songs fire, good luck all the best 🤲🏼

featuring @decksmusic

[chorus]
she says i’m stuck but i don’t say shit
she’s had enough of conversations
she wanna leave, but i ain’t waiting
and after everything my baby’s still complaining
i’ve had enough of all this drinking
i did too much, to have you leaving
so if you leave, i ain’t complaining
cause down by cemetery ave is where i’m staying oh no no no

[verse 1]
too much on my fucking conscience
i don’t wanna leave you baby but i feel too often
it’s all about you and never me like there’s no option
you would never listen to a thing ‘til i’m a carcass, aw shit
so i hope you’re sad in august
every time it passes you’re reminded of my coffin
i’m so sick and tired of this shit, like stop your talking
these useless words ain’t stopping my body from dropping oh no no no

[verse 2 - decks]
you told me i’m better off saving breath
so i just listened as i watched our death
to know my faults was such a waste
i got high off of the chase
and every word was full of deep regret
i never thought i’d see those stars align
we were thriving within borrowed time
its hard to see you in this light
lovers acting out of spite
and like a flame once burning now is dead

[chorus]
she says i’m stuck but i don’t say shit
she’s had enough of conversations
she wanna leave, but i ain’t waiting
and after everything my baby’s still complaining
i’ve had enough of all this drinking
i did too much, to have you leaving
so if you leave, i ain’t complaining
cause down by cemetery ave is where i’m staying oh no no no

cemetery ave. (feat. decks) [prod. irby]

I
don't know how to get away x2

she turns
the lights out 
she keeps me in her house 
she pulls my arm
and exposed my wrist 
she pulls a knife 
and she bloody wrist slits
forever & always 
be here in her
house 

don't know how to get away
I
don't know how to get away x3

out all night on the white
but now you're on come down
dirty cigarette on your breath 
and now you're feeling run down
you've been drowning in your problems 
you don't know how to stop them
you fail to recognize that 
you are the fucking problem

your deadbeat promises don't really mean very much now 
you may get what you want, but i know you won't get it from me x2


she turns the lights out 
she keeps me in her house x3 
forever & always be here 
in her 
house

her house (52Blu)

Produced, written, recorded by me

I wrote this song the day after I was diagnosed with blood cancer on the 6th of December 2023. It chronicles my experience with being hospitalized for an extended period of time, and the mental and physical strain the experience put on me.

Lyrics:

It’s fine, I’ll be fine
Don’t you worry about me
I can’t try
To even hide how I’m deteriorating
If I choke in my sleep
I know heaven is waiting
I can’t try to even hide how I’m deteriorating

I fell asleep in my chair
First I drunk too much whisky, I can’t feel my face again
There’s a chill in the air
I’m remembering ward 67 and the fear again

Broke down in the surgery room
Unconsolable, theres nothing i can do
I can’t breathe
Please let me leave
I don’t wanna die in a hospital gown

It’s fine, I’ll be fine
Don’t you worry about me
I can’t try
To even hide how I’m deteriorating
If I choke in my sleep
I know heaven is waiting
I can’t try to even hide how I’m deteriorating

Broke down in the surgery room
I don’t wanna die in a hospital gown

It's Fine, I'll Be Fine

ask me if im doin better, i jus got used to the weather
created a place where im bulletproof
cus theres nowhere to hide when that bullet shoot
trauma been buried the corner
the deepest recesses take over
no one compares to u.

lyrics

Bonded to a soul I couldn’t see, blinding light
Every morning like funeral coz I’d thought she died
Itching off her skin that’s what she wanted in her life,
That’s not alright
You chose a wrong vice

Choose another path I’m not doing these fairytales
Change can’t come abruptly but shits changing anyway
Taken by the winds takes too long to get back in to place
That’s not alright
I’ll stop riding these tides

woahohoh
Been thinking bout my fate
And its not looking great
No I cant travel time
But I been thinking bout it lately, my mind is mostly drained
But this script is still right

Ive been here too long when I said take me
But this body I ain't wanted it quite frankly
She's gone now but she will come around the next day
Still she wont take my soul until I'm empty

Till I'm empty,
Id pick up all my shit and dip if I didn't hav this death key
A blade she holding lefty
She prepped the night but then she just went on and left me
Oh it hurts more than when its threatening

long nites

long nites. (jolst x keyblade808.7)

