I am so broken.
I have lost connection to you.
Whats the use of heaven,
If I cannot share it with you?

We were so young at the start,
I feel like we have grown so far apart,
but isn't that what talking is for?
please remind me once more...

I always asked for your time,
and though you said you were mine,
you never delivered this through,
and now I feel this is on you.

Time.
We all think we have enough of it.
Time.
But we cannot get enough of it.

Walking our dog through the park,
without you here it is just so dark,
I keep wondering why it's this way?
What did I do or say?

Why did you have to go?
Life is just so empty now.
Will another Princess I find?
Why can't you just be mine?

Be mine again?
Come back and try again.
I still love you so,
nothing will change that sorrow.

We drifted so far apart,
both our faults in part,
but I still love you dearly,
Damn I cannot think clearly.

Time.
We all think we have enough of it.
Time.
But we cannot get enough of it.

Time.
Do we all do enough with it.
Time.
Most of us end up losing ourselves to it.

If I could look back to our younger days,
give some wisdom that goes both ways,
I would ask you to speak your heart more,
and I would understand, not go to war.

Love is to precious to be lost,
once it's gone we count the cost,
not only in heartache and time,
But in the fact I still want you to be mine.

"We are not dead yet."

"There is still time."

Where did we go wrong

I am kind of over it you know?
You know when you have been in the store too long,
and you just have to head to the exit?
That's where I am at now.

The young folk think they have the license,
The title hold on dying wildly.
Out of time, out of place, out of nature?
Naaa they don't.

Those were the one's that just went too hard to fast.
The 27 club some people call them.
I am way past that year,
and for some silly reason I am still here.

No. Young people die from stupidity mostly.
Old people die just because it is their time.
For me? Well?
I am in the middle of both of those groups.

I really am just kind of tired.
Really just over being here.
People piss me off,
and I piss them off.

Do you know what is the scariest thing on Earth to a Gen Z?
A pissed off Gen X with a vocab.
They do not have a clue,
How to handle you.

The little bastards just fuck off.
Kind of the way I like it really.
Occasionally though one doesn't run,
and you know, you just know there is hope for this one.

I have been in many jobs
Many situations,
but seeing the current generation
scares the shit out of me.

Our politicians are selling us out,
our lands for sale but we don't wanna sell.
Other methods of removal for these assholes
should be allowed.

As I watch the world on the abyss
yes it was on it before, but not like this
I just wonder?
Why keep going on like this?

Well, I don't have to.
The next 20 years looks pretty bleak,
for one with my body.
For Fuck sake's the check engine light is on.

So... If the music stops in here,
If it dies, don't fear,
I have moved on,
just don't ever fucking cry or carry on.

Gen X

In nomine Dei, vade in pace
Sed etiam in nomine eius domum vestram defende
Non gladiis
Sed linguis vestris

Si hostis adhuc ad te venit
Da ei unum monitionem amplius
tunc et tunc solum
urbes defende

Indutus in armis Domini
fortis es
ensem gerens
potens es et victor

Fac ut ad caelum respicias
In aurora proelii
Dominus tibi gratiam det.
Honor et iustitia tibi sunt

Sanctificetur nomen tuum
Sanctificentur qui viam tuam ambulant
Benedicti puro corde
Benedicti sint pueri

In nomine Dei, nunc in pace vade
Unum cum creatione eius esto
Ama et protege omnia
Filii eius estis postremo

Hoc est verbum Dei
Esto bonus miles Domini

English

In Gods name go in peace.
But also in his name defend your home.
Not with swords,
But with your tongues.

If the foe still comes at you,
give him one more warning,
then and only then
defend your cities.

Wrapped in the Lords armour,
you are strong,
wielding his sword,
you are mighty and victorious.

Make sure you look to the heavens,
At the dawn of battle,
May the Lord grant you favour,
Honour and righteousness is yours.

Hallowed be thy name,
Hallowed be those that walk your path,
Blessed be the pure of heart,
Blessed be the children.

