follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

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Girl I put my trust in you but the time we spent just left me bruised
when I lost my grip I lost you too
Now i’m by myself tryna start a new
No I won’t change for nobody 
I been lifting up my spirts stackin up my money
I be pourin out these spirits til im feelin funny
Drown these thoughts from the past with a glass and a smoke
The words that you spoke
i thought that you meant them
Lied to my face and you forgot to mention
You would leave me for a better man
Please take me away from this life and this strife I don’t wanna stand

Take me away
Don’t change for nobody
Still feel the pain
But I count my money
Won’t let me share my words
Feeling just like a curse
I’m spitting on my verse
Set in stone like a hearse
No
But I dont care if u call
Cause im still barely breathing 
i 2 step but I wont fall
i guess these looks could be deceiving

alright that’s enough  
act so tough
till it’s time to take the blame 
and sure, i’ll show up 
but i’m walking right out 
if they don’t know my name 

oh love you know i’d never change 
i’ve grown so much 
been carved by pain 
i’ve bled every song out my veins 
you’re all just copies of the same 
 
i can’t afford to trust 
its set in stone 
so leave it love 
it’s all but said and done 
but u know i wont change my ways 
i go   
i drive with my ego 
it always brings me home 
so i’m just fine alone

Take me away
Don’t change for nobody
Still feel the pain
But I count my money
Won’t let me share my words
Feeling just like a curse
I’m spitting on my verse
Set in stone like a hearse
No
But I dont care if u call
Cause im still barely breathing 
i 2 step but I wont fall
i guess these looks could be deceiving

I gotta save myself from ever going backwards
Know some people in my past that were more like actors
I didn't know my value, But now I've got standards
Got no time for chit chat; I dont like to banter 
I won't change myself for a soul in this life
I'm gon chase my goals, feel the fire in my eyes
Fuck a fake bitch fill your head with lies
The prettiest of eyes is a snake in disguise

take me away w/ Weepings, I'm Geist & Saphir (p. JOLLY WRLD x Weepings)

Cast Out (prod. Venus)

LYRICS:
And I'm sorry bout the things I said
There's no need to leave me left on read
But I get it girl
I've been thinking bout the days we fight
Walking on thin ice
I'm the fire to your candle girl
Best believe me I'm trying heal us
But baby girl I'm no genius
Gotta tell me how you feel, It's between us
Argue, late nights, I'm left sleepless
~
She wants dates nights, I want nights in
Got a bottle on the night stand
Bite my tongue so she stops crying
and I'm so sick and tired of lying to get what I want
Either you love me or leave me alone
Calling and calling please pick up the phone
I remain silent when I hear the tone
~
Girl I need you bad
Always on my mind
I've been in my bag
Remember all the time that we spent?
Late nights high, blowin smoke out the vent
now you always wanna vent
I'm like what'd I do now
Girl just tell me, I don't got a clue, nah
Why I got to fix shit when you're feeling blue?
Cause when I feel the same I got to fix it too
I'm done
Tell me how it is or I'm done
If you not gon try
Girl I gotta run
I can see it your eyes that you puttin on a front
On thin ice, hope it cracks, so I plunge
Freezing to the bone, Got me feeling how you felt
If you truly love me girl maybe I can melt
If not, oh well ... leave me cold, shattered and broken
~
And I'm sorry bout the things I said
There's no need to leave me left on read
But I get it girl
I've been thinking bout the days we fight
Walking on thin ice
I'm the fire to your candle girl
Best believe me I'm trying heal us
But baby girl I'm no genius
Gotta tell me how you feel, It's between us
Argue, late nights, I'm left sleepless
~
Rainy days
Hear lightning striking
I remember getting geeked when She typing
Now I'm lucky for a text without frightening
Me to the core, little love left Syphon
Crying cause memories haunt
Grasping whats left
Cause what's next I don't want
I lost myself in you
Parts of my heart
Thoughts of my past with her tares me appart

Thin Ice [Luv2Feel]

patient death

this is suicide

Hey y'all, I haven't uploaded in a while so I hope you enjoy this song!! I've got some bangers coming out this summer so be on the lookout!! Love y'all minivans <3

@twotwntytwo
@sorrow_bringer

Lyrics:

yung van/
To feel better, I tell myself that nothing even matters
Even when my life is a disaster
Even when my life is a disaster
a disaster

I’m alone inside my room
Sweep all of my problems under carpets like a broom
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do
I’m alone inside my room
I don’t want no friends because a friend can break you too
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do

two:22/
I’m the one to push you away because it’s easy to do
Got me wrapped up in cellophane, cause you know it’s nothing new
No one’s there for you, I fold my cards I’m through, rip me apart in two, from where we never flew
Look me in the eyes, feel it deeper in my soul
Love is our demise when it swallows you whole
But I’ll never let go, to the times that we hold
And the dust on my shoes leads me right back to home

yung van/
I’m alone inside my room
Sweep all of my problems under carpets like a broom
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do
I’m alone inside my room
I don’t want no friends because a friend can break you too
Tell myself I like being alone but that’s not true
I push everyone away cause it’s easy to do

Getting so tired of the highs and lows
Giving me vertigo
I know none of its personal 
But it always feels personal

