produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

spotify

trash

guitars done by @prodjpjp
rest produced by heylog

lyrics:
starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all

one call was all i needed
right now, i feel completed
2019 is over
been four years and got lower
though, for me it stood out
bleed to just hear one sound
i'd die to hear that noise
the calmness of your voice
i knew how it'd turn out
soon you'd be leaving town
and i couldn't bare that thought
was hard to move on
32 degrees, lungs get colder by the second
been through hell and out
it's like there's some type of obsession
wondering the choice you made if you've ever regret it
if you gotta say something why don't you come confess it
everytime you mention how, i need to find me
don't know what ur tryna say
don't know what u mean
i think ur just saying words
you're just saying things
even you confuse yourself
you don't know what to think
the reason why i live is to hope for a day
to finally see guidance leading ur way
wonder how to start, wonder where i go
all of it requires leaving my home
been through a bit and so much has gone
you don't gotta be sorry if i went through a lot
i can see us starting a family
i think it's the only thing that'll help me

starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all
heart's pounding strong
been up for hours
the sun's almost up
like how do i do it
she say, "where you been"
no where
just haven't checked my phone to use it
it's all gone down in carnage
debris in my lungs
wake up, feel like garbage
and get my yeti cup
i'm obsessed, pop a can of caffeine
even 300mg can barely do a thing to me

carnage

'running shoes' produced by heylog

lyrics:
ima run away until i'm weak
ima come back fighting for my peace
hiding out, i hide inside the weeds
you won't hear from me for a few weeks
the things you say never make any sense
gotta stop the mind to second guess
ignoring my gut, it's for the best
battling to get up out of bed

ima find my way back home
streetlights barely lit
and the colors aren't even the same
some are powerless
6: 30 a mile, used to be better than this
why am i getting this tired
no i cannot call it quits
seems like you think that everything was gonna be okay
what i need is me to tell me i'll be okay
look at the ground
look at my feet as my shoes tear
the soles are falling apart
order up a new pair

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥

get in the zone
need to be alone to focus
not any hoe you see me ever approaching
not worth my time
feel my mind boot and decoding
gather any info whether i should keep or close it
you see me
walk out the door
ice, freezing n storms
pray i make it home
late a.m. n roads
hallucinate, seeing two
punching at the air
squinting at black and grey
when the night is there
the smell of fall provides warmth
fingers in my hair
think too deep and it could end at there
think i'm fine, i'm just in too deep
go outside to run hoping the stress leaves me
i'm painting what i see
you couldn't predict at what i might bring

running shoes

'into the wind' produced by heylog

lyrics:
on my last little bit of breath
will i make it to the final stretch
but the wind has something for me instead
bones break and every single muscle group
feels torn apart, skin is turning blue
and i cannot comprehend on what hurts
seems like i did a little bit too much
pushing my limits way too far above
way too far above
the wind before winter is like getting punched
and i ain't got any spit left under my tongue
under my tongue
the wind blows on a tuesday
do you think we'll make it, what do you say
i've been away from home now for a few days
and it got to living like i'm in a new age
standing in the wind, i know it's cold out
2 somethin the morning, it's a ghost town
conscious telling me i should probably go now
cause as soon as the wind stops there ain't no sound

this ain't nothing light and nothing small or subtle breeze
just shows how much force the wind can put resist on me
run i'm almost there, i'm so so close, aheads the fin
head down, forward movement, running straight into the wind
into the wind, into the wind

into the wind

'gravel' produced by heylog

(instrumental)

gravel

produced by heylog

lyrics:
when my body's lying in place
every memory of you now awakes
the road was stable, now it's rough
cause i'm starting to let u back up
i'm fine
at least i tried
bright light
your piece of mind
i am okay
you wanna see what i'm made of
i'm not the same
you wanna see what i'm capable of
i start to feel like nothing
why does everything slip through my hands
people think i'm sad but bitch i'm not
it just looks like i am
can't go out 
i look like i got eczema all down my face
every time i sweat it starts to sting
even with tallow paste
flare up, then get better, do it all over again
red around the center, i'm not tryna screw with it
you don't even wanna know what it's like being me
every second always stressed and always worrying
i rest your soul by my side
cause i know i'll sleep just fine
i barely see anyone
if it's just you i don't mind
i'm upstairs makin some sounds
na this mixed never too loud
want this shit piercing my ears
until it rings so severe
until it

