Maybe my fav music of u, it's so heavenly

My body is not made for this love that part

god this is so fucking heartbreaking. incredible job

Out on Spotify
@sinxi <3 
Self Prod 

Lyrics 

If you want to lie, tell me that you lie for me
If you want to cry, tell me something nice to me
Numb these feelings that you never learn to miss
I know feelings turn to shit, in this way that we stay up

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

I need someone in my mind that's going to love me back
I need someone on decline that's going to wait for that
Everything you ever say
You don't need no wedding ring
You change seasons in a day
You look at me you say
Wake up, took the day drugs
Love you till you speak to Satan
Then you break up
Tell me lies longer than acres
will break curse
On this leave your feeling vacant
So vacant, guess I got to leave

(Sinxi)
What you saying to me
Think you better calm it down
I just said I was on my way
Irritated by the words you say
And it ain't going to get any better
I been losing all sense of self
So it doesn't mean you don't recognise me
I been going for way too long
And I know that its so disheartening

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

CURSE (feat. Sinxi)

:) 


Looking half a mile away to see you face the wall
everytime u look at me my feelings burn 
all the things u wanted and I failed them all
Everytime u Talk to me my stomach burns

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Blood creeping out my window to my yard
All this involvement don’t know who u are 
All this water leaves, falls down where u are 
I don’t seem restless just going too far 
I’ve got no fuel left, you’ve drained all that I have 
Oh I’m anxious as shit, u should look at my arm
Cause I’ve torn it to pieces 
No pieces left
Just a pot that you piss in, now torn to shreds 

this feeling eats me alive guess i messed up my life
i try just to hide that way cant be right
well im just tired, everything is tiring
i stay up all night next day i sleep all the time
dont know what to say so i better stay silent
in my head im with you in fields full of violets

Walk myself to the pier this is life for me 
Pull myself up the wall u can’t carry me 
All this water gets colder crashes into me 
These feelings that I get I must have to leave

pier ft. melon

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i just hide upstairs 
acting like i care
when you send me a message 
my feelings are not there 
find me in the woods 
know where i have stood 
thunderstorms passing over 
oh man i'm feeling good 
i just disappeared 
no i do not care 
if you send me a text message 
i'll just leave it there 
scout me in the sticks 
somewhere in the twigs 
oh somehow all the pain stops 
am i a new person 

i just found out all i need to know 
write it down and jot it in my notes 
i cannot trust anyone, no soul 
no we're not close 
ur not my bro 
said you were but anything to get aim 
oh and all this talk is startin to rot my brain 
and honestly i'm startin to lose my patience 
i'm tired of waiting 
i'm up

woods

https://soundcloud.com/deadfishh

seems we're at the end
hold my hand tight
pack up all my clothes
there's nothing here in sight

always stayed in place
just collecting dust
seems we're at the end
i need a new start

been thinking way too much
lost my feel of touch
it's not support i need
decision's up to me

i'm grateful for your love
i wish there's something i could've done
so much differently
i'm sorry, that's my piece

dropping all the weight
my heart just feels so light
it's time to say goodbye
til next time

UNCHAINED, VOL. 4

SPOTIFY

deadfish - end

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

one listen, before you sleep

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
when my body's lying in place
every memory of you now awakes
the road was stable, now it's rough
cause i'm starting to let u back up
i'm fine
at least i tried
bright light
your piece of mind
i am okay
you wanna see what i'm made of
i'm not the same
you wanna see what i'm capable of
i start to feel like nothing
why does everything slip through my hands
people think i'm sad but bitch i'm not
it just looks like i am
can't go out 
i look like i got eczema all down my face
every time i sweat it starts to sting
even with tallow paste
flare up, then get better, do it all over again
red around the center, i'm not tryna screw with it
you don't even wanna know what it's like being me
every second always stressed and always worrying
i rest your soul by my side
cause i know i'll sleep just fine
i barely see anyone
if it's just you i don't mind
i'm upstairs makin some sounds
na this mixed never too loud
want this shit piercing my ears
until it rings so severe
until it

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flare

lyrics

so what's on your mind?
'cos it's important to say
emotions you're feeling 
and the burdens you face
you say there's something about me
that keep you leaving this place
hey, i don't really know but i'm committed to stay

you say don't doubt me 
you know i won't
heading outside so let's look around
savor my heart, you won't hear a sound
you wanted me to care, but what if i don't?

i'm sticking around, i'll hold
all of my hope in her arms
i know it ain't much but it's all i've got
i hope you don't mind
i hope you don't mind

you say don't doubt me 
you know i won't
heading outside so let's look around
savor my heart, you won't hear a sound
you wanted me to care, but what if i don't?

doubt

Stream

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

I forgot to listen, should I pretend u love me 
There’s something in the air, it’s something I should never breathe 
Clouds are looking morbid at the top I’m at the peak 
Tryna get em out, my words get stuck and I can’t speak
Holding on this mountain girl this gravity’s calling me 
Maybe if it’s fair it would let go but keep hold of me 
Cause I have this obsession and I keep rushing into things 
Maybe it’d better if I wasn’t so annoying 
I’m boring 
This isn’t what I wanted 
Wanted 
It’s too much to hear u calling
Calling
I just want u to be honest
Honest
I’m so replaceable 
I’m not really made for anybody else
But your eyes 
And your eyes only 
I’m so pathetic I can’t believe that I tell you how I really felt
But ur eyes and ur eyes only

wish you would have met me at a different time 
Maybe somewhere far we beneath the plane we realign 
Coincide
Nlm, there’s nobody here that I like
Push me away while I’m burning inside 

Feel like an animal I’m trapped inside a cage for you
I’m far beneath the plane
I wonder if you hate me too
Take my pulse don’t let me breathe until my eyes are blue 
Buried conciously my bones are breaking out in 2 

I’ll keep swinging til he’s dead
Dropped down on the floor
And If I miss I’ll pierce a lung heart kidney and all
If only he would listen 
Dickhead keep ur mouth shut
U told me it was fine
And it was not love
But I don’t really care
I never have done
U think he’ll keep u safe
He’s never backed no one
I could take him by the ear and hold him ransom 
Now he’s not even ur friend he’ll never have none 

Take a lil time out my day
I feel it’s all a disgrace 
My body’s rotting, decaying
I’ll throw it all to waste 
When I see myself in the mirror
I put my hands to my face 
So I can’t see what I’ve done 
Don’t wanna see anymore 
Don’t ask me if I’m fine 
My knife isn’t  even towards
Any skin, it’s passed that line
Least I’m not hitting the floor
Even if I was I’d lie
Let the ground coat  me in mold 
Sorry for wasting ur time
I been meaning to let you go

newmaker IV

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have 
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t 
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories 
Keep
Pulling me apart 
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start 
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1000 images or more 
And I don’t need to see em
Cause They’re all memorised 
I’m burning through these highs 
u don’t even ask how I am 
it feels like nothings right 
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein 
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends 
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said 

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me 
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die 
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story 
I can’t go back to the start 
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards 

There’s no place
For someone like me 
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

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