Produced by sai & lune
Featuring @kanashisadface
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS
I wish I could say that I'm happy for you
But I won't lie no
You speak a lot
But it's rarely the truth
Oh what a waste of time

Those years we spent together
Guess they didn't mean much at all
In dreams you're still here with me
It seems I can't just sleep this off

Time spent with you I can't get back
In pursuit of the things I can not have
Without you it's all meaningless
So I'll just go back to bed

(Kanashi)
Guess I'll go back to bed
What a fucking loser I've become
And I can't understand why I didn't run
I could see the signs from the start
Yeah I never meant nothing to you
You don't even feel bad do you
Well of course you don't
You're a liar and a fake
You're the reason why I lie awake

Listen on Spotify!

Sleep This Off w/ Kanashi (Prod. sai & lune)

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with your broken apologies 

rough times when id go gome and ik that ur not there
dumb crimes got me thinkin that nobody aware
well trust me im aware
trust me im aware

aware of the things that ive done
Nobody can hide under the sun
gimme closure so that i dont wanna run
i need you to say that i wasnt the one

fun times used to lay back 
dumb lies made me back track
cold eyes all that you had
when i
 really fell back

wanted life to feel like an adventure 
come back I apologize for my temper
one job and i really put it in the blender
no wood for the fire in the winter

somehow life goes on
drive home with the windows down
find out what tbeyre talking about
eyes focused on the shapes of the clouds

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with my broken apologies 

no chance
broekn heart in advance
green vans no belt for my pants no glam
they all so judgy nowdays its like a scam
got no drip got no fans got no chance

thats cap
ima run it up and run it back
yea ima get my money up and get some fans
might catch me in a bentley truck in japan

no matter what it takes
if your hearts at the bottom of the lake
dont stay cuz i promise theres a way
dont cave cuz i know you wanna say
what you never thought youd ever get to say
take a run if you been outta shape
Thats love if you push through the pain
no drugs could ever maintain
the love that you couldn’t bring 

enough with all of the things
stuck up inside of my head
time to push them down the drain
and finally get me some rest

when the highway ends i hope that we could somhow be friends
i wonder if ur listening
to everything that’s happening 

but if you are then you know that i been wrong
wrongly torn apart 
so i wrote another song
you said that wed go far
maybe thats just what i want
Life isn’t too hard if you just look up to god

tell me that i could do better tban this
you look at my heart and say better than that
i dont know what the best medicine is

look up and you will find that

heartbreak on the highway (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

2nd single from dusk dreams 2 <3

Lyrics

All, these words spill out of me
I don't want the world to see 
What I could do 
And who I can be

I been fading like the leaves
I know I say it every week
But Please just listen to me
I don't wanna lose my peace 

I know that this ain't the time and place
But im losing energy in these waves
I can't stay afloat much longer
I kinda enjoy this rip I face

Maybe I need to try alone
It's best If I turn skin and bone
I really dont like that tone
Maybe I should turn to stone

Hold me tight till I hav no motor
One last night in this world I told her
One more day and ur world might crush
Below all of these waves I showed her

I knew I shunt’ve took that chance
The hope I had in a romance
Disrgretion wasnt shown 
Thrown overboard without a cast

Slow down I am going nowhere
So much more time in despair
Old friend I wish u were here
In this life I relinquish my care

The reasons are lost out in sea
They perished along wit the dreams
I dont know what else that could mean 
But I try to stay calm on these creeks

The wind is blowing us east 
I try to hold off a weep but the lack sleep of has left me so weak 
Guess I'll keep it locked until another one of these weeks
I'm hurting myself while I'm letting you bleed

Maybe this world will find out another way
But right now gotta figure out how to live today
I know it's not the topic that would make you wanna stay
But I've thought of this in a lot of ways

I've been a lot of places
I've seen a lot of faces
Still I corrupt the hatred
Enter my world and you'll want to paint
Just make sure to look in the corner and remember the name

thunderbreak

Thunder-break (Sleepy fish)

unlike you

artist, producer
ghxst collective

Currently trying to kick cancers ass, I think I'm winning rn.

It's Fine, I'll Be Fine

HeyLee Manzeron

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