flare

prod by heylog

lyrics:
there's just something about driving away from your house
you cried in my arms cause i gotta go now
when you touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your hand on my face, narrow waist on my hips
i don't know why i'm like this
i'm not open minded
i'm filled up with hate
but you keep me sane
she looks up and listens
and she likes submitting
i got you, it's fine
i'll give us a life

there's just something about walking out of your house
you stood at the stairs, i know you'll miss me now
your nails touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your lips on my mouth and your waist on my hips
god this feelings amazing
the smell of your fragrance
lingers in my room
it makes me miss you
the ripples and dents
you won't bleed again
i got you, it's fine
i'll give you a life

mouth

welcome back ritsu :^) have i learned to tune all this time??
please enjoy + thank you for listening!

-credits-
○ Music - *Luna
○ UST - 琥珀イブ
○ Tuning/MIX - みなり

original video - www.youtube.com/watch?v=byl48g8AINc
ust - x.com/kohak_ibu

【波音リツ / Namine Ritsu】バッドエンドの映画は嫌いなんだ / I Hate Bad End Movies【UTAUカバー】

song and cover does not belong to me
Original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2OvsScIZptk

"You should  just learn to treasure your life, through my songs about life."
"You should just learn to treasure your love, through my songs about family."
Saying things like that, the thing my true feelings longed for was mere sympathy
Covering in desire, and completely missing the mark of normality.... was I.

I sang because I was in pain.
I sang because I was sad.
I sand because I wanted to live,
It was naught but was a mass of my own ego
Looking back there's no way a song like that would ever save anyone
But I wanted to become your god.


Who the heck really thinks a song like this can fill your oozing, corroded scars... Even if I held you close and screamed out, nothing in reality would change.

Songs such screaming recklessly, all they really do is clear my own mind for a moment.
I think what I really wanted was a sympathy, but I did want to save you too...
I am powerless, I am powerless, I am powerless, I am powerless, I am powerless.

Falling down and down and down, all in tatters with wounds turned to scars 
I just wanted to talk to someone, have a silly conversation.

"I was saved by you" or "I started to think I wanted to live after all"
..Ah I see. But it's yourself you should be thanking for changing. Good for you.

When I was a child I thought I'd grow up into a great grown up.
Or maybe I should say I wanted to become a great grown up and save myself.
Time passed and the state I achieved
was naught but a self crumbling mud,
I'm using all my strength just to live another day.

It was an everyday of singing like throwing up.

I sang time and time again, I sang so much my scabs peeled away
I, of living flesh, wanted to become your god.

Who the heck really thinks a song like this can heal your oozing, built up pains.

Songs screamed sloppily, I don't actually like them either
I think what I really wanted was sympathy, but I can't save anyone with that.

So I am powerless, I am powerless, I am powerless, I am powerless, I am powerless.

'I want to lay down proof I was alive' or 'I want to be praised by someone'
Those things aren't actually all that important to me, my life is already one fallen to ruin anyway.

I just want to sing a song that will save someone.
I want to sing a song that will protect someone.
I want to sing a song that will save you.
But it's impossible,
I know you can become happy, of your own accord, through your own means.

Who the heck really thinks a song like this can fill you oozing, corroding scars... I want to hold you close, I want to scream for you, of your scars your pain, everything.

But you know  in the end you're strong. Surely you can face forward all on your own... and that's fine by me.

But maybe when there's comes a time when you start to cry, let me sing all your pain your hardships, your weaknesses, your heart --- with my powerless, incompetent, dirtied song.

I am powerless, I am powerless,  I could not become your god.
I am powerless, I am powerless, 

With this powerless song I want to save you but
I want to save you but...

I want to be your god.
-Kanazaki Iori

君の神様になりたい (I want to be your god) 歌ってみたのはメガテラ・ゼロ

I own nothing.
Song by GYARI
Support the original uploads!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyneiz9FRMw
www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm33897535

【波音リツ / Namine Ritsu】バッドエンドの映画は嫌いなんだ / I Hate Bad End Movies【UTAUカバー】

みなり・

Related tracks