REAL MDM SHIT📢📢📢‼️‼️‼️

thats all i get thrown against the glass
i see right through your intellect
because i cry tears sometime
but you just gotta say im here
still anyway
cuz i dont see you that way
that way (x12)

(i gotta talk to you about something)

wanna talk about it now
wake up feeling dead but i been tryna leave the house
maybe one day ill be sleeping in the ground
wanna feel your touch do u even want me now
lemme calm down
i saw creeping in the door ask me if im better now
silence in your face ur always sneaking out the house
something has to give wanna make it better now
make better now

thats all i get thrown against the glass
i see right through your intellect

because its long nights talkin
the risk of walking
i feel so sensitive
have no options
i cant find closure
i lose composure
dont know what we’re doing but i want u closer
cuz all that u have is what i want 
cuz all that u have is what i want

shattered +ridgely2k

@wolfyysfine @northeastlights @prod_death

[@tzunahmie]
should i stay should i go
heart turned cold watch it snow
taking drugs moving slow
leaving now where to go
x2

passing time by staring at the stars
needa run away needa get far
body shutting down yea i need a restart
knew u were fake from the start
the scars on my heart
taking drugs to escape from reality
never heard anyone say they proud of me
drowning in my thoughts no one can see
sorry im not the person you wanted me to be

[@wolfyysfine]
should i stay
should i go?
youll never know
if u never been told
lmk how u fell
head over heels for me
in a blank space
u threw me away
what would u even do
if he wasnt new
in my head its me and u
livin out our days just us two

[@tzunahmie]
should i stay should i go
heart turned cold watch it snow
taking drugs moving slow
leaving now where to go
x2

should i stay ft. wolfyy [northeast lights + death]

@mycorpsebridee @fum1ko
im at rock bottom things cant get any worse
pray for things to get better but that never ever works
im going nowhere thats the truth and it hurts
cant feel much of anything but i can sure feel the hurt, oh well
i dont know how to be human
i dont know what im doing
i cant do this i dont think ill get through this
walkin down the street hope i get hit by a car
didnt think id make it this far but here we are
cant get it over with i back out everytime
like dozens of times maybe a few more and itll all be over
salt in the wound and im fine with it
wish things could just happen slower
can never catch a break
hope one day i can say im doing better
cant find love guess its not for me
no notifications no one talks to me
i dont know how to function thats what stoppin me
ive accomplished nothing thats whats haunting me
oh well

oh well (mycorpsebride + fumiko)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3es08oMBduWQYGf4EeGUjv?si=a8683892c19e46a0

prod @sshinju ft @whyhaze
ilyall<3
2023 our year^-^
lil bday drop

lili
blacked out i can never get up
2 much in my system i jus fuck shit up
but i cant change it im jus stuck in the middle >.<
put the needle in my eye imma bleed out its fatal x2

aaa ik u hate me
i cnt count all the times u made me bleed
i cnt get up im way 2 weak
ill stay inside ill stay asleep
dnt walk 2 me my heart is beating
2 fast for me
dnt talk 2 me ur too misleading
wdym..

haze
stay awake touch my face
cnt replace u it hurts to say
tht u n me r not meant 2 be
got a pill up on my tongue i dont feel anything
but i still bleed cut so deep
i hope i dnt od i need u 2 hold me
i need u 2 hold me...
have u in my arms when ur falling

spotify ^-^

fatal +whyhaze prod shinju

w/ @angelsflight + @heyvilse
prod: @prodjayysoul + @fum1ko

@anti-light
wasting all my time in my racing mind, lonely
always smoke until i cry and stay awake all night, scrolling
at the moment i feel better when i’m letting life flow
‘cause if i try and break the cycle it gets stronger ninefold
i’ve been on my knees so many times, still a believer
i’ve been on my knees too many times, still a believer
head stuck in my feelings all the time, i’m the biggest griever
lately i’ve felt closer to my maker, i know i’m ready to meet her

@angelsflight
you don’t know what you wanna say
i can’t find the word if i tried
lately sky been looking real gray
i can’t see through all of those lies
yeah you fucked up, want a doctor
in the first place, it’s the worst way
when i found it, i was drowning
i don’t mind ‘cause i’m better without it

@anti-light
lose myself, can’t find back to hell
this path’s getting rough
watch my health getting worse
still working, can’t get enough

wasting all my time in my racing mind, lonely
always smoke until i cry and stay awake all night, scrolling
at the moment i feel better when i’m letting life flow
‘cause if i try and break the cycle it gets stronger ninefold
i’ve been on my knees so many times, still a believer
i’ve been on my knees too many times, still a believer
head stuck in my feelings all the time, i’m the biggest griever
lately i’ve felt closer to my maker, i know i’m ready to meet her

