No pen no paper but bro always draws attention 🥹

wish I could hug all the guys and girls who do this genre and the people who listen to it. hope you all are alright and wish you can heal ❤️

i find it kinda fucked up
how you fucked two guys and called it bad luck
(called it bad luck)
im never, okay
i haven't been the same since 2018
and what a shame that is
it really coulda been nice 
but you marked my heart 
and tore it out with a knife
and no i dont think its fair
you put me on life support
and now you're pulling the cord,
baby, why so short?
yeah, why so short?
you cut me off the leash
and now you're never gonna get me back
(why dont they want me?)
yeah my nose is running
and my heart is hurting
i dont wanna do it now
i dont wanna go outside
i been falling

i find it kinda fucked up
how you fucked two guys and called it bad luck
(called it bad luck)
im never, okay
i haven't been the same since 2018
and what a shame that is
it really coulda been nice 
but you marked my heart 
and tore it out with a knife
and no i dont think its fair
you put me on life support
and now you're pulling the cord,
baby, why so short?
yeah, why so short?
you cut me off the leash
and now you're never gonna get me back
(why dont they want me?)
yeah my nose is running
and my heart is hurting
i dont wanna live if its not with you
i dont wanna be someone you knew
i guess it was fun while it lasted, now im dead
only 17 but im lying in my bed.

bad luck (boyfifty)

Lyrics:
im so sick of all the hiding, im so sick of all the lies
im so sick of always smiling, when im dying deep inside
i just wish that you could see all of the feelings that i hide
but i never wanna talk, just get the fuck up out my mind

always just ignore, all the beating of my heart
baby im a walking corpse, any day ill fall apart
you could pick up all my limbs, take me right back to the start
you could sew me up real good but then ill get hit by a car

in december i cut like real bad
saw my veins and the void in the black
life is strange when all you do is slack
its just more time for these panic attacks

keep your head up, i know its the worst
when no one listens, its part of the curse
of being silent, not using my words
im only human, i dont know the cure

i dont know the cure

December

Lyrics:
im so sorry that i dont know what to say
and you know i do my best to try and be there every day
im fucking piece of shit and thats all that ill really say
cause im too proud to admit that i will never be okay

i never thought itd come to this i always thought we'd be just fine
i never thought youd think of leaving cause you said youre always mine
but i dont blame you im a fuck up and i have no fucking spine
im not a man im just a boy i know youre sick of how i whine

i always thought id be okay to be right there for someone else
but im too fucked in the brain to show you how i really felt
i know it hurt when i was absent and made you feel by yourself
i try my hardest but i know it aint enough to even help

cause i fuck up every day
and i dont know what to say
only when i feel too much, but then it goes away
and i really hate the way
that im probably all the same
even worse than all people that you ran from anyway

fuck
what do i do
im pushing everyone away but i could never say i thought itd be you

we're fucked
all because of me
i wanna be just what you need but i got issues in my head you cant see

"so why dont you tell me?"
never learned how to speak
im trying to believe
we'll be okay after this mess

Sorry

sorry

Lyrics:
sparkin up a joint but i keep running out of papers
i could never smoke enough to keep my problems on a waiver
every day i just pretend the world could really not be greater
just to justify that im okay with everyones behaviour, like

damnit baby know it hurts me when you do that
im just crazy im just too far gone to move back
know im lazy, and my mind is getting too lack
know i love you so i dont know why i do that

made a job of pushing everyone away, make sure you stay real fucking far so you dont have to see my brain, im sorry that i put you through this shit like every single day, i know you understand it too so i dont even want to say

cause im a monster when im hurting deep inside, i never mean the things i say but i wont swallow all my pride, instead i anchor down and fight it just to prove im always right, and then i run away break down alone in darkness where i hide

everyones better without me i know
call me a demon must not have a soul
say ive no heart but feel more than you know
gut wrenching inside but i wont let it show

so all that you see is a colorless shell
the ghost of a boy that i used to know well
but now im a man so i gotta face hell
my inside dont match but outside i am well

if i could spark up just enough to kill these thoughts then i would do it, but it only makes me crazy takes me back to living through it, so i keep on pushin through the limit know that i can do it, now im numb enough to feel okay but now i think i blew it

every time im mean i know its a reflection of myself, and im so sorry that ruin everything and how you felt
but the truth is when you say you love me i completely melt
im so scared for all the reasons theyre the same that weve been dealt