In Gods name now go in peace,
Be at one with his creation.
Love and protect it all.
You are his sons after all.

This is Gods word.
Be a good soldier of the Lord.

Go in Peace

So here’s a little tale for you,
A story born of love and truth.
I was faithful to my lady,
Loved her deeply, loved her daily.

Gave her my heart, my trust, my world —
Every promise, every word.
And how was I repaid in the end?
She was unfaithful… and then she went.
Left me standing with the debt.

Love — it’s a double-edged sword,
It can save you… or cut you to the core.
Love — you keep coming back to find it,
Even when you’ve lost it, even when it’s hurt before.

That’s how powerful love can be,
Without it, we die inside quietly.
My kingdom — for a lady’s hug,
And a heart that I can trust.

I’m not picky, don’t need a model,
Just a soul that’s kind and noble.
Someone who can challenge me,
Meet me on the field intellectually.
That’s a turn-on, pure and sure —
How could I ever ask for more?

Love — it’s a double-edged sword,
It can save you… or kill you in the war.
Love — you keep coming back to find it,
Even when you’ve lost it, even when it’s hurt before.

My kingdom…
For a hug.

Love

I love a lady…
She doesn’t know…
She is out of my world…
Out of my world…

I talk to her daily…
She lights my soul…
Her mind is heaven…
I lose control…

Every word she says…
Every line…
Every thought she has…
Pulls me inside…

I love a lady…
She’ll never know it…
She is out of my world…
But I still show it…
I love a lady… 
She’s in my soul…
I’ll never hear her say it…
But she is my world…

She’s beautiful, modest…
A treasure untold…
Her mind electrifies me…
Her heart is gold…

Every word she says…
Every line…
Every thought she has…
Pulls me inside…

I love a lady…
She’ll never know it…
Out of my world…
But I still show it…
I love a lady…
She’s in my soul…
I’ll never hear her say it…
But she is my world…

Can you feel it rising? 
Heartbeat in the night…
Every thought electrifying…
She’s my guiding light…

I love a lady…
She’ll never know it…
Out of my world…
But I still show it…
I love a lady…
She’s in my soul…
I’ll never hear her say it…
But she makes me feel whole…

I love a lady…
Out of my world…
She’ll never know it…
But I still show it… 

I will never hear
Those words
The one line 
I Love you. 

My Lady

You throw your leg over,
You caress the bars.
The key hits the ignition,
This ride is ours.

One click down into first,
and your under away,
Two seconds later and,
The red lines at play.

The induction roar,
as she screams for more,
It blasts your ears,
Just don't feel the fear.

Drop your knee and turn in,
Shift your weight add a grin.
Focus the road the noise, 
The feeling of pure joy.

Keep her steady, comes a climb,
Directions change all the time.
Your heart is racing so fast,
Keep the pace make it last.

Keep her in with the flow,
feel the groove,
then you know,
Your at one with the machine,

You are living the dream.

How it feels to ride a Motorbike

Lost in the night
Don't let it go (yeah, yeah)
Lights flashin' bright
Hearts in a flow (oh-oh)
Memories of you
Dancin' in my mind (mind)
But you slipped away
Lost in time (time)

Caught in the crowd
A sea of faces (faces)
Still seekin' you
In these places (ooh-yeah)
Every beat
I feel you near (near)
Echoes of love
In my ear (ear)

Don't ever look away (away)
I may find you one day (one day)
Don't ever look away (away)
I may find you one day (one day)

Hands in the air
Feelin' the vibe (vibe)
Losing myself
In this wild tribe (tribe)
Searching the world
For your light (light, light)
Through the rhythm
Through the night (night, night)

Whispers of you
Blowin' like the wind (wind)
Heartbeats align
Will you let me in (in)
Spin me around
Make it right (ooh)
Let’s rewind this
Love tonight (tonight)

Don't ever look away (away)
I may find you one day (one day)
Don't ever look away (away)
I may find you one day (one day)

Lost in the Beat

Hell and Damnation
Hell and Damnation.

