This song is a reimagining of "My Heroine" by Silverstein. 
Featuring @killingartmusic
Produced by @jolst
Remixed by @carlby
Engineered, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS (Written by Silverstein/ Shane Told)
The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me
You just want to hurt me
And leave me desperate
You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine
You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in every time
You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

(Killing Art)
Heroine
Poisoning my veins
You’re the reason
That I’m going insane 

I get like this every single time
Fiending for your love like every night
Am I gonna overdose and waste my life
I’d feel less pain with a fucking knife

Like you tore my heart again
You’re just like heroine

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take your time with me i swear i'll let you know
we'll runaway together i wont let you go
impatient, another problem here we go,
what you're saying i know i've heard it all before

you're living life worked up, you gotta know,
and when the dice drops, baby let it roll,
cause when the fight stops, you get time to grow,
and you know that i'll wait for you,
i'm always gon' wait just for you,
another day another night, just you,
i think if we could spend some time away,
if there was time in the day,
i know you'd feel a little better baby,
fly me away you know

yeah, you know i gotchu girl,
a million colours and others,
that i ain't gotta know,
i like the way that you're looking,
i like the way you smell,
and now i'm worried, worried

cause i know you're getting way too stressed out,
cant focus,
and i ain't letting out any my emotions,
i spent my minutes with my head under the ocean,
until you came and introduced me to your potion,

take your time with me i swear i'll let you know
we'll runaway together i wont let you go
impatient, another problem here we go,
what you're saying i know i've heard it all before

you're living life worked up, you gotta know,
and when the dice drops, baby let it roll,
cause when the fight stops, you get time to grow,
and you know that i'll wait for you,
i'm always gon' wait just for you,
another day another night, just you,
i think if we could spend some time away,
if there was time in the day,
i know you'd feel a little better baby,
fly me away you know

let the dice roll

self inflicted

lyrics:
think i now understand what you were talking about
all your words but now i'm living without
let the worst come
while you're lonely
you're the poison
took you slowly

i tried so damn hard
you made me fall apart
i tried so damn hard
i'll fight to hide these scars

when you're gone i can't breathe
but it's not about me
now my scars are ugly
i'm fighting to cope
while you're playing a joke
know your place in my world is gone
i can't let go

i can't let go
i can't let go
running around and round we go
climbing the mountain as high as it goes

i tried so damn hard
you made me fall apart
i tried so damn hard
i'll fight to hide these scars

when you're gone i can't breathe
but it's not about me
now my scars are ugly
i'm fighting to cope
while you're playing a joke
know your place in my world is gone
i can't let go

i can't let go
i can't let go

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scars//u were my rock tho (fxckyeahako)

with soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Greenwood:
And its more than what I thought we found
A couple exits left, a couple towns
So its quiet with the windows down
With the thoughts I tend to circle round
And the silence always takes me out
And the exits getting closer now
Start to damage all I think about
But we’re strangers and you’re not around

Eoin Disney:
Tell me if I’m being too much
But I can’t help but falling under your touch
Daylight coming in but curtains are pulled
Don’t ever leave my fantasy cause heaven’s good
Theres better ways to spend our day than taking breaks
But just to stay the night, don’t want to waste your time
When we wake up in the morning and we’re baking for the day
We’re on the greener side, I want to feel alive

Greenwood:
And its more than what I thought we found
A couple exits left, a couple towns
So its quiet with the windows down
With the thoughts I tend to circle round
And the silence always takes me out
And the exits getting closer now
Start to damage all I think about
But we’re strangers and you’re not around

Interstate (w/ Eoin Disney)

~ i couldn't stand it... ~
produced by me <3

-
How could it be
Was everything you said to me make-believe
You said you wanted me on your anniversary 
He doesn't know about the thing that we said we'd be 
'Cause I never had tenancy
You worshipped me 
I've never had someone that would say those things 
The love was there, don't act like you weren't as deep as me 
It's getting tiring, yanking roots that are gripping me 
All the hurt that you're giving me 

You're the setup, I'm the punchline
You were someone, I was "sometimes"
I was boundless, you were the confines 
I think it's time I get up and go 

'Cause now my bed's so cold, and I'm all alone 
Thought I'd found my home, now I just don't know 
The chemicals, I don't feel withdrawals 
It's hard to watch you pull away when I give my all
'Cause now my texts go green, and I'm left on seen
And the disbelief is consuming me 
The dopamine, it was just routine
 I couldn't stand to keep on being in the in-between
The in-between, the in-between

Everything you say is confidential
'Cause you got a man, girl that's essential 
Tell me if you think there's no potential 
'Cause tryna get away is consequential 
Tell me if it's worth it to preserve it 
Oh, I'm tired of the hurting, don't deserve it 
It's a little bit unnerving but I'm searching 
For a way to make it right, but it isn't working 
Do you find it makes it easy when it's just through a phone 
Weaving lies to tell your boyfriend, makes me feel like a joke 
Now I'm high most every day, my mental's in the unknown 
Wish you'd be mine, but you'll just leave me alone

