Don't Cry, It's Not Over Yet

cyclone (prod. brody + boyband + justjake)

Sourface

[Intro]
I'm not doing as good, as I really wanted to at the start
(Beam me up Scotty)
I'll probably fucking die in the next few months or something with my luck

[Chorus]
Hopeless nights tend to forget about the sickness till it's time
When I'm rid of all the fucking pharmaceuticals or prescriptions
Sliding through the real world on vomit from my system
What the fuck is wrong with my life
I'm weaning off of everything that kept me sane at night
Every scrape or cut or bruise or sore is cancer in my mind
Preemptive sick days you never know when you might die (RIP)

[Verse 1]
When you might die about a thousand fucking ways to do it everyday of life
Not a fucking lie there's shows about it on spike
Danger's real and it exists inside your mind (Fucking mind)
I don't give a fuck if you pay me, no royalties make it easy
Put every purchase on my Visa my food money could buy a Mercedes
Miles don't give a fuck and they praise me (Oh), minor fevers might phase me
Haven't ate in a couple days, so even shit could look tasty (Yuh)
Puking in a Starbucks bathroom, then I order from the menu
Organize loose plans, so they fall through
I'm really good at cancelling when I want to
At this point I don't know if I want you
Really good at fucking up when I got you
Really good at dodging everything about truth
If the book of lies exist I'll make a part two (Okay, okay)

[Chorus]
Hopeless nights tend to forget about the sickness till it's time
When I'm rid of all the fucking pharmaceuticals or prescriptions
Sliding through the real world on vomit from my system
What the fuck is wrong with my life
I'm weaning off of everything that kept me sane at night
Every scrape or cut or bruise or sore is cancer in my mind
Preemptive sick days you never know when you might die

[Verse 2]
What is this scene, I don't wanna fucking die
I'll make music about awaking to the smell of apple pie (Shit is yummy)
There's no clout in here if you're enjoying life
I don't fuck with anyone who uses sadness as a high
All emotions are my vice, firm relationships I like
I got molten lava touch if you want talk about something fire
Put piano in rewind and I can spit verses all night
I can tell you life is shit in songs it doesn't make it right
I've had friends I like a lot, but I drop them out of spite
If I block out all the guilt bet I could ghost them over night (I'll fucking ghost)
I'll fucking ghost, I'll fucking ghost (Overnight)
Okay, okay, okay

[Chorus]
Hopeless nights tend to forget about the sickness till it's time
When I'm rid of all the fucking pharmaceuticals or prescriptions
Sliding through the real world on vomit from my system
What the fuck is wrong with my life
I'm weaning off of everything that kept me sane at night
Every scrape or cut or bruise or sore is cancer in my mind
Preemptive sick days you never know when you might die (Fucking die)

9TAILS - liar (prod. scottysplash)

Em Gone - Imbécil Anthem

can't lose! (Feat. Onlyeric)

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

✦ VIDEO OUT NOW

HUGE thank you to everyone that's supported me so far
this album is a favorite for sure, i hope you all feel the same <3


album credits:

huge thanks to @noahwalker, this album wouldn't be what it is without him 

instrumentation: noah walker, quinn, chris p, coleman, mohini 

production: something worth living for (prod. killedmyself)
all other production done by me

purple

Sample Credit: Park Jefferson - Couches (acoustic)
Lyrics:
im in your speakers like a vibe now
i hope you better you dont cry now
i know its hard but we'll get by now
we light this city up on fire now

wanna know when it ends cuz you down low
feel the rain on your skin how you now bro
how i live with my mind it just how it goes
speaking words that im fine wouldnt know it though

ive been sinking through my bed sheets
lost in waves of fabric stress heat
got the flu im lost inside me
know my mind is gone come find me

why you sending all these texts i be sleeping in my bed
know i gotta get my racks cuz im running out of bread
and my eyes always be shut i aint tryna feel this stress
when i climb up out of bed i aint even gettin dressed

well i was hoping youd notice my haircut
did it all by myself cant you tell bruh
know im lacking in care cuz im dead yuh
park jefferson while im dozing in bed yuh

bedhead

No Strings on Me (prod. 4evrgone x caspr)

In collaboration with SoundCloud phenomenon LiL Lotus, this track was recorded in the back of a mini-van under the parking garage of Universal Music Group in Los Angeles, lol

Produced by: Pacific
Mixed: Dustin Gill
Mastered: Panorama Mastering

Merch store: drawntothesky.bigcartel.com

My start-to-finish songwriting & production class: studio.com/drawntothesky

She Once Whispered "Love" In My Ear (feat. LiL Lotus)

She Once Whispered "Love" In My Ear (feat. LiL Lotus)[prod. Pacific]

You my moon, you my stars, you my sky at night
You the fire in my heart, keep me burning bright
Hold me close, in the cold, cause you all mine
Got my heart, make it quake like a fault line

Ooh, you know im living like i wanna do
Got my girlie in my arms, im coming up, she know it too
Piling all this money i got bands and then i roll it dude
Chillin on the couch im countin racks boy you know what it do