@heyvilse
yeah i got my own problems, i don't wanna talk
need to find a way out fast, i’m too sick of all these thoughts
yeah, losing my head and i want it to stop
i’m so sick of how i feel and i swear i’ve had enough
i don't have time for what i want
and you told another lie just so i could feel wrong
and i did another line so i could feel like i belong
need to cope with how i feel so i put it in a song
find it way too hard to deal with my emotions
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m drowning in the ocean
i know that it's bad but i feel better when i’m smoking
i can't talk to you 'bout how i feel cause i’ll be choking
are you stupid?
i don't like a single thing that you did
if i had a choice you'd be the last one that i’m choosing
you got in the way and put a stop to my improvement

Spotify

Ninefold w/ angelsflight + vilse (jayysoul x fumiko)

wha
dont get what im asking
put together everything
im feeling kinda startled
pour gas on the carpet 
eyes on me 
its overwhelming
point and shoot the target

kick down the door and shut down the party
all the worst decisions always feeling so harmless
dont know where my heart went
take my hand and take each other out
ill take my chances

you got a sense of what people deserve
i plant my rocks in the dirt
hear voices cry from the earth
you know the tables have turned 
when you just get what you want
and im not better than that
squeeze it for all that its worth
i know when im around
people who get off on shame 
too busy looking through graves 
dont have the time to relate
fuck you
embalm my own body 
take myself to the morgue and shut in where i cant hear

force of nature 
youre gonna wanna sedate me 
know you hate my guts
spill them all out on the table
wasnt born was created
from remains and the waste
no supervision or safety
ill take a kick to the face at four thirty am in the morning
up from the adrenaline i hear the shadows stalking
me to the end of the city till the dawn hits
NOTHING IN MY STOMACH 
IM STILL FEELING FUCKING NAUSEOUS

decisions that i knew werent right for me
turn around 
bare teeth
and come back to bite me
drop through the ceiling with the perfect timing
tear down the room 
and bring a start to violence
and im stuck where i cant breathe
claustrophobic walls are closing in out in the darkness
dont know where my heart went 
take my hand and take each other out ill take my chances

told you that i burnt it long ago 
the fuck you searching for
ashes on the floor
why wont you let it go
didnt know it was a problem 
im so fallen 
feel the tension getting stronger
didnt want it to all end like that
feel my skin burn through as the lightning flash

take notes 
this is how you strip a carcass 
no im not the snake
i bit the apple in the garden

garden

ayy 
get it all back
something in the water coming up fast
hey 
youre better than that
gonna pull you under 
gonna pull you under

told you it wasnt working
cant tell you why im off it
cant tell you why im lost
im moving with way too much caution

i got five scythes tied in a cats eye
take flight metal grind thru the flat tire
no sight going blind in the late night
so numb in the hands 
getting frostbite
break locks dry ice over thermite 
no keys 
brute force
imma get whats mine
so many bodies in the morgue but i still feel life
too many gods in the sky telling me whats right

jump in the stream dont go to the surface
wanna sink deeper
shook off my nerves
im floating in stasis
cut up my brakes
and pushing through water further and further

all talk no solutions 
some things permanent 
one day youll learn but
somethings shifted 
tides always turning
cant always firm it
keep your head on if its that bad

always paying for the payback 
take lost memories from way back
crossing the bridge and you look straight down
holding the torch and you put it straight out
concrete blocks to your ankles fixed by your own design
dont know why youre drowning

locked outside in a maze but i ran for escape
and i almost found it

im in the field looking out for the landmines
nothing been this way for a long time
i kinda miss the spark of the live wire
its always hard to rely on your sidearm

i dont know if i deserve this
like me to waste my purpose
i learnt it all from you
i know that hurts
i know that hurts

i got five scythes tied in a cats eye
take flight metal grind thru the flat tire
no sight going blind in the late night
so numb in the hands 
getting frostbite
break locks dry ice over thermite 
no keys 
brute force
imma get whats mine
so many bodies in the morgue but i still feel life
too many gods in the sky telling me whats right

water

oh my love oh my love oh my love i think ive done bad 
broke my spirit because i never should have done that
pull me to pieces itll be the last time
so far its been a fucking carcrash

the scene out here feels like a painting 
the paint is flaking
the cracks are showing 
just sit alone 
anticipation
too many times i rack my brain and get more fucking questions
i wanna shut it down and give myself whats for the taking
oh my god
the winters feeling so cold
im riding solo
shaking under rainfall
i think id hate you but you didnt know
and theres so much more to be unveiled but i think this is my 
last one

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I THINK I MIGHT SNAP
BREAK MY NECK ROUND TWICE AND GIVE ME WHIPLASH
DONT WANT TO FIGHT IT ANYMORE AND I DONT LIKE THAT
IM STUCK HERE BUILDING MY BRIDGES

