Lyrics:

Just another painful memory
Trying to see with my teary eyes
I can feel myself crashing down
Every time i breathe in air

As i look deep in the sky
Multi color glow made me cry
Everything reminds me of you
Letting my heart sink right through

Why not take me out
Have a little look into the sky
Give me little something to remind
Having me feel the way i should
Let’s sneak out into the cove
Little paradise, our treasure trove
I don’t wanna lose the way we are
I don’t wanna lose out who are are
When i look back 
I miss you so bad
The way the heart feels 
Don’t wanna lose that
When it rains down, 
I feel under weather
The way you walk away,
Never made me feel better
Feeling so lovelorn
I can’t take it
Feeling so torn up
I can’t feel it
Weaving these webs
That had me clinging
But even my heart
Can’t fix the mending

Just another painful memory
Trying to see with my teary eyes
I can feel myself crashing down
Every time i breathe in air

As i look deep in the sky
Multi color glow made me cry
Everything reminds me of you
Letting my heart sink right through

painful memories

painful memories [+ Cobalt]

(You're always..) 
When will you move on
(Holding on)
Please I'm sick of it..

I gave my heart and my soul
I let you take it all
The darkness it evolved
I thought you said that it'd go?
Please leave this isn't your home
(Please just go)

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

You broke me apart
Now I feel like a spare piece
Open my heart
See the memories of us
I just can't cope with the way this is going
I remember the days we would bloom love was flowing

Now I'm floating down, in a river on my own
Trapped inside these paper walls
Metaphorically alone
Just consider what you've done
And maybe change your mind before I go
'Cause I'm not coming back
Until this fairytale is over now

I've had enough with you inside my body
Reject your presense but you never resign 
Always lurking in the night

I've had enough telling others it's not me
Had enough crying abt how u got me
No you ain't got me, no more 

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

Gears are turning
I keep learning
Not to trust those around me
I'm just hurting
I'm such a burden
I'm lost at sea and I'm drowning

I'm beat up and bruised
Keep on being abused
I'm just fighting for my life
and I don't want to lose
Burry me, carry me
Tell me I'm okay
You kick me when I'm down but
I grew up this way

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I don't care
I will mend my soul, my body will be whole

You may have had me for years
But I'm done screaming through tears
You always whispered in my ear
I've bled so much, but I'm still here

spare ft. Vails x Lunalis (prod. PartyAtTheMoonTower)

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

Produced by mackk 

(Luvflorent)
Do you hate me?
Well I hate me 
I don’t need you 
Why you need me?

The sun stops,I’m stun locked 
Cartier frames hide my tears 
Cartier frames hide my tears 
Pills in the drain, I’m so scared 
I’m always fucking anxious 
It’s why I yearn for the pain pills 
My stomach is always aching 
You said you hate me

I need Zoloft 
I need to get gone 
I need Zoloft 
I need to get gone 

(Vails)
why’d you hate me?
baby thought u rated me 
I can’t breathe for real
So caught up in all the feels
Yeah

Dropping a pill so I feel levitated
I’m breaking the silence so now ur frustrated 
I promise to u since u left I’m so jaded 
these pictures of us really seem to be tainted 
I’m faded I can’t seem to cope with reality
Baby it’s hard cus u hated me actually
just cus I’m changing, and breaking 
Don’t mean you should leave me

luvflorent w/ vails & mackk - hide my tears

waiting on the end w/Brecken

I've been sitting on a buttload of unreleased Nickisgonenow songs for years at this point, due to him sending me WIPs a lot back in the old days, and the one song I was so pissed never got released was a track called "Passed Out Lonely". I managed to convince him to drop it, but he said he thought the song sucked so he privated it. Even when he was alive, I wanted to cover it, but I was an idiot and forgot to ask who the producer was before his passing. In the end I ended up reproducing the instrumental myself, so I'm sorry to the producer who made the original instrumental, but I just couldn't find you.

Nick was the first person to believe in me, take me under his wing, and show me the wider alternative soundcloud community. In the end, we were both fucked up on substances, which lead to us fighting a lot and eventually falling out, but I'm grateful I even got the chance to know him for the brief period he was in my life.

Rest easy, old friend.

Passed Out Lonely - (Nickisgonenow cover) | RIP Nickisgonenow

Never Noticed ft. KiD CURSE (prod. Lxst Ghxul)

Here's my EP "manta". I recorded this in 2023, been meaning to drop it for ages.

Manta

peckles in the sun : )

hang up (acoustic)

go back to sleep (prod. Dreamsi)

Nonprofit, shoutout døves 

Lyrics:

I can’t live my motto 
swear I’ll leave by tomorrow 
Feels like a bag on my head 
I don’t mean what I said 

(Mixing Xanax with some ambien
Life in past tense. I don’t have friends 
What do I know? I can’t cope
Where should I go? Ima lonely ghost)

Lost in the dark,I need a light 
But ur match is too bright
I’ll just keep my eyes closed
Can you lead me back home?

(Mixing Xanax I’m mixing Xanax 
When I had that? What I had that?
It’s in past tense I’m a trash bag )


Show me what to do when the lights go out 
And there’s nothing left to feel 
And there’s nothing left to do 
Can’t heal past wounds 
No I can’t
 just win cause there’s no end 

Show me what to do when the lights go out 
And the wind roars loud with my windows down 
And I’m lost somehow 
Guess I’m lost somehow 
Yeah

Bag on my head (Prod.Døves)

artist, producer
ghxst collective

Currently trying to kick cancers ass, I think I'm winning rn.

Passed Out Lonely - (Nickisgonenow cover) | RIP Nickisgonenow

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