2020 Emo Rap

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

Lyrics: Donatello Chiarolla
Vocals: AI Pacino
Production: Roberto Bocchetti

Paranoia

FakeU7777 - Paranoia

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

i had a lot of fun covering one of my favorite songs by @youngburial , hes crazy talented and a brilliant writer. i hope everyones having a great day, and expect another song this week!!

Tuning: D A D F# A E

fats'e 💙

i'd prefer an unmarked grave (fats'e cover)

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1W8tSHLnTM
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4SDrYcibOoKqswDN3Y1Kb8?si=Frc39TndQH-Xq90uCpOe3g

Lyrics:
Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Memories on reread we can't reset
Drowning in the deep end every weekend
I've been searching I've been seeking fighting demons
Needing something to believe in need a reason
So stay with me lil bae
Don't play with me no games no way
So stay with me lil bae
Just lay with me run away with me

Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Feel like a burden I feel like a waste
Blunts I be burning take two to the face
Memories lurking wish I could erase 
Driving and swerving like this shit a race yuh
Lately been running in place
Drugs that I'm taking got me outer space 
Can't get no love and not notice the hate
Talking online but in person they fake yuh
I'm tryna cop me a wraith
Finest interior match with the bape yuh
I used to be such a saint
Kids looking up to me now but I ain't nah
I just be stacking my dividends 
Out there somewhere by the river bend
Used to be down on my luck I was down in the dirt
Found my purpose now I wanna live again
Can't do this shit again 
I been indifferent diamonds drip glistening
That shit don't matter just that u listening 
Hope that u listening

Wish I was a kid again
wish I was a kid again
X2

Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Music Video

Burden (prod. AIRAVATA) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

explicit

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@ihateshinigami

just a spontaneous drop, ur welcome.
random art bc i didn't have anything.
tell her that u love her.

producer/beat link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkpHPuKmxSo

can i get ur number

can i get ur number [prod. fatheryelvy]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FaUc_yX7Vaw

this song is for the fans
for the OG listeners
for the people who enable me to exist
love u all so much

old convolk is back but i never left [prod. dee b]

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

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useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

@guccihighwaters

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-blue-lyrics
produced by notmorgn

download

Blue (feat. guccihighwaters)

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

Crashout

crashout

lyrics:

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone 

My one true friend used to be myself 
But now I can’t even stand to fuckin look at myself 
Take a bite of nostalgia put it back on the shelf 
Cheap vodka and weed those teenage smells 
But now a days nothin really helps 
I just wanna go back to when I loved myself 
Life is fuckin me but I don’t kiss and tell 
But the smile on my face say it’s good and well 

I think I wanna kill myself 
Wait, Is that okay to say out loud?  
I would scream and cry for help 
But my life is just a dream where my screams got no sound 

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone 

The silence is so deafening 
Self violence will be my reckoning 

Am i lost or am I gone ?
I’m just another sad song 
The moon awakes at my dawn 
The way I live feels wrong 

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone

u ok? (prod. xtravulous)

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

explicit

HKFIFTYONE

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