Lyrics:

Just another painful memory
Trying to see with my teary eyes
I can feel myself crashing down
Every time i breathe in air

As i look deep in the sky
Multi color glow made me cry
Everything reminds me of you
Letting my heart sink right through

Why not take me out
Have a little look into the sky
Give me little something to remind
Having me feel the way i should
Let’s sneak out into the cove
Little paradise, our treasure trove
I don’t wanna lose the way we are
I don’t wanna lose out who are are
When i look back 
I miss you so bad
The way the heart feels 
Don’t wanna lose that
When it rains down, 
I feel under weather
The way you walk away,
Never made me feel better
Feeling so lovelorn
I can’t take it
Feeling so torn up
I can’t feel it
Weaving these webs
That had me clinging
But even my heart
Can’t fix the mending

Just another painful memory
Trying to see with my teary eyes
I can feel myself crashing down
Every time i breathe in air

As i look deep in the sky
Multi color glow made me cry
Everything reminds me of you
Letting my heart sink right through

painful memories

painful memories [+ Cobalt]

(You're always..) 
When will you move on
(Holding on)
Please I'm sick of it..

I gave my heart and my soul
I let you take it all
The darkness it evolved
I thought you said that it'd go?
Please leave this isn't your home
(Please just go)

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

You broke me apart
Now I feel like a spare piece
Open my heart
See the memories of us
I just can't cope with the way this is going
I remember the days we would bloom love was flowing

Now I'm floating down, in a river on my own
Trapped inside these paper walls
Metaphorically alone
Just consider what you've done
And maybe change your mind before I go
'Cause I'm not coming back
Until this fairytale is over now

I've had enough with you inside my body
Reject your presense but you never resign 
Always lurking in the night

I've had enough telling others it's not me
Had enough crying abt how u got me
No you ain't got me, no more 

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

Gears are turning
I keep learning
Not to trust those around me
I'm just hurting
I'm such a burden
I'm lost at sea and I'm drowning

I'm beat up and bruised
Keep on being abused
I'm just fighting for my life
and I don't want to lose
Burry me, carry me
Tell me I'm okay
You kick me when I'm down but
I grew up this way

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I don't care
I will mend my soul, my body will be whole

You may have had me for years
But I'm done screaming through tears
You always whispered in my ear
I've bled so much, but I'm still here

spare ft. Vails x Lunalis (prod. PartyAtTheMoonTower)

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

made this is a tribute to my friend aaron in december of last year

as per usual, i did everything myself(the mixing, producing, mastering etc etc)

Lyrics:

When you lose someone that you can’t replace
Do you know that?
Have you felt that before?
When you lose all hope in the wider space
‘Cause you can’t reach
No, you can’t reach for them
You would do anything just to bring them back
Try to restore the peace, before you fall off the tracks
He was a being you could not replace
And I can’t grieve
No, I can’t grieve properly

Flashbacks in my brain
Your headstone in the rain
I keep thinking it over
And over again
The clouds scattered at once
As you brought down the sun
I keep thinking it over

I’ve never missed you more than how I’m missing you today
You may have lost your war, but you don’t have to fight it again
You can rest now
I know you’re watching through the beams
Death is just an obstacle, cause I still feel you next to me

When you claw your way through the dark abyss
But the sunshine
Yeah, the sun burns your skin
You can’t let go, no, you can’t erase
Like a bad dream, you’ll forget this some day

If I do this over again
I’d still have you as a friend
All the time that we spent
There’s not a single regret
I’m left floating here in the outer space
No you can’t reach, no you can’t reach for me

Death Is Just An Obstacle (Still Feel You Next To Me)

Produced by mackk 

(Luvflorent)
Do you hate me?
Well I hate me 
I don’t need you 
Why you need me?

The sun stops,I’m stun locked 
Cartier frames hide my tears 
Cartier frames hide my tears 
Pills in the drain, I’m so scared 
I’m always fucking anxious 
It’s why I yearn for the pain pills 
My stomach is always aching 
You said you hate me

I need Zoloft 
I need to get gone 
I need Zoloft 
I need to get gone 

(Vails)
why’d you hate me?
baby thought u rated me 
I can’t breathe for real
So caught up in all the feels
Yeah

Dropping a pill so I feel levitated
I’m breaking the silence so now ur frustrated 
I promise to u since u left I’m so jaded 
these pictures of us really seem to be tainted 
I’m faded I can’t seem to cope with reality
Baby it’s hard cus u hated me actually
just cus I’m changing, and breaking 
Don’t mean you should leave me

luvflorent w/ vails & mackk - hide my tears

waiting on the end w/Brecken

Never Noticed ft. KiD CURSE (prod. Lxst Ghxul)

Here's my EP "manta". I recorded this in 2023, been meaning to drop it for ages.

Manta

peckles in the sun : )

hang up (acoustic)

go back to sleep (prod. Dreamsi)

Nonprofit, shoutout døves 

Lyrics:

I can’t live my motto 
swear I’ll leave by tomorrow 
Feels like a bag on my head 
I don’t mean what I said 

(Mixing Xanax with some ambien
Life in past tense. I don’t have friends 
What do I know? I can’t cope
Where should I go? Ima lonely ghost)

Lost in the dark,I need a light 
But ur match is too bright
I’ll just keep my eyes closed
Can you lead me back home?

(Mixing Xanax I’m mixing Xanax 
When I had that? What I had that?
It’s in past tense I’m a trash bag )


Show me what to do when the lights go out 
And there’s nothing left to feel 
And there’s nothing left to do 
Can’t heal past wounds 
No I can’t
 just win cause there’s no end 

Show me what to do when the lights go out 
And the wind roars loud with my windows down 
And I’m lost somehow 
Guess I’m lost somehow 
Yeah

Bag on my head (Prod.Døves)

artist, producer
ghxst collective

You claim you're a hydra? Bitch, I'm the Chimera.

Death Is Just An Obstacle (Still Feel You Next To Me)

HeyLee Manzeron

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