All go deeds send you to hell,
Why have feels as well,
they will send you there too,
Fuck you, you're screwed.

Getting lead on,
towing the line,
then end up paying all the time.
Not with money sometimes,
but with your heart,
The Devil has mine.

It seems Earthly agony,
is not enough for me,
This must turned somehow,
Into everlasting SORROW.

Yeah...
SORROW.

I feel I have died on earth,
Was I really alive at birth?
It seems i have stopped feeling emotions,
Since the world caved in.

On ME.
On ME.

Why?
Why is this every experience I have?
With love?
You wonder why I tread so slowly.....

It's because i know I am going down.
Dead and dying
Going down.
I pray I wont be found.

Hell and Damnation

Smile so fake
They're showing teeth
(ooh-yeah!)
Shadows lurking underneath. (oh-oh!)
They say "you're great
" but it's a lie
Fake love
I see it in their eyes

Oh
I don’t need them
No
No
No!
Their words are shallow
Let them go! (go!)
On the surface
They play sweet
But this beat exposes their deceit!

Whisper
Whisper—when I walk through
(uh-huh!)
Acting nice
But it's just a ruse. (hey!)
Backhanded compliments they throw
Lies wrapped up with a toxic glow

Oh
I don’t need them
No
No
No!
Their words are shallow
Let them go! (go!)
On the surface
They play sweet
But this beat exposes their deceit!

Talk is cheap
I’m breaking free
Fake friends can’t dance next to me
I pay no mind
I’ll rise above
Echoes of my self-love
Love!

Oh
I don’t need them
No
No
No!
Their words are shallow
Let them go! (go!)
On the surface
They play sweet
But this beat exposes their deceit!

Faux Friends Beat

It is just a cold band of gold,
Now only worn to keep away the bold. (maybe the foolish)
They don’t see the ghost on my hand,
Or the shadow behind what I am.

I am a man that still wears his ring!
If anything it is comforting. (comforting).

The ring still fits, though the love is gone,
A whisper of warmth leaned upon. (Leaned upon)
Not for the vows, or the lies they brought
But the quiet it gives my thoughts. (I have lost my thoughts)

It once burned bright in a lover’s fire,
Now dull with time, deceit, and desire. (yes desire)
The truth cut deep, but the scar won’t sting,
But I am at peace with this golden thing. (This ring)

The ring don’t burn, it chills my bone,
A crown for the cursed, a claim I own. (It's my own)
Not for the love that rotted through,
But for the peace it gives — without you. (remember that)

The ring still fits, though the love is gone,
A whisper of warmth I can lean upon. (leaned upon)
Not for the vows, or the lies they brought
But the quiet it gives my thoughts. (I have lost my thoughts)

I’ve slept with the truth, she cuts like glass,
Every night she whispers, “This too shall pass.”
And now it has  but it just sits and sings,
A sad tune from my finger’s ring.

I don't care I'll wear it anyway, (anyway)
Heedless of who it scares away.
If they really were intrigued. (intrigued?)
They would ask and not retreat.

The ring still fits, though the love is gone,
A whisper of warmth I can lean upon. (leaned upon)
Not for the vows, or the lies they brought
But the quiet it gives my thoughts. (I have gathered my thoughts)

They ask why I never let it go,
But how could they ever know? (really ever know)
It holds me like a familiar ache,
A comfort no heart would break. (It wont ever break)

The ring still fits, though the love is gone,
A circle of silence I depend upon. (depend upon)
Not for the past, or the pain it sings,
But for the calm it brings, (It calms everything)

My old, cold ring.

Yes

My old, cold ring.

Unless you are a new love,
who I am willing remove it for, (done once before)
you had better just,
remove it from my cold dead finger.

My old ring.
My old cold ring.

The Ring

I am just an older guy making music because it pleases me to do so. I have been making music for over 3 years so some of these are back catalogue, but some are new.

Go in Peace

OldManMusicMaker