.

cat told me how this song sounds like i took my frustration and found beauty within it.
i love the sound of that.

- denis.

paradigm shift.

hyacinth --- artwork by @reksi420 --- additional guitars by @buzit0

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
our promises

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

and i remember
wishing you were down by the lake
oh no
couldn't keep you up from drowning away
at all
finally gave up on your life
so don't wait
it's all good

now it's november 
and we're sitting outside in the rain
our voices tremble
you're whispering
!that's not what you said!
and i remember 
hoping that it'll come to an end
as we sway in the wind
close our eyes
as we sing 
about

and i can't believe 
your safe in my arms
time stops
to breathe
so just sway in the wind 
and don't worry
cause you've become so sweet
close your eyes 
fall asleep
have i found what i need?
as it rains down
i'm feeling all the pressure in my veins
now
i'm holding every moment to my chest
hearts beating with no rest
i've finally found my end

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
i'll promise it

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

<3

hyacinth

"you've all gone up to the mountains, while i'm still stuck here in the trees !"

(for backdoor!, vol. 1: afterparty!)

-- -- -- -- - -- -- -- --
lyrics:
ten months, thirteen days
the time i said i planned to get away
from the stakes and mistakes
of the small town we used to breathe in

aren't you proud of me
for learning to live
despite the sour feeling
under my zip code
my lips loathe the taste
of the air that surrounds my home

and you'll admire that sunset
further from whence you came
and i'll cry "what about me ?"
aren't you glad i finally made it out ?

(aren't you glad i finally)

though i know, you don't know what it's like
for a kid to prepare for the end of their world every day
and our guidance was no more surprised
when they stood and they stared
at the end of an era again

and you'll admire that sunset
further from whence you came
as i cry "what about me ?"
aren't you glad i finally found my way ?
and you'll hit higher than high notes
think of me all the same
and i'll cry "what about me ?"
aren't you glad i finally made it out ?

stream !

newgame+⁺₊ !

STREAM: https://ffm.to/cdtd

all nighter volume 8 ended exactly 1 day before i moved out for university
this song was made in a mindset i am no longer in, a vulnerable state where all i wanted was to no longer feel that i was leaving everyone i loved behind. this song is an affirmation that they're still here, they're not far, and i'm still here. admittedly this was probably way too personal for a 24 hour charity comp but i am still incredibly grateful to FORM for letting me stream and express this feeling <3

lyrics tba sorry ive been hella busy </3

u should def follow me:
https://linktr.ee/heyaephyn

stream!!

counting down the days (the summer song)

album art by dossy <3

Follow dossyx: 
https://twitter.com/dossyxmusic
https://soundcloud.com/dossyx
https://open.spotify.com/artist/28XlUtvOPiT96u72mJftyS 

Follow SILKENWOOD: 
https://twitter.com/WEARESILKENWOOD
https://www.instagram.com/wearesilkenwood/
https://soundcloud.com/wearesilkenwood

Also, big thanks to @overblur for recording the rhythm guitar 💚


Lyrics (written by dossy):

apathy towards the truth i
dont think you care if it isn't bout you
you make me hate every moment
even the ones cherish
no
more of this
sweet condensed brutality
cus you know when you do it like that
i feel powerless

DONT MAKE IT ABOUT YOU
SQUEEZE THE TRUTH TILL YOU MAKE IT
EVERYTHING HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE
DONT YOU LIE TO YOURSELF 
CUS YOU DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME

YOU HATE THAT ABOUT YOU
IT FEELS BETTER WHEN YOU FAKE IT
EVERYTHING HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE
DONT YOU LIE TO YOURSELF 
CUS YOU DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME

take a moment to breathe
cus everything is going fast and i dont know how to sleep 
under the pressure
make it last cus i cant do forevers
i cant do togethers
not when im with you because it feels like its a never
ending
not a happily ever after but that's not what im after
after everything that you just made me do

and i deserve to be more than another chapter
but now my pages are just covered with the stain of your coffee
what a shame

DONT MAKE IT ABOUT YOU
SQUEEZE THE TRUTH TILL YOU MAKE IT
EVERYTHING HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE
DONT YOU LIE TO YOURSELF 
CUS YOU DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME

YOU HATE THAT ABOUT YOU
IT FEELS BETTER WHEN YOU FAKE IT
EVERYTHING HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE
DONT YOU LIE TO YOURSELF 
CUS YOU DONT REALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME

YOU DON'T REALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME
(don't you lie to yourself)

lying to yourself (feat. dossyx)

it was rejected from sleepover for a reason (it sucks)

For The Last Time (sleepover submission)

this is my submission to FORM's All Nighter Volume 9 (sadly rejected). Nonetheless this was my first attempt at a dnb type of song while still trying to incorporate stuff that i normally use like strings and what not. I had a lot of fun participating and I hope you enjoy!

to home [ANV9 Submission]

feelalive

Higher Purpose (Matthew McElroy VIP Version)

Tre anni sono passati da quando questo progetto ha avuto inizio. Una strada lunga per me, tre anni densi di vita: gioie e fatiche, piaceri e dolori, paradisi e inferni. Una progetto che è cresciuto e si è plasmato in questo tempo, fino all'ultimo giorno della sua gestazione. Un progetto nato per amore e pazienza. Parafrasando Zulù, un progetto dedicato a tutte e tutti, e a chi si colloca altrove.
Lo dedico a me, ai miei affetti più profondi. Lo dedico a chi non conosco, lo dedico a chi quotidianamente trova il modo di sopravvivere e vivere eticamente, nonostante possa essere circondato da infamia, dolore, violenza, fanatismo e sadismo.
Lo dedico alla libertà di tutti noi e alla consapevolezza che un mondo migliore già esiste, dobbiamo solo raggiungerlo!

Freedom

Three years have passed since this project began. A long road for me—three years full of life: joys and struggles, pleasures and pains, heavens and hells. A project that has grown and taken shape over time, right up to the last day of its gestation. A project born out of love and patience. To echo Zulù, a project dedicated to everyone—and to those who exist elsewhere.
I dedicate it to myself, to my deepest affections. I dedicate it to those I don't know, to those who, every day, find a way to survive and live ethically, even when surrounded by disgrace, pain, violence, fanaticism, and sadism. I dedicate it to the freedom of us all, and to the awareness that a better world already exists—we just have to reach it!

Freedom
