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not all fairytales have happy endings ☂️ .ft demxntia .prod 4evr

First single off of "          " I hope you all enjoy it <3
@tothegood


Lyrics-

I can’t keep thinking you’re all that
Living my life just to get past
Trapped in this moment, till I grasp
Hold of reality at last
I’m feeding my ego it’s last meal
Scratching my eyes till I can’t feel
Trapped in this moment till I grasp
I can’t keep thinking you’re all that

Verse- 
Tab out
Log in
Everyone wants to be like him
Tab in
Log out
Open your eyes till they fall out
Let the wind knock at my window
No one can hear when they’re shut closed
Curtains are down and the lights low
I can smell bleach in the air though

Chorus-

I can’t keep thinking you’re all that
Living my life just to get past
Trapped in this moment, till I grasp
Hold of reality at last
I’m feeding my ego it’s last meal
Scratching my eyes till I can’t feel
Trapped in this moment till I grasp
I can’t keep thinking you’re all that

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I Can't Keep Thinking You're All That (Prod. Tothegood)

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

i got scars on my wrist, she like to kiss that
she got tattoos on her face, i swear my bitch bad
i got bloody on my mask and my fit black
baby you ain’t even high but i can fix that
she got bloody on her wrist, i wanna lick that
i be smoking on a blunt, will you hit that
shawty poppin laced pills like a tic tac
baby you ain’t even dead but i can fix that

why the fuck you looking like you wanna kill me
put the blade right to my tongue and just cut me
she was poppin addy, i was snorting blue lines
demons inside me, lurking in my blue eyes

codeine in my glass, got me dreaming bout the cash now
i’m a vampire, you can’t see me in the mirror, wow
fangs looking icy, ferragamo white tee
with a ghost girl and her boyfriend wanna fight me
blade tucked, while she smoking on that scream pack
bloody on her wrist, in the street, with a scream mask
ooo i’m sad as fuck and i just want my life back
ooo she bad as fuck and i just wanna bite that
i’m a psychopath and she my lil scream queen
she look like laurie strode, i like it when she bleeding
chase u through the night time for our first date
sniff this cocaine off my big blade
i’m a psychopath and she my lil scream queen
she look like laurie strode, i like it when she bleeding
chase u through the night time for our first date
sniff this cocaine off my big blade

i got scars on my wrist, she like to kiss that
she got tattoos on her face, i swear my bitch bad
i got bloody on my mask and my fit black
baby you ain’t even high but i can fix that
she got bloody on her wrist, i wanna lick that
i be smoking on a blunt, will you hit that
shawty poppin laced pills like a tic tac
baby you ain’t even dead but i can fix that

prod. @sketchmyname & @vaegud
written by @lightninglogan

samples from Scream: Resurrection x The Texas Chainsaw Massacre x Dracula

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scream queen [prod. sketchmyname x vaegud]

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Mixed By @iof
Cover art By @suicideoutside

Your thoughts in your head
Verse my thoughts in my head
Dont match up at the same time 
i dont know if i control it

Your heart in my hand
Verse my heart in your hand
So out of reach 
Baby i dont if i could ever hold it

Your car when you drive
Verse my car when i drive
So damn different the distance
The person you meet and see and roll with

My head and your head collide 
Same time 
Baby i dont if were meant for this 
But together we’ll bite the bullet

And nothing seems to help out
Everytime i talk about the shit
Run my fingertips around the edge of bottles
Take a sip and dont amount to shit
And nothing seems to help
Im all by myself
Trust is something like a steel knife
Got it pointed at my wind pipe
It dont feel right
But nevermind nevermind nevermind what i said
And nevermind nevermind nevermind who you slept with
Its like everytime everytime everytime im upset ya
Its cause i spend every night with you like everytime overtime anytime overnight with you like everynight
Nevermind nevermind nevermind nevermind

Sendin shots across town
Im tryna fuck you right now
Makin some noise im too loud
They yellin at me to pipe down
Im all in my head its too dim
I cant really see all the things that you said
Thought you had me all figured out
You might wanna go back and jot that down

You might wanna re-write that track right now
You might wanna retry that act right now
You might wanna recount that idea you had that u thought was so hot so profound 
You might wanna go back in the house
You might wanna tell all of ya friends tha you cant go out
Cause you dont have a moment to hesitate
Race against the clock what it take to be a heavyweight

They told me to save it

I got the cash like a banquet
Ya bitch i real got the bank wet
And that lil bitch is buttnaked
Im makin cash on the frequent
Im smokin gas and its fragrant
That lil bitch think she hot, huh
That lil boy think he fly, huh

What I Learned in Washington (+ Malfig)

spotify/apple music

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

graves

@sewerperson
@guccihighwaters

prod by me oobv get w the times

Down and Out (feat. sewerperson & guccihighwaters)

https://soundcloud.com/shinpuru
^ Show him some love

Lyrics:
walking in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, take that belt off I sweared
I was done with this, come back for you baby I'm a masochist
running so damn fast from this
cause baby you the catalyst
alcohol the agonist
pain I cannot manage it.
kiss your glowing lips again
aware that you're a basilisk

now it's 9 am at the station
in my chest I feel no breathe the space is vacant
got no recollection on how I awakened
on this bench said fuck that wench I cannot take this
why I always find myself
downing all the shelf
going 85 inside the residential belt
walking home alone again, I'm talking to myself
I can't find no home until I'm greeted by the 

BLINDING LIGHTS
GLOW SO BRIGHT
I FLY UP HIGH
I TOUCH THE SKY AGAIN
*
coming down
she never come around
I just wander and I ponder If I'm better drowned
leave my body in the lake
I live my life and I'm half baked
and I just wonder If she faked each day she said we're bound

running the in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, as I belt over snares
rip out my hair
everything I came to know was fucking lies
anxious as a mother fucker, rather die
missing every touch and every fucking lie
now I now the truth behind each every line

Street Lights [prod. shinpuru]

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self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

explicit

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