Sparkup

Sparkup (prod. lil nightshift)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

follow boyfifty

useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

@curtainss @taxpurposes

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

gimme a way out or give me a sign
every word you rehearsed
remembered all of the lines
bullshittin me ab love every night
and im better off without you in hind sight
i wasted so much time
playin all these games
puttin up a fight
hopes a dangerous thing
when its all u got
just leave me be

just leave me be
im better off without u
hangin out to dry
while someones in ur bedroom
covered in the sheets
that hid me just last week
funny how it works
youre so quick to forget me

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

i know how it goes
one day im ur everything
and the next im just some dead weight
we just started and u fold
ik ur still in love with ur ex and o’s
and i deserve so much more
so u can see urself out thru that door
then ill drink so much that ill hit the floor
and do it all again
dont know what for

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

Follow me <3

BREATHE (prod. curtains x taxpurposes)

ft. @emofruits
prod. @seantseant

MIDNIGHT, STREET LIGHTS

Lyrics:
Midnight
Street lights
Baby your the shadow in my life

Feels like
We died
It might just be a thought inside my mind

It feels like theres just something i cant find
Im goin to the city of stars tonight
I have ghosts that haunt me in the night
Speaking to me under the moonlight

World of darkness
Creatures and monsters 
Feeling so heartless
Everythings so hard now

I need to find a way outside this town
Before i drown 
Before i let you all down again 

Oh my friend 
Is this the end
Is this the end of everything ive ever known
Can you stay i dont want to be alone

Spotify

comfy [reytee]

lyrics

t shan ~

so dazed n confused
with a lot of things 2 say
open my mouth
but the words wont escape
i fall forward
thru the steps back
2 much trama
makes the bones snap
cigarette burns in my damn skin
i dont even smoke [a racing heart might cease 2] x2

sui ~

exist anymore ~
need a reset a do over~

the thought of all those frozen days
turn tears 2 ice in a heartbeat ~
try to just forget
but memories keep
holding that thought of
every little thing that i ever fukd up
a sickness a disease
now i cant stand to think
id rather numb
myself its like a shield ~

4 everything falling apart ~
try 2 pick back up the pieces
wake up ~ in the morning ~
4 all of the people that yu let down ~
that were counting on yu
2 come back ~

a nightmare
its haunting
never wake up
no morning
no sunrise
just ashes
floating off in the wind

the thought of all those frozen days
turn tears 2 ice in a heartbeat ~
try to just forget
but memories keep
holding that thought of
every little thing that i ever fukd up
a sickness a disease
now i cant stand to think
id rather numb
myself its like a shield ~

4 everything falling apart ~
try 2 pick back up the pieces ~

element w/ t shan ~ [p. capsctrl & wellfed]

lyrics
—————
i look outside, watch the leaves fall down
will i crash & burn or will i leave this town
& why u do care so much
& why don’t i give a fuck
i guess
i’m cynical at best 

will i crash & burn or will i leave this town
..will i leave this town

ion wanna be like this
ion wanna feel like this either
all the scars that are on my wrist
each time just a lil bit deeper

& i’m faded
i’m jaded
ion think that i can take this
i dont really know where to go from here
but i know soon that i’ll dissspear

i guess
i'm cynical at best

& i really feel i’m runnin' outta time
prolly cus i’m always wasting mine
& know i'm runnin' outta time
prolly cus i'm wasting mine

cynical at best [prod. Luciid & Ninewater]

LYRICS:
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading  
Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 

Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying  

Yeah please just hear me out 
I wanna know the things that you think about 
Please please just hear me out 
Run away then back to me I'll be around  
And if wanna walk under city lights 
So close with your hand just next to mine 
Hit me up I know backways even to your heart 
Wanna start again that way
Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading

sorry

HKFIFTYONE

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