Ooh, i got some fans and they love me, im running all the way to sunny California with money, im tuckin hunnid dollar bills inside my pants while im hungry, ill never be complacent cuz im always searching for something, yeah

hit the road, get on board, cuz we comin up
got some drip, got some Ks, but its not enough
got my girl, by my side, and she keep me loved
throwin bills, catchin dubs, while i run it up

Throwin bills, throwin bills yah
While I run it up

Feelin sunny on a mountain top
Gettin money like i cant be stopped
Makin bangers like im finna drop
Keep it going cuz Ill never stop
Yah lil homie you know what it do
Got my baddie i aint share wit you
She my girlie yeah she be my boo
She my ride or die she love me too

(November seventh, you hit my phone
You stole my heart and, gave it a home
I'm doin good now, but you been know
Cause you my moon now, im in your glow)

All i got is my words
And all i want is to learn
All these rappers absurd
All they want is to turn

All they boring little songs into a mountain of clout
Never ever cared about the music they speak about
So ima keep it to myself but let them words all come out
Cuz im just tryna keep it real so i been speakin it loud, ooh

Find me in the stu you know im staying on my grind
Im writing every single day to get it off my mind
Im spittin bars and writing hooks i do it all the time
Im being me you see and me i can not be defined

Ayy, i run this show on my own yeah
But then i pick up the phone yeah
I tell my girl to come home yeah
Cause now we're never alone yeah

November7

I Hope The Grass Is Always Green

Lyrics:
im a waste, gotta taste of my based brain
feeling far, from my days, screaming gang gang
its complex, when i flex, on my mainstay
where im from, where the sun, been displaced ay

used a blade, couldnt say, but it shows up
on my skin, go away, you dont know us
not insane, not okay, boutta throw up
all these pills, so instead, guess ill roll up

im just sittin here, piling money in the benz
i aint share with no one cuz i aint got any friends
turn my feels to money then im feeling what i spend
wonder if thats all to life im dying in the end
x2

call me an insomniac im staying up all night
cant get any sleep with all these thoughts up in my mind
like thinking bout what happens when we close our eyes and die
does anything feel real or am i living a whole lie

depersonalize in my mind im lost
feeling like a dream at a nightmare cost
dont know what ive seen but my mind exhaust
hallucinate the real and my eyes stay glossed

life is very scary now, feeling very wary now
wanna take revenge on those who hurt me like im carrie now
float just like a fairy now, feeling very merry now
shoutout all the substance in my veins im gettin faded now

then i wake up down low, stay in bed im out bro
puff and watch the cloud go, now im breathing shallow
but its all anxiety, creeping up inside of me
saying that im nothing why you always gotta lie to me

im just sittin here, piling money in the benz
i aint share with no one cuz i aint got any friends
turn my feels to money then im feeling what i spend
wonder if thats all to life im dying in the end
x2

sedative

Lyrics:

I see you walkin through my city with some fendi on your back
You rockin counterfeit could give a shit if you be lookin slack
Cuz I been runnin in some Mossy Oak with whiskey in my glass
I got my boots on and I'm ready finna take you to class

I'm runnin the trap, I'm smokin the gas, switch lanes and I'll pass, the first'll be last, and that's just a fact, I'll take you to mass, I'll charge you a tax, for a 30 and grass, you gotta keep your gaurd up in these times you really cant relax huh

So, I guess I'll hop on my Legion, guess I'll boot up into Linux and show yall what I'm seein
Guess I'll write a song about the end of days while I'm eatin
Trapped inside my room on rainy days a wonderful feeling

Know that yall reeling, got a couple hits that you keepin
Got anxiety that stack up from the floor to the ceiling
Guess I better take it slow I'm gettin dizzy I'm leanin
You can catch me spittin fire in a cold mausoleum

I wake the dead ya, speakin from my head ya
You be movin slow like yall popped another fentanyl
Writin from my bed yall, shawty in my den ya
Take another hit cause we tryna reach a cloud is all

Cause you be, you be, you be, you be, do it like that
Got the fluey uey uey uey uey right back
Know you knew it, knew it, knew it, knew it, for a fact
Got me hot you lookin fire when you do me like that

x2

I switch it up, one more cup
Got my dreams in mind, I wont give up
I grind all night, push my luck
Get some green, keep my love

endofdays

https://open.spotify.com/track/0NPrRpo8Z66KgBroH22hE2

produced by @fantom-instrumentals
featuring @seejayxo

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
all i see is dead faces
in my room by myself, i can't take it
call my phone, say you love me but you faked it
i don't care anymore, im too abrasive
and bitch you basic
(x2)

[@seejayxo]
why you act like you aint see thru?
thought i told you that i need you
i was steady bleeding
you were so deceiving
baby, i just wanna know if you believe him

i see faces on my wall
i still be waiting on your call
but i know it wont come thru
know that it wont come thru
why even i gotta love you?

im better pickin up a gun
smoke all up inside my lungs
baby i just gotta tell you
gotta tell you the one
fuck it, i just gotta run

[@lottaheart]
all i see is dead faces
in my room by myself, i can't take it
call my phone, say you love me but you faked it
i don't care anymore, im too abrasive
and bitch you basic
(x3)

dead faces w/ seejayxo [fantom]

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

sedative

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