ten hours ago me i was nearly was killed in a car crash, and this is literally the shit I needed for my joint to save me, ty ♡

keep to myself cause I know that I'm fu ked

I need her. Writing is the only thing I got, and I don't care if I sound shit. thank you for sharing your writings HK

am I the only one that hears "9tails' right here lol

Lyrics:
maybe i should just get drunk and order a pizza
fly out east and see the mona lisa
on my way back i could stop by Giza
see the pyramids but i never got a visa

probably end up in jail but i think its okay
yall could be there screaming free HK
its just a nice thought at the end of the day
so now im gettin faded and ill be okay

i just wanna hang every day with my friends
hit em all up watch me makin amends
all my bros left cause im fucked in the head
and i never hit em up i was chasin the bread

now im on the floor eating pizza alone
watching all these memes on my 4 year old phone
back is cracked from when i dropped it on the road
when everybody left me had to find my way home

i think this was supposed to be happy a song
but when i read it back i dont know where i went wrong
guess ill keep it going even if its kinda long
i swear that ill be happy by the end of this song

like, whoa oh oh
i think ill be happy by the end of this song
like, whoa oh oh
ill try to be happy by the end of this song

i got a lot to be thankful for, i got a little dog
i always buy her clothes, but she always shakes em off
got a chair and a computer, and i never really cough
i havent been sick since that time i was caught,

passing round a vape with some dudes i didnt know
everyone said hit it so i did what im told
almost passed out in a cloud of thicky smoke
and then the next day i had a fucking runny nose

i spent a couple weeks inside my bed just chillin out
watching drifting videos, complaining for the clout
"yall should feel bad for me because im running out
of all my fucking energy" and i just wanna pout

Happy Song

prod. me x soundcloud.com/cay2o

lyrics:

I been thinking bout us
I kno i’ll never get that trust again 
lucky me, but look what the fucks the point 
at war with the thought of avoidin the truth that i’m just a fuckin loser to you.
I suck at everything I do so don’t get it confused I get the disappointment in me

look at the bigger picture it’s a part of it
trust it only stays if your hearts in it
look I kno we’re not okay but life’s a bitch
hope that we feel better but it never ends

I was still lost when you found me don’t doubt.
just because I fucked up dont mean that im drownin 
under my own judgement came to that im nothin
tryin my best but it falls flat like always

I been passin time sleepin thru the day like 
nothin 
tryna fight the nerves, but they pull me in like quicksand 
im too insecure no I can’t be on a polaroid 
I hope u understand how I been doin hope ur proud of me

loser

spotify

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

Lyrics:
sparkin up a joint but i keep running out of papers
i could never smoke enough to keep my problems on a waiver
every day i just pretend the world could really not be greater
just to justify that im okay with everyones behaviour, like

damnit baby know it hurts me when you do that
im just crazy im just too far gone to move back
know im lazy, and my mind is getting too lack
know i love you so i dont know why i do that

made a job of pushing everyone away, make sure you stay real fucking far so you dont have to see my brain, im sorry that i put you through this shit like every single day, i know you understand it too so i dont even want to say

cause im a monster when im hurting deep inside, i never mean the things i say but i wont swallow all my pride, instead i anchor down and fight it just to prove im always right, and then i run away break down alone in darkness where i hide

everyones better without me i know
call me a demon must not have a soul
say ive no heart but feel more than you know
gut wrenching inside but i wont let it show

so all that you see is a colorless shell
the ghost of a boy that i used to know well
but now im a man so i gotta face hell
my inside dont match but outside i am well

if i could spark up just enough to kill these thoughts then i would do it, but it only makes me crazy takes me back to living through it, so i keep on pushin through the limit know that i can do it, now im numb enough to feel okay but now i think i blew it

every time im mean i know its a reflection of myself, and im so sorry that ruin everything and how you felt
but the truth is when you say you love me i completely melt
im so scared for all the reasons theyre the same that weve been dealt

Sparkup

Sparkup (prod. lil nightshift)

chapter ii

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics 

dragged by our feet
through the snow
the watchman saved our lives
and welcomed to his home
he has advice to give
he thought you needed some
this is no way to live
what have we become

the watchman lives to keep his lantern lit
he smells of edelwood and cigarettes
inside the forest you won't meet your death
beware the beast
this innocence is on his breath

he said they will turn on us
and we will burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are you scared of us
cus we were left to rust
u think you care that much
this is what's left of us

don't let your mind disconnect 
from the world that you been living in
no I'm alright in the forest 
I'm at peace with all the denizens 
so keep your eyes on the track 
tho I know they feel like wandering
no I'm alright: it's an act
you just can't let doubt start setting in
several souls I know
well they left years ago
they took the lonely road
and they got lost in hope
so I'm a lonely rope
she left a lonely note
this is our only home
you're all I have to hold

decks

well I was born in blood and guts but who was counting
spoilt what I thought was mine to drown in
hold ur breath for as long as it's allowing 
the last of us are here for u
but now's it's go
go sleep in the snow
wake up to visions I'll never remember
I know now
where do we go
sickened and feeling ur losing ur tether 
it's part of the path that we take
born into hate and decay
everyone here is the same
look at the mess that we made

several souls I know
well they were once my home
they found a new one tho
and they got lost in the snow
so im your only hope
it's hard to let them go
I wish I'd never known
but now on forced to cope

betweentheveinsandi 

he said they would turn on us
and we would burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are u scared of us?
cus we were left to rust?
u think u care that much.
this is what's left of us.


left of us ft. decks (ztope)

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

bombay

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

Hit the plug FT. probz362

Red hair! [prod.claysotrash]

https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson
https://soundcloud.com/brevanti

SEWERPERSON//hook & verse

every day before sun rise
she would make me feel alright
now its just nothing
baby just gimme something
i could only see thru her eyes
now my vision is all mine
girl i know nothing
i was just bluffing
~
every time you call
i can not pick up
ya i see ur name
i just dont give a fuck
put me back in the game
watch me run it up
girl i hear it ring
you should just give it up
blue print
girl i got the plans
i wont give it up
chase me round my mind for days im fast as fuck and wired up
you could never catch what u couldnt see
this power in my soul i call my destiny

WEEPINGS//
 
yeah my destiny
my mind got the best of me
cold december nights she cuddled tight right next to me
now I'm all alone inside my dome a recipe (for disaster)
yes this music my escape; it be my therapy (just ask her)
weed it give me clarity
drowing in that henessey
~
memories - flood into my open eyes
Think about that iris, no I'd rather die
now I'm not the one whose lips carress those thighs

SEWERPERSON//hook

every day before sun rise
she would make me feel alright
now its just nothing
baby just gimme something
i could only see thru her eyes
now my vision is all mine
girl i know nothing
i was just bluffing

WEEPINGS//

Left me for another
baby girl whatchu been up to?
I've been steady drinking all the time
hope that you are fine
now that you 'don't got the time'
rose I sent you let decay
you said that you were mine
~
I've been up inside my mind
let the ocean waves clense my clouded haze
I've been up for 7 days, it's not looking great
yes that shawty said she loved me on the second date
I'm so fucking stupid, let myself think this was fate

let myself think this was fate
walking in the rain no coat just cloudy days
I don't got a brain to cope, a shallow cage
killed it with the grey goose a fit of rage
hate the mental abuse but I would stay
tieing up the 8th noose since saturday
I can't make myself shoot at my own brain
babe I wanna help you, you walked away

girl why did you walk away
I got nothing left to say
I've been trying everyday
but I can't forget that face

sunrise w/ sewerperson [prod. brevanti]

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

HKFIFTYONE

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