I want to die…
But I don’t know quite why…
The world keeps turning,
but I’m spinning out of time…
I don’t know why…

Life for me is in flux,
A storm that never ends,
One moment I rise up,
The next I’m drowning again.

These shadows cling like skin,
They’re the only truth I feel,
Every heartbeat sounds like war,
And I can’t tell what’s real.

I don’t know why
WHY
WHY THE HELL I’M STILL HERE!

I am screaming in fear,
Why am I here?
Why does the darkness know my name?
Every breath is a burning flame.

I don’t know why I’m here,
But the pain is always near
Dragging chains across my mind,
Trying hard just to stay alive.

Just leave me alone,
I’m a dead weight, sinking stone,
I try to rise but fall again,
A burden pressing on my friends.

I never meant to drag you down,
Never meant to stain your crown,
So let me rot inside this place,
A ghost with a familiar face.

I DON’T KNOW WHY
WHY THESE DEMONS HOLD ME NEAR!
WHY I’M STILL… STILL HERE!

I am screaming in fear,
Why am I here?
Why does the darkness echo back?
Why do I feel like I’ll crack?

I don’t know why I’m here,
But the pain is always near
Fighting battles I can’t see,
Choking on what’s left of me.

Break the flesh!
Tear the lies!
Rip the mask from my own eyes!

I’m unstable,
Unbreakable,
Unshakeable rage
Let it out of its cage!

LET!
ME!
GO!

I’m on my knees
Can’t you see?
This agony is swallowing me.

I’m falling through the floor,
Can’t carry this anymore,
I’m tired,
I’m wired,
I’m burning to the core.

CRUSH ME
TO DUST
SO I CAN FEEL SOMETHING.

I am screaming in fear,
Why am I here?
Why does the void keep pulling tight?
Why do I still try to fight?

I don’t know why I’m here,
But the truth is crystal clear—
I’m a soul caught in between,
Living scars where hope should be.

I want to die…
But I don’t know quite why.
Maybe someday I’ll understand.
Maybe someday…
I’ll want to stay.

Why am I here

I am just an older guy making music because it pleases me to do so. I have been making music for over 3 years so some of these are back catalogue, but some are new.

Why am I here

OldManMusicMaker