OH MY LOVE OH MY LOVE OH MY LOVE I THINK IVE DONE BAD
BROKE MY SPIRIT COZ I NEVER SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT
PULL ME TO PEICES ITLL BE THE LAST TIME 
SO FAR ITS BEEN A FUCKING CARCRASH

WOAH YEA
ITS FEELING FATAL 
IM WATCHING CEILING FANS AND PAINT DRY AS THE TIME GOES BY
SOMETIMES I ACT UP AND I DONT KNOW WHY
IM LOSING HARD
ILL FLIP THE TABLE
WOAH YEEAH 
I GET UNSTABLE
IM WATCHING LIVES GO ON AND MILESTONES AS I FALL BEHIND
SO OUT OF MIND ILL PUT IT OUT OF SIGHT
SO FAR ITS BEEN A FUCKING CARCRASH

do you miss me?
do you really miss me?
couldnt take it if youd still want to be with me
are you listening?
hope youre out there listening
im alone walking through halls of broken mirrors

and im on time on my life
where ive got nothing to hide
ill put the six on the five 
and watch the acid rain
plasticize from the sky
im running circles with fire
im on the winning team's side
i know you cant relate

oh my god
the winters feeling so cold
im riding solo
shaking under rainfall
i think id hate you but you didnt know
and theres so much more to be unveiled but i think this is my 
last one

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I THINK I MIGHT SNAP
BREAK MY NECK ROUND TWICE AND GIVE ME WHIPLASH
DONT WANT TO FIGHT IT ANYMORE AND I DONT LIKE THAT
IM STUCK HERE BUILDING MY BRIDGES

OH MY LOVE OH MY LOVE OH MY LOVE I THINK IVE DONE BAD
BROKE MY SPIRIT COZ I NEVER SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT
PULL ME TO PEICES ITLL BE THE LAST TIME 
SO FAR ITS BEEN A FUCKING CARCRASH

WOAH YEA
ITS FEELING FATAL 
IM WATCHING CEILING FANS AND PAINT DRY AS THE TIME GOES BY
SOMETIMES I ACT UP AND I DONT KNOW WHY
IM LOSING HARD
ILL FLIP THE TABLE
WOAH YEEAH 
I GET UNSTABLE
IM WATCHING LIVES GO ON AND MILESTONES AS I FALL BEHIND
SO OUT OF MIND ILL PUT IT OUT OF SIGHT
SO FAR ITS BEEN A FUCKING CARCRASH

carcrash

lost the keys to the cemetery
cutting down thorns
cutting my losses
down to the place you met me
gritting my teeth and clenching my fists for what im bout to bury
its all the weight you carry
its all the weight you carry

what i got to do to not run out of time 
when i drift unconscious and can taste the sky
all my senses gearing up for flight yeah
all my senses gearing up for flight

lost the keys to the cemetery now its square one
i dont wanna carry on
aspiration long gone
always trying to find peace in the things that feel wrong to me
in the things that feel wrong to me

take a couple months out for my senses 
try and lead astray anything that you mention
heads in the cloud im locked in
pensive
got a different definition of what heaven is
cause everyone got their own run and i dont ever wanna get caught up in difference
lost the keys to the cemetery

carry

dagger in my back
ppl circling around me chant the
same words
the rain comes in 
the clouds turn black
take a stab in the dark
and ill take it all back get it 
scrapped
the rain comes in 
the clouds turn
black

black rain
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain in my ashtray 
black snow
black ice on the highway
black fur
black coat on my body 
so cold
no heart 
you cant hold me
bad dream 
yea i feel like im falling 
feel like im falling 
feel like im falling

feel like im falling 
spaced out recognising everybody in the hallway
but i dont know them
i dont recall it
thousand yard stare
the walls are morphing
and i dont even know where im at, i miss fighting the boredom
creeping up anticipation 
making m nauseous
i lay my head on the ground and i hear sounds but no talking
so i open up the door to whoever starts knocking

black rain
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain in my ashtray 
black snow
black ice on the highway
black fur
black coat on my body 
so cold
no heart 
you cant hold me
bad dream 
yea i feel like im falling 
feel like im falling 
feel like im falling

i said hi from the underworld after it was said and done
you got a spell on me you make me wanna see it out
i think ive said enough
i think ive shown my love
i think i got too many places that i get around
flying on the highs of the curve before i sink down
i dont need a shrink
i just need some time to think now
bad day
yeah im used to setbacks
i can tell its fake love
because i never felt that 

black rain
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain in my ashtray 
black snow
black ice on the highway
black fur
black coat on my body 
so cold
no heart 
you cant hold me
bad dream 
yea i feel like im falling 
feel like im falling 
feel like im falling

black rain
black rain
black rain 
black rain in my ashtray
black rain
black rain
black rain 
black rain in my ashtray

blackrain

another shot w/ luvlxckdown (prod. DEAD☣AT☣18)

@moderndayuk
@dialt0ne


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