I need a friend now
I pray that somebody is home
I’m Peter Pan now
Cause I’m afraid of growing old
I wanna stand out
But I can’t stand up on my own
I’m surrounded by your bones
That’s why I’m always alone
I need a friend now
I pray that somebody is home
I’m Peter Pan now
Cause I’m afraid of growing old
I wanna stand out
But I can’t stand up on my own
I’m surrounded by your bones
That’s why I’m always alone

i like being alone

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i like being alone w/ two:22 (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Lyrics:
ima keep going, i aint gon stop homie
pick myself out the mud and put down the glock homie
im giving all that i got, thats off the top homie
this shit is rough but we tough and thats how we rock homie

had to put down the weapon so i could find myself
all the pain in these lessons got me want off myself
and all these thoughts in my head got me dread, im locked in hell
and all the hurt in my chest it be like a prison cell

its a struggle damn near every night
close my eyes, its a fight or flight
never know i can trust my sight
everybody scheming, paranoid, it got me out my mind

really homie i just want some peace
got me praying while im on my knees
so im lookin at me jesus piece
gotta stay i will never cease

going insane so i spit in the booth
keep myself hungry got too much to do
they could talk all they shit but im still movin through
gotta get my racks up so im chasin the loot

this aint a rags rich story
still in the mud, chase glory
feeling so lost like Dory
goal in my sights, hit the pipe like Forty

grinding every day is just how we cope
reaching for the bag, im still going broke
only love the Ruger on my side i tote
think that i can spot a tiny glimmer hope

fucking stg ima be up ima have it all
one day kill my demons, i can function finally after all
really fucking mean it, hope you been good, on my mind and all
guess we pushing through, i wish you well and im not sad at all

Lyrics:
i got the thought of the summer in my mind
walk down the street in the middle of the night
whole place to ourselves it might as well be high tide
remember at the shore when your burnt vape fried

i supposed i should float far away
in my head stuck in bed, watch myself decay
a vagabond im doomed to wander cause ive gone astray
the pain inside im feeling gutted like a fish filet

what do you know, i had to forego all i held inside
but you never knew, when i looked at you all i felt was pride
and now that its over still pray for your safety and they all be wondering why
im fragile, im broken so know that i care, im just not good at saying goodbye

but that was then and this is now and its like still the same
the flame was snuffed my dear beloved its such a fucking shame
remember walking to your place soaked in the fucking rain
the last id see you before im stepping on that lonely plane

fly alone, im going home
i left your town, im on my own
we came so far, but now its done
its always nights, wont see the sun

honestly, wanna be deceased
suck it up fucking punk, im just me
tell myself be a man dont fucking speak
keep it in where i been and what i seen

now i float in my bed, got no purpose
sleeping in, staying up, feeling worthless
giving up, cant give in, feeling nervous
just my shell, all you see, on the surface

cant you see im doing my best
please ignore the effervescence
its as good as mine what your guess is
meds and cups and ghosts take your presence

Far Away

Lyrics:
wake up morning to a bad report
and i just cant be fucked so i just pour a fourth
then i shoot the fifth until my final form
begins to take its shape and im on the floor

and im heaving writhing turning to a beast
and i break my chains and i roam the streets
then im spinning falling faster in my sheets
and im throwing up my guts on my feet

i dont hope i choke on my internal fluid
i just wish the devil would get laid to ruin
we could find some peace and it would all be fluent
it would be just like we aint just been through it

and i hope i never get the past back
burned it up cause im like “pass that”
block it out and ill redact that
keep it dark like its matte black

it doesnt matter all the smoke in the air
never cared if i remembered anything, i was there, like
it doesnt feel the way it used to, like
sewerperson on my bluetooth, like
x2

eyes awake, steady forth
my wounds and pain is not a metaphor
my blackened brain is not a steady course
my frozen heart has stopped keeping score

now im sick from all the toxins
wanna get away but im boxed in
got a safe but never locked it
now i pay the price with no profit

pass the spliff itll be fine
they all say have a great time
fuck these demons gotta face mine
out my mind call me tech n9ne

hold my breath when i drink now
on my way to the sink now
too fucked up on the brink now
blackout cold in the street, blaow

Matte Black

See Me For Me

HKFiftyOne x Charlie Blaze - See Me For Me

"you're the hardest thing I've ever had to quit"
Prod by. @hkfiftyone2
Cover art by. @walkerdunnvisuals on Instagram

lyrics-
I hate it that you haunt me
You don’t have to try, I don’t wanna hear you’re sorry 
I hate when you’re high, cause you always try to call me
I know I should block you but I love it when you want me

I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit
I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

I thought you were the girl of my dreams
Loving you, ruined me
you showed me that my heart could bleed
you hurt me more than I let you see
I hate it that you haunt me
You don’t have to try, I don’t wanna hear you’re sorry 
hate it when you’re high, cause you always try to call me
I know I should block you but I love it when you want me

I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit
I don’t need you now, and girl I never did
you made me hate myself, I won’t let you forget 
Told me you loved me but never showed you meant it 
You’re the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

HKFiftyOne x Charlie Blaze - See Me For Me

HKFIFTYONE

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