produced by @uvshy
thanks cam for pic
<3

i should be honest 
and i can be honest 
ill burn all my bridges 
and fulfil my promises to you

ill bury my sins deep in my garden 
was not my intention to be such a burden 
and i 

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

nothing before this 
it plays and it torments 
quite some time its been dormant
and my efforts exhaustive 

deep in the forest 
my mind such a torment
im unearthing burdens 
and im all alone and im

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

lalala

burden (prod. shy)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy

lyrics:
(𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺?)

(𝘪 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨)
(𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰?)

𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘶 𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘮
𝘫
𝘫
𝘫
𝘫

[𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐥]

we used to dream
about the house that we will buy
needs room for 3
we used to speak all night 
about our family
hoping we can speak it into reality
we used to dream
about the kid that we will have
will come with stress
about the clothes that we will buy
and how they’ll dress
and start to fight on whether i’m cleaning their mess

(why can’t u let me go?) 

we used to dream
about the times that 
we would wake them up for school
about how much we would want our kids 
to think we’re cool
“always be there, and just love them” 
was our rule

now she’s fine
left 3 years behind
for another guy
and i wonder why

i used to lay down on ur chest
while u play with my hair
now when i’m sad, no one can hold me
you don’t fucking care
no ounce of sympathy or guilt 
what’s wrong inside ur mind?
i tried to kill my self recently
are u fucking blind?

and now when i speak to you
you sit there all stunned and paused
so i tell you about how much it hurts
you’re super shocked 
and i don’t think that you’re aware
about the things you caused
you never heard me out
that’s why i make my fucking songs.

[𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐥]

i should’ve known better
i should’ve kept my sweaters
i should’ve seen the signs 
so i could adapt to the weather
i have no to place to go
no place to call my home
i lived my whole life in this city
but sometimes it feels unknown

sometimes i like to think
about the life we always dreamed 
about the life we planned and set
and how our house needs room for 3
does that ever cross ur mind?
the love u left behind
my stuff inside of ur closet
building dust until it dies.

3 Years ll

cover of the song 'arctic eyes' by 9TAILS
produced by nciku

heylog - arctic eyes (9TAILS & nciku)

the lights are on but no ones home (king theta)

Repeat Until, Death

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

one listen, before you sleep

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
i fall like the leaves and i cry like the rain
i like to believe that one day i’ll be safe 
from you
is it too good to be true?

i’m not very sure myself
you can see my mental health
that i’m doing not as well
unlike you cuz i need help
i can’t get you out my head
the pain just starts to spread
i can’t believe i’m still in love
with someone that’s been dead

the girl i met 3 years ago is somewhere far away
and i’ve been scavenging around
hoping i can find you one day
but everyday that passes by i lose hope
i lose hope

i will give you this one
you got the best of me
i’m sure you had ur fun
oh well that’s what i think
for 1 you never talk
and 2 you always block
narcissism at its finest
i was never wrong
i sit back and recline
i have no fucking time
so go and bring ur worst
i promise i will fight
i swear i’m not the same
sit prone and take my aim
by the time u blink, ur gone
by the time u think, ur scarred

if u wait for me
wait for me
there’s a vacancy
from what i can see
we were meant to be
wait for me
wait for me

Repeat Until, Death

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