i seen your eyes turn to water
you must be so ahead idk what u wanna hear
from me, now im older
glass feels colder
inside looking out
what if this how they view me from the outside
ur looking down on me
ur looking down now
this blasphemy 
it all comes round 
you were bad for me
im so fucked now

i could take a knife out
put it through my wrist
let you grab it with your hand just so you can twist
i wont tell nobody
youd never hurt a soul
dont try to complicate it
ur doing it wrong
you can try and stop me however you want
ill put a hole through ur head
and then ill spin it off
im sick of being vulnerable
no one listens now
youll never get ahead of me 
ill just rip you down

ur splitting personalities 
i swear nobody gives a shit
walk right over me, ur never nice oh no one bit
i must be such a disgrace, im holding you back
covering my ears oh i love when you laugh
but its bad
i see ur faces walking round like you have
other family you throw me on my ass
never mine and its honestly sad

wrist

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

all i have is nothing w/ byekento

guitar by me

monsters
inside my walls
they like break me
down
until i crawl
save me
i think i lost
the war between
myself and i
leave me here to rot
i’ll take u back any day
with no second thought 
do u ever feel the same
would u kill for just a day
for us
to meet
once again

walls

prod by stezzyxl
w/ezra

her soundcloud:
@ezra-920909243

enjoy^\^

lyrics:

(stezzyxl)
give me a reason to stay away
the ones that u bring up are never okay
the house that we built up together is gone
i like to visit once a while, in the middle of dawn

(ezra)
do you think of me
or do you think of bad things
like all the fights
all the nights
we spent and cried

i avoid certain streets
like the park we used to hang
i avoid certain events
when lovers begin to mock
someone i’ll never have

(stezzyxl)
the love brings joy in the air around me
i start to get pissed, i get filled with envy
so tell me god, why can’t i be that happy
i’ll kill to see a day, where there’s nothing wrong with me

(stezzyxl w/ezra)
do you think of me
or do you think of bad things
like all the fights
all the nights
we spent and cried (x2)

our story w/ezra

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

https://soundcloud.com/evergardens/remorse original

lyrics:
were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

ooooo

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

remorse(cover)

prod @prod-oc

// lyrics 
leave me with what to prove
you speak all but the truth
and betray
such a rude display
aha

they crowd around like sheep
but i don’t really sleep
it’s for the weak
and i don’t really care
it’s not that deep no
leave her with a scare
in the wrong season

look me in the face
what’s left to say love
i’ll give them some credit
they should’ve stand down
seems like everybody’s
acting like a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

uh
i don’t fuck with your friends
i’d put that bitch in the grave love
um
keep sticking pins in your hand
you can’t go a day without drugs yuh
say your man’s in a band
i get more streams than he could understand
he doesn’t know what you do with your hands
wrap around me like a rubberband

bring the flame
set the fire
let it burn
i love pain
i love to hurt
baby kick me in the dirt now
say my name
with a passion
i’m the worst
make it heard
by the whole world
let them know
i’m out for blood now

i can feel the tension
cutting tendons up until he dies
i can fill the room up with the bodies
frame a suicide
i can be the geist that haunts your bloodline
every day and night
i can see through your disguise
all the fear inside your eyes

get your money up
get my name out of your mouth
bitch
it’s sorta funny now
all your groupies fuck with my shit
act all buddy love
bet you’re wishing that i had quit
it’s really funny now
you’re on your knees sucking my dick

blood on my hands
wiped on my pants
reload the gun and we’re ready
it’s all in the plan
stay in demand
going up we’re steady
seems like everybody’s
acting a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

scarecrows scattered across the fields
i move swift, i never yield
cover up where my arms bleed
you wont smell the blood on me

so you’ve got perfect aim
but cannot hit me i’m a phantom
promise i’m not worried
bro you’re just a fucking random
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

step out of my way
i swear i’ll turn you to an atom
and no i am not worried
guess you haven’t seen my fandom
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

phantom

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phantom [oc]

cover of the song 'arctic eyes' by 9TAILS
produced by nciku

heylog - arctic eyes (9TAILS & nciku)

:) 


Looking half a mile away to see you face the wall
everytime u look at me my feelings burn 
all the things u wanted and I failed them all
Everytime u Talk to me my stomach burns

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Blood creeping out my window to my yard
All this involvement don’t know who u are 
All this water leaves, falls down where u are 
I don’t seem restless just going too far 
I’ve got no fuel left, you’ve drained all that I have 
Oh I’m anxious as shit, u should look at my arm
Cause I’ve torn it to pieces 
No pieces left
Just a pot that you piss in, now torn to shreds 

this feeling eats me alive guess i messed up my life
i try just to hide that way cant be right
well im just tired, everything is tiring
i stay up all night next day i sleep all the time
dont know what to say so i better stay silent
in my head im with you in fields full of violets

Walk myself to the pier this is life for me 
Pull myself up the wall u can’t carry me 
All this water gets colder crashes into me 
These feelings that I get I must have to leave

knee

zoltar

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