This was depressing but man🥲 really hope he’s doing better than he was when he wrote this. Love the song tho 🔥

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

we're all trapped in hell
cant contain it no more
im up in decibals
explaining alot, shut up u act like fool
i hate you i really i do
i go up in decibals
oh wait heres a pause i know
study my flaws you whore
i guess im sad bitch
that doesent mean im emo
i fell in love with you
thats not a thing anymore
you catch me chilling
i go up in decibels

GUESS IM PUTTING ALL INTO MY SONGS SO U LISTEN
TANKING BULLET HOLES EVERYDAY INSIDE MY PRISON
WHEN SHE LEFT SHE SAID AM I GONNA KMS 
THINK THAT I MIGHT END IT

baby dont go
happy at home
she thinks im happy she dont know
i would kill you gladly she turn ghost
i fucking need you badly you dont know
berry in my medly with bloodflow
try your best forget me i wont go
im someone who you envy, i switch flows
im fresher than some dead, ill grab a rose
im sitting in the backseat, when she awoke

I DONT WANNA USE YOU JUST DO IT YOURSELF
YOU CAN DRAG ME DOWN TOO BUT ILL FIND MY WAY OUT
i pump inside her mouth
travels down her throat
BABY DONT MAKE A SOUND
bitch she like grope
i bend her snap her spine
ill put you in a choke
ILL FUCK YOU IN THE PINE

everystep i take
doesent seem to stop my aches
twist it round and pull her face
do it now remove all grace
turn it down your ears might break
IVE GONE UP IN DECIBELS

decibel

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

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heylog - vanish

layed out in the pouring rain 
every drop is suffocating my face
i hope you drown bitch rot and decay 
turn around ive got nothing left to say 
was it worth it for all the pain 
feel likey youre only doing it out of the spite and vain
i guess a new guy is all it takes 
taking those years away from me 
you gotta get a taste 
had to get away 
was it worth it for all the pain 
feel likey youre only doing it out of the spite and vain 
i guess a new guy is all it takes 
taking those years away from me you gotta get a taste 
you gotta tell me is this what i deserve 
im tryna hide between the ground and the earth 
you took my lung and threw that shit in the dirt 
hate the way youre talking i think youve said enough 

run my fingers through your hair you know you made me warm 
i got scars all on my body im already torn 
you dont talk nice about me but no one ever does 
if i told you half the shit you'd have already run 

look at you running it back 
you dont want nothing to last 
act like you hate me 
you got no safety 
look at you liking my tracks 
im in your playlist 
and i know you hate it 
you know nothing about me 
but im one of you favorites 

nothings stopping me from jumping this bridge 
tell me to jump 
ive already tried to drown in the sea 
dont make me stop 
i dont want anyone to try and save me 
i deserve to rot 
looking for no comfort or safety 
i deserve the death 

im so tired of making you proud 
my eyebags are letting me down 
dont talk to me you would have frowned 
dont listen i cant listen now 

girl you dont know 
the shit i been through 
leave me on your notes 
im gonna bin you 
slamming through the door 
you had an issue 
being such a whore 
im tired of letting you down 
my eyebags are making you proud 
dont look at me dont let me drown

Vain

original song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_Rc33SgCTs


lyrics:

we were lookin at the sky
i hope u know u been in my mind
i wanna tell u but it dont feel right
im sorry but atleast i try

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the hole inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

ive told you a thousand times that Im sorry
its cause my head been hurt and damaged lately
its just another cycle
i dont know where my mind goes
its just another cycle
everyday i feel my mind go

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
my brain is feeling good and my fingers keep on shakin
ringing in my ears and the voices always haunt me
dirt between my teeth from the face plant happened last week

the freckles on her face match the heart inside her chest
no hope for a repair with my love and all the rest

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the holes inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

i dont wanna leave but i got to
before i hit the road she say i love you
its just another cycle
im just another pyscho

walking to your door
i catch myself staring at ur face
i need ur love
can u set the pace
u called me im mean
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster

i tuck
my neck
its cut
you did this

just breathe
but i cant
youll be okay
grab my hands
dont fall off
dont want u slipping
u need to calm down
what are u doing

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
she said u always haunt me
how do u keep coming back to me
ur so frighting

heylog - hope ur doin good

your eyes are so pretty
oh, i cant walk away
noooo
you turn my stone 
one word and ill break
so perfectly far
cause me to shake
try to be the best
no less then you deserve
but honestly im a mess
i feel like the worst

sie ist meine frau, meine liebe
says she hates the way i talk myself down
tells me im enough i dont believe her
filling my head with my own doubt
maa baayad baa ham baashim
and i believe it honestly
your eyes when i fall asleep
so close youre apart of me

trust no one like i trust you
none of my friends know what ive been through
maybe 2, ask how ive been lately
i dont expect them to save me
youre all i have
i run 
deep in the forest while you grasp my hand
turn back
i know hes out there waiting im back

im all over you 
back, say it back
oh i need you bad
youre my plus, im a negative
you sorta show me what its like to feel anything
and even though im so embarrasing
i feel like nothing really matters when youre next to me

oh my lord how the fuck did you save me
holding on to you, my blanket of safety
oh my love, now my body is aching
a thousand miles and an ocean, between my home
home
let me bring you home
home

(hand)

grasp my hand

the winds so much colder this year
and my body heat
my body heats reserved by yours
i cant find no substance like it
no tea or coffee ever clones it
my anxietys so bad
play with my fingers look away when you glance
i try to look bothered 
you dont understand
come off so awkward and less of a man

she owns like everything that i wear
and i keep getting thoughts as if we never left
cause its 0 degrees in both places
so its like nothing even changed but i cant see your face yet

my body cant cope without holding yours i cant face it
even just the little things like smelling on your fragrance
i can barely form a sentence, and i dont talk much
youve got a grip around me, i feel i dont need to hold on

only source of motivation, i dont need to practise
tell me now to break my spine oh love ive already cracked it
cause its 0 degrees, in both places
nothing even changed but love i cannot hold your face yet

say that youre forgetting it 
but how could you just lie to me 
you knew id do anything youd ask of me 
just try and see 
holding your resentment toward me 
isn’t it so tiring
keeping all these thoughts locked inside until I’m spiralling

Out of control 
all on my own 
I’ll take you on 
can’t hide from the truth 
when you know what you’ve (lyre) done

Standing my GROUND
I see them NOW 
All the voices they start to scream OUT

No more of your LIES 
cold look in your EYES
your zero degrees 
know the frost when it bites

degrees ft. chalyre

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

Vain

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