hiraeth

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

guitar by oc <3

lyrics:
gotta hide away 
i don’t wanna see my face
i don’t wanna know what i look like
running from my self
but she’s never not far behind 
i hate who i am now 
havent left this room in days 
bet everyone else has forgotten my face 
can’t continue on like this 
so i hide away 
not like you’d notice anyway 
so i hide away
i dont wanna see my face 
i dont wanna know what i look like 
running from myself but shes never not far behind 
never not far behide 
how do i get away from this place 
scars all over my surface

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Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

things i held
im dying to go but she holds me in place i wont run
and when i arrive at heavens gates, will you know me

you think about me ?
cause im dying to know if you still care
held by my feelings 
im holding them bare

caught in a forest and then a landslide got to me
fields of rosesim pissing blood out of my arteries
so i can be with you, im counting leafs
im in a field ive got my head in the trees

i keep hearing voices theyre not coming out
yeah
i keep tryna hide but they keep coming round
tryna build a wall and keep myself out
but you wont recognise me not myself now

give him back to me
take somebody else
give him back to me
take somebody else

dont talk about my problems like you have none
my addiction only spiked because i lost someone
when im next, dont act like you care
treated like a joke you know its not fair

put yourself in my position, wouldnt last a week
and all this time that i have, i do not care to eat
i sorta feel like nobodys aware of me
it sorta feels like, none of you could care for me

take the shit from back and what i wear
take the food from my stomach and strip me bare
take everything that i own
i wouldnt care
and its still never enough and thats not fair

give him back to me
take somebody else

take somebody else

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
i never had a choice
i never had a voice
u took it away
u let urself give up
i thought u gave a fuck
now i’m loosing sleep

(open ur eyes)

i guess u don’t have to worry about me
u live inside ur head, not reality
(yes)
u got a bigger problem than what u think
does ever haunt u when u try to sleep?
i guess that it dosent, man it’s nothing new 
everything i’ve said, it’s nothing but the truth
(and u know it too)
what if i was the one who told u
“i don’t care about this”
“i don’t love you”

i can’t go back in time
wish u we’re here right by my side
but no
nothing ever goes my way
i can’t seem to escape from
you and the memories that we made

i need some space 
i need a breather 
u want a break?
ugh i can’t believe her
u wanna go?
it doesn’t make sense
u were my home
now u made a mess

i lost her

produced by heylog

lyrics:
she's comin back to want some more
kick down my roof and breaking doors
push it away with every force
she slip right through causing war

blame it all on me cause in that head ur always right
the only head that's right for me is when ur half below my height
talkin like it's secret when i know you open wide
for anyone that comes your way who only wants a kill in sight

i needed u the most
but you were no where to be found
don't talk
hush
you have no room to be foul
i wanted you here
so don't act like we're okay
cause we're not
you stuffed me in a grave

foul

i seen your eyes turn to water
you must be so ahead idk what u wanna hear
from me, now im older
glass feels colder
inside looking out
what if this how they view me from the outside
ur looking down on me
ur looking down now
this blasphemy 
it all comes round 
you were bad for me
im so fucked now

i could take a knife out
put it through my wrist
let you grab it with your hand just so you can twist
i wont tell nobody
youd never hurt a soul
dont try to complicate it
ur doing it wrong
you can try and stop me however you want
ill put a hole through ur head
and then ill spin it off
im sick of being vulnerable
no one listens now
youll never get ahead of me 
ill just rip you down

ur splitting personalities 
i swear nobody gives a shit
walk right over me, ur never nice oh no one bit
i must be such a disgrace, im holding you back
covering my ears oh i love when you laugh
but its bad
i see ur faces walking round like you have
other family you throw me on my ass
never mine and its honestly sad

wrist

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

i dont really like where youre pulling me now
i thought id do better, but youre barely proud
i dont really like that youre not calming me down
ive got nowhere to run now
nowhere to go now

you thought its best for me
but i dont need anything but you now
i did whats best for me 
and honestly i need you right here in my house
cant let this run on much further
further ill fall down
dont know how much i can cope fore' i hit you and fall back down

on the pavement 
on the pavement

pavement

the winds so much colder this year
and my body heat
my body heats reserved by yours
i cant find no substance like it
no tea or coffee ever clones it
my anxietys so bad
play with my fingers look away when you glance
i try to look bothered 
you dont understand
come off so awkward and less of a man

she owns like everything that i wear
and i keep getting thoughts as if we never left
cause its 0 degrees in both places
so its like nothing even changed but i cant see your face yet

my body cant cope without holding yours i cant face it
even just the little things like smelling on your fragrance
i can barely form a sentence, and i dont talk much
youve got a grip around me, i feel i dont need to hold on

only source of motivation, i dont need to practise
tell me now to break my spine oh love ive already cracked it
cause its 0 degrees, in both places
nothing even changed but love i cannot hold your face yet

say that youre forgetting it 
but how could you just lie to me 
you knew id do anything youd ask of me 
just try and see 
holding your resentment toward me 
isn’t it so tiring
keeping all these thoughts locked inside until I’m spiralling

Out of control 
all on my own 
I’ll take you on 
can’t hide from the truth 
when you know what you’ve (lyre) done

Standing my GROUND
I see them NOW 
All the voices they start to scream OUT

No more of your LIES 
cold look in your EYES
your zero degrees 
know the frost when it bites

degrees ft. chalyre

cover of the song 'arctic eyes' by 9TAILS
produced by nciku

heylog - arctic eyes (9TAILS & nciku)

:) 


Looking half a mile away to see you face the wall
everytime u look at me my feelings burn 
all the things u wanted and I failed them all
Everytime u Talk to me my stomach burns

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Don’t notice me
Don’t notice 
Don’t no

Blood creeping out my window to my yard
All this involvement don’t know who u are 
All this water leaves, falls down where u are 
I don’t seem restless just going too far 
I’ve got no fuel left, you’ve drained all that I have 
Oh I’m anxious as shit, u should look at my arm
Cause I’ve torn it to pieces 
No pieces left
Just a pot that you piss in, now torn to shreds 

this feeling eats me alive guess i messed up my life
i try just to hide that way cant be right
well im just tired, everything is tiring
i stay up all night next day i sleep all the time
dont know what to say so i better stay silent
in my head im with you in fields full of violets

Walk myself to the pier this is life for me 
Pull myself up the wall u can’t carry me 
All this water gets colder crashes into me 
These feelings that I get I must have to leave

pier ft. melon

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

wrist

hiraeth

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