this has been in my playlist literally for forever, still so underrated

Hits hard but its the right kind of mellow

I could care less on how I dress on the weekend
Maybe I'm depressed under stress off the deep end
Everyone around me seems so basic
I hate that term but that's what they named it

Internet won't connect all these ties that I let
Get frayed give way and finally break
Sorry didn't respond my mistake
Hardly anywhere but my head these days
Give a fuck cuz I know my friends are offline
Outa luck won't forgive me from the sidelines
Highlights all over their front page
I guess I don't care if I'm included really no way

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

No other way to say it
but friends feel overrated
I guess it's what you make it
Then again in the end I hate to face it
No offense I don't care how you choose to take it
I'll admit past six you can find me pacing
I wanna be alone and I don't know why
Maybe hit me up but I'll say not this time
And that's why I question myself so much
Why do I miss it when I wanna lose touch

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

Spotify

sorry i didn't reply (prod. IOF)

Lyrics:
you betting against me, like all of my friends be
im rollin the kush and I'm blowing the smoke out the roof of the Bentley
you actin real friendly, cause all of yall envy
all the money I'm gettin I'm piling the racks while I'm sippin on Henny

Yeah, you know how I do, writing all night then record in the booth
Yeah, you know it's the truth, grinding all day is the only real move
Yeah, I stare at the moon, is it all worth it I'm wondering too
Yeah, I write a new tune, you know issa bop when I'm droppin it soon

corduroy on my pants, got Ralph Lauren on my waistband
I fly out to Cali in the sand, then straight out to homies in Japan
I just dropped a couple dozen grand, dont expect yall to understand
I been up more than ever planned, you can ask your girl she know I'm the man, yeah

she said ay baby ima leave you alone
I know you grindin and you turned off your phone
when you get back I probably wont be at home
this shit is lonely while you chasin your throne

I'm Not Waiting

imnotwaiting

Sunray, the thunderstorm

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

drinking a lot so i don't think bout shit
i ran out of blunts lemme get back at it
my life is a problem and i failed mathematics
fuck the world outside my life is in the attic
17 depression's all around me
mom and dad both are pretty sick
never had any1 to take care of me
i already know everybody is gonna leave

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

(kanashi)
fucked up, spun out in my bedroom
time moves so slow in this cell without you
can i just rewind? i didnt realize
that we were running out of time
i dont know why im like this
i push everyone away
always give in to the darkness
there is no other way...

bad dreams keep me awake at night
you're so bad for me...
but i still try...

ohhhh...i still try
i still try...

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom w/kanashi (irby)

Disobey

BubblyRose (FEB 2023)

sometimes things just dont work out,
if you wanted me to stay you should know now,
you can tell me anything that you dont doubt,
Park Jefferson in the air while we roll out

cool breeze in her hair got my heart warm,
orange leaves in the air got me lovelorn,
cold fights on the phone make a big storm,
guess ill leave, wanna stay, got my heart torn

when i wake up my bed too big,
sleep in the hole in the grave i dig,
i walk away like i know you did,
turned my back the same time that you hid

some day when we're both alone and lonely,
some day when i want you back to hold me,
think back on all of the things you told me,
miss you feeling like you were my only

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

can you feel this pain inside
broke inside got me out of my mind
all these days pass by i cry
wanna go back, do it right this time

i been down im so broken
cant stand my hearts been stolen
the way our lives been woven
just makes me sad im frozen

i tried to sleep away my feelings im still sad
i tried to get all of this weight up off my back
i tried to numb all the emotions that i had
i cried and laid in bed for weeks i still feel bad

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

runaway (prod adjustisac)

zombie

explicit

One Night Pt 2

Lyrics:
im a waste, gotta taste of my based brain
feeling far, from my days, screaming gang gang
its complex, when i flex, on my mainstay
where im from, where the sun, been displaced ay

used a blade, couldnt say, but it shows up
on my skin, go away, you dont know us
not insane, not okay, boutta throw up
all these pills, so instead, guess ill roll up

im just sittin here, piling money in the benz
i aint share with no one cuz i aint got any friends
turn my feels to money then im feeling what i spend
wonder if thats all to life im dying in the end
x2

call me an insomniac im staying up all night
cant get any sleep with all these thoughts up in my mind
like thinking bout what happens when we close our eyes and die
does anything feel real or am i living a whole lie

depersonalize in my mind im lost
feeling like a dream at a nightmare cost
dont know what ive seen but my mind exhaust
hallucinate the real and my eyes stay glossed

life is very scary now, feeling very wary now
wanna take revenge on those who hurt me like im carrie now
float just like a fairy now, feeling very merry now
shoutout all the substance in my veins im gettin faded now

then i wake up down low, stay in bed im out bro
puff and watch the cloud go, now im breathing shallow
but its all anxiety, creeping up inside of me
saying that im nothing why you always gotta lie to me

im just sittin here, piling money in the benz
i aint share with no one cuz i aint got any friends
turn my feels to money then im feeling what i spend
wonder if thats all to life im dying in the end
x2

sedative

I Didn't See It Coming (with sorrow bringer)

@ghxstkid
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfE_j_J9WNA

Lyrics
have you lost yourself 
from the outside lookin in 
i could never tell 
if you were there when I was in 
all the voices in my head 
screamin at me from the left 
give me another reason to live 
cus i think I’ve had enough of thisx2

take me now 
cut me out 
if you were there when i was in 
you could’ve stayed and been with him 
just take me now 
take me now

it comes in waves as I feel like I’m bout to break 
Feels like I can’t be myself when I hear your name 
just take me nowx2
just cut me outx4
and forget my name

CUT ME OUT

MUSIC VIDEO

CUT ME OUT [Prod. ripghosty] (Music Video in DESC)

Lyrics:

she said she wanna hear my voice, so I'm going a capella
we could rockout at the show, you could take me to Coachella
all this money coming in it dont mean nothin but its hella
every time i put in work it's like I need a new umbrella

-its boutta raindown, you could make a bet that we all eating
i dont play now, know i got ambitions past the ceiling
every day now, live outside my body say I'm dreaming
what you say now, pack up all your bags and say I'm leaving

I be chillin with your ghost like im legion
there ain't nothin change at all throughout the seasons
i could stay up late and kick it with my demons
i could fall asleep right now without a reason

I could get you on the bed, shawty you heard what I said
But you wont stay till the morning cause I'm busy getting bread
So I guess I'll stay alone I'm like a zombie half dead
I could float and I could sink and I could run you through my head

Run U Thru My Head

run u thru my head

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

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I Will Never Feel Like I Did In 2016

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

sedative

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