//

bare granite
softly framed in seafoam
steeping in twilight

the rarity of weightless overcast
receding into previous day

I am pulled between the edges of then and now
complacently losing the battle

and I place a bowl on that granite
with water seeping through its pores
half-washed
porcelain in defeat

pray I go back down and think a way out
but the waking hours escape me
for once turn the right way,
you flake, you human life

thank the paper blinds for sparing you the shame
of months and months gone by

//

Nascent is about becoming:

The desire to become a better human being, longing to actively participate in the world around you, striving to actualize your potential, and finding meaning in this process.

Equinox

scrapped album intro track - felt necessary to release something while music remains difficult for me. working on reboot + new visual/musical direction

i'll put it on plats if you all enjoy it that much

guitar by soundcloud.com/maae-ko

is it my fault
that i feel like i'm the center of gravity
feel like everyone else has it out for me
that all my problems will resolve themselves naturally
the moment is magically
erased like its alchemy

why does everyone else seem afraid of me
have i always been some kind of enemy
am i afraid to be wrong or just scared to belong or do i want everyone else gone

crickets [jan 2023]

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

original by @iameden

the cordons drawn
the eyes are wrung
the song is sung
the bloody morning
a face of god
its all it was

and i loved him
and i killed him
i loved him
i killed him

a night at court
hollywood
thats all it was
a violent mess
sing down the lens
thats all you get

and i loved it
and i killed it
i loved it
i killed it

i could use a call and some old friends
the sky was on the floor cant see no end
and they said where you been i said nowhere
been trying to figure out where the hope went

im a glimmer in the night
you can pin your hopes to
im a refraction of the sky
you can pin your hopes to

violence dec2023 2.61+1.mp3 (cover)

Is There Really No Happiness? but it's just my voice

One time he said
"I wish I could say that I love myself"
He watched as he sat on the bench by himself
For hours now
He heard that he's wed 
And he never cared about how she felt
It gets in his head that he's loved but oh well
Is that really sound?

All the rumors 
But he says that he's fine can't you tell
You don't know anything 
But you can't seem to help yourself
He's helped you through it
I don't think that it's love it's something else
Is it really something else?

He left town though
One day he'll call my phone I hope
He's the best he's found though
I'll wait for you to come back home
Three years have gone by
You appear by my side and pretend
It hasn't been years since you left in the end

All the rumors
But he says that he's mine can't you tell
You're learning everything 
But you can't seem to help yourself
You'll help him through it 
‘Cause I know that it's love, nothing else
Is it really something else?

Stranger

Following another big setback tech wise, I felt like just publishing this. 

announcement: I'm working on an album :) 

Places id rather be
I'll die before I see
trying to find some peace 
stop staring let me be
my hands are getting warm
I can't stay here for long

likely to move on
hyperfixate on 
People pass, I'm through security
for once I'm feeling so much more to me

likely to move on
hyperfixate on 
People pass, I'm through security
for once I feel there's so much more to me 

Its All About Me

All my life
I’ve tried to find you
To tell me why
It’s better not to know
Resentful
You tear me out
A face like yours
Is trouble

My head is spinning, it’s too much
I gave you everything, you turned around
There wasn’t anything I could do

Nothing

Drowning out
I close my eyes
And see

White horses and omens
A fall from grace when I heed
The path I’ve made
From walking away

I
(See)

Desire Path

@viznode @viznode @viznode
@whyawe @whyawe @whyawe

This amazing music is originally from dobi & oyeme, who we really love. Please give them a love
https://soundcloud.com/dobimusic/peacetreaty
https://soundcloud.com/dobimusic
https://soundcloud.com/oyeme-thomas

cover art by @j896

this remix was made in 10 hours. I really love this song and decided to make remix this morning, I was live streaming on discord then Viznode came and made that amazing piano based soundcollage in the middle of the song. awe also did some super amazing stuff on the outro which he always does on his tracks. really happy to have made this remix together thank uuuu :)

peace treaty w/ Viznode & awe

"Catch My Fall" is a deeply emotional and heartfelt pop ballad that captures the raw vulnerability of someone on the brink of despair, yet yearning for support and love. The song explores themes of resilience, trust, and the power of human connection in moments of weakness. With its soaring melodies, ambient instrumentals, and poignant lyrics, "Catch My Fall" speaks to anyone who has felt close to giving up but found strength in the safety of another's care.

The track opens with delicate, atmospheric sounds, setting an introspective tone. As the song progresses, it builds to a powerful chorus that blends a soulful vocal delivery with dramatic beats, creating a sense of both fragility and hope. It’s a song that tugs at the heartstrings, leaving listeners inspired by its message of courage and the reassurance that, no matter how hard the fall, someone will be there to catch you.

Ideal for fans of emotional pop anthems, "Catch My Fall" is a beautiful reminder of the healing power of love and the strength we find in others.

Catch My Fall

DON'T THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.

https://soundcloud.com/half-heart-proj • https://soundcloud.com/artbyform  • 
https://soundcloud.com/wearesilkenwood • https://soundcloud.com/neoluminum

say hi to me at:
discord: jin.gitaxias
email: roixcontact@gmail.com

crickets [jan 2023]

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