i love you so fucking much this sing fire 🥺🥺

produced by hiraeth


I caught you using what was left of me 
and my god its dumb what you mean to me
And you just can’t see what you did to me
No heart no soul 
Nothing left of me
And my god its embarrassing  
no thoughts just lay til im out of it
Now there’s snow where I used to be
Can’t you see you’ve taken every single part of me

Don’t go now im so scared 
I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist 
we where done when we started

Don’t go now im so scared
 I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist
 we where done when we started

Do you really believe that ? 
you love but its so bad 
And I should’ve seen that
 all i want is is a call back 
but i couldnt show that
now talking is so sad

i miss what we both had
but nothing in love lasts
and i should have known that  

AND MY GOD MY GOD ITS EMBARRASSING

Don’t go now im so scared 
I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist
 we where done when we started

Don’t go now im so scared 
I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist 
we where done when we started

alaska

VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

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longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

stay away please

u cannot tell me 
different at all
im livin a cycle
i js wanna ball
i dnt wanna fall 
so im tryna crawl
away
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so
☆
yeh yeh
even more so
hows it feels to have pills in ur torso?
really bad.
when im out of my room doin tours n shit
i rly need my god damn milli back
im use to havin snakes in my friends list
if they hold me close 
imma hold em closer
godspeed
i dont want that to be likely
but if a bitch try me one more time 
they gon have to fuckin fight me
☆
im growing up
unlike u 
ur throwing up
gang signs 
n throwin bands
even tho they fake as hell
u just doing this for the clout
no one even likes u 
but ill shut my mouth
ur a sore to be around
i dont love u.
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so.
☆

sampled comfort chain by instupendo
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thank you

im trying everything possible.

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

sampled @marlasdreams for guitar :)

Lyrics:

take a minute start asking yourself
what are your worths if u don't have ur wealth
who are your friends i would call it to question
what are the kinds of stories they tell
i didn't know that we needed permission
i guess i've been used to plain fighting it out
i have met plenty of people in life
and enough had a hiss so i keep to myself

in due time you'll have seen it all
what happens then
personally i would hate every breath
if i spent my whole life locked inside of a shell

-

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

I REFUSE TO EVER FEAR YOU
THROUGH THAT TRIAL I FOUND MY VALUES
IF I WERE MORE HONEST I'D BE SEE THROUGH
SPOUT MORE LIE TILL YOU BELIEVE YOU

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute

depersonalization

prod. maxchris x ayoley

lyrics:

if you're in pain reach out to me !!
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with u i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
you'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second

oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds
they'll beg you for an open till you cave so grit your teeth and give a scrap you made a month ago and let them
send a single snippet and they rip it just so they can load it up in fl studio and slap a halfass verse around it
god i wish i was kidding
but feels nice to vent all the shit that i live with
there's two types of friends and i know which is which
yea i've got my ways but i'm not spilling shit

-

if you're in pain reach out to me
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with you i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
u'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second
oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds

hurdles

As i fade away
I suffocate
I handle the blade and alleviate
The writhing pain
I felt today
When i found out the eternity of my fate

Im dealt these cards
And i cant get far
My stillborn heart
Will not restart

Take it away from me
Before i hurt myself
Im not too well

baby ur all that i need
when i’m stuck inside my shell
this stupid hell

don’t look back
when you walk away
i’m too far gone
I cant be saved

so tell me what’s real is it all in my head?
did u ever mean anything that you said
heart swellin up cuz it’s fillin with dread
don’t wanna fix it i’ll stop it instead

what is the point if i can’t even have this
it was my fault now it’s lost in the past tense 
i’m bleeding out while ur sitting there laughing
at my expense so i’m just getting blasted

i drink too much it’s a really bad habit
life is a test and i don’t wanna pass it
cant show my pain so i’ll sit here and mask it
even when you took my heart and stabbed it

don’t look at me
when i’m weeping from my sins 
im on my knees
will i sink or will i swim

alaska

hiraeth

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