'Cause now my bed's so cold, and I'm all alone 
Thought I'd found my home, now I just don't know 
The chemicals, I don't feel withdrawals 
It's hard to watch you pull away when I give my all
'Cause now my texts go green, and I'm left on seen
And the disbelief is consuming me 
The dopamine, it was just routine
 I couldn't stand to keep on being in the in-between
The in-between, the in-between
The in-between, the in-between

borderline

in-between

lyrics//

been stuck on my meds
been up in my head
been saying oh well
it is what it is
but i got no patience 
i got no time
cant get out of bed
cant get out my mind

i been so sick of them saying
it all will get better
cuz lately im breaking
i still got the sweater
you left me in vegas
i gave you that box of ur shit
to replace it

i wrote you that letter
i guess that you hated it
its been way too long for the year that i dated
if you get the time couod you dog ear the pages im
trying my hardest but trying dont won’t make it

remember the days 
ask how im doing im going to waste
ask me to smile i dont have the strength
to lift up the corners and lips on my face

embracing the past is a waste of my time
youre taking me back to a simplier life
and you know im sorry
i stepped outta line
forgot all the blessings infected with lies

the city dont feel the same
cuz you in another place
so why do beat me until i feel broken
i been down this road and i know that its hopeless
i know where its going
im going, gone


cant pick up these pieces im just a man
and you take it for weakness and who i am
im just a figjting a demon to find a plan
weight is heavy
but lucky to have some fans

i was in love with you but
prophesy wasent true
now
autumn reminds me of june
and heartache reminds me of you

the city dont feel the same
cuz you in another place
so why do beat me until i feel broken
i been down this road and i know that its hopeless
i know where its going
im going, gone

it didn’t take too long to get attached 
it was only your words and the way you laughed
but also the beauty that you had
i wish that you knew that you had that
lemme get back on track
one day i started to hold you too fast
and then you said
that you feel like you are trapped
well i guess that i gotta sit here and be sad
wake up make eggs in the pan,
holding on by one single strand
gotta get over it make me a plan
no more games
no game boy advanced
gotta get over it
i already said that but i really meant it
i still got your sweater on
i’ll put it to flame in ashes

ily thank u for listening

going going, gone w/ brecken

would you like to go out?

complex (Cybertrash remix)

Thank u for sticking around <333

lyrics

Schoolgrounds
Always got ur rules, never play ‘round
New scene, fruit trees
Never spend too long on the playground
Always took granted what I see now

Old days, old ways
I know ur a product of that ol’ place
Wash away ur habits, with a cold case
Of every truth that u hadn’t even realised 
But like “no way”

I wont love u, just to let u go
I wont love u just to let u go
Ima love u, jus to help u grow
Ima love u jus to help u grow

Pick me up, put me down
Take a few steps back and you won't have to drown
Once u find that space youll prevent the drown
Pick me up but then just put me down

I dont wanna take it
I dont wanna fake it
I've had this view for so long that I’d just never make it
I've had to break thru my reality and face it

But ig that its different when it comes to you
The worlds that create only fits us 2
But I know with this world things dont always break through
Me and u jus gotta push to put out the fumes

In my name I still write for you
Even with that attitude I still expect some gratitude 
Carrying around a heavy heart
With a smile on my face
Don't want these feelings erased
I just want us both ok

I just got my soul detached 
Any moment heart attack
You tell me that my love is fake
But ig I was made for that

I feel like a space cadet
I'm heading to my worlds and back
I just saw my life flash 
I just need my life back

Ik that you told me that I need to change my outlook and
Everything that comes with that
Baggage heavy overpacked

I wish we could run it back to all the times I'd tell you stories 
Now my pages all collapse
All my words in bold and caps

I just spent the last two nights
In the background of your mind
Perfect person, wrong time
I wish we were kids for life
Coz then I'd make you happy easy
Ik you believe me 
But with what we know

It's just left us freezing 
It's just left us cold 
Baby take me home 
The thought of you leaving 
It's fucking up my breathing 

I don't want you alone 
But I hope when you're leaving 
That you have a purpose known
Coz I don't want to let you go

angelina outro

Angelina_Outro (Sleepy fish)

girl you got my heart beat 
cause I'm star struck
I'll be whippin hand on her thigh
got her moanin for me
she want it now like in the backseat
crazy taxi 
 paying chump change how they tax me
back when guardin dropped ataraxy 
I was at dnd I miss my boys
they growin up to never seein me 

I'll be in the west to the east side
cuz bein the best is not a free ride
cheap highs don't come free
but I made that bag
i'll make it back
I got home free
homebound
earthbound
 PK fire in the booth
when I spit fire I hit the boof

boy too faded boys too jaded
stayin elevated
like elevator I take the comeup to the top floor
your ass is stayin at the lobby door
embarassin
don't let the karens in
unless they milf pack
I like a milf rack
shorty come back to come again
and next time I'mma have her bring a friend

Crazy Taxi (prod. Dyingsun)

felt like creating in technicolor, always

Performed, composed, written, & produced by Spirit Genesis
Mixed and Engineered by Spirit Genesis 

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new ep 'would you like to go out?' out now on Epitaph Records.

complex (Cybertrash remix)

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