SEEIN DEMONS IN MY EYES WHEN I CLOSE THEMMMM 😩😩😩

prod @ilyertu x @jolst
special thx to jane for voicing the outro <33

she’s reaching for my vitals n her fingertips are void touched
fighting for survival cause of course i still can’t get enough
wagering my will to love for one more spin i’ll test my luck
the house edge is massive, know i’ll never win but let it run

out, the silence is unsettling
now, trapped with my thoughts and the memories
shout, if there’s a chance that you’ll remember me
how, am i supposed to just let her leave

4 blank walls blood splattered on em all
picking up my phone pretending like u called
tell me it’s not finished tell me everything’s on pause
or else i’d rather lay down n wait till i dissolve

everything that i ever wanted was just out of my reach
but now the only thing i want is some peace
but now the only thing i want is some sleep
but now the only thing i want is u n me

tear stained cheeks on my face when i walk thru
sometimes i wish that i never woulda caught u
smile on my face feels like i’m wearing a costume
photos of the past are like an artifact, a fossil

she’s reaching for my vitals n her fingertips are void touched
fighting for survival cause of course i still can’t get enough
wagering my will to love for one more spin i’ll test my luck
the house edge is massive, know i’ll never win but let it run

out, the silence is unsettling
now, trapped with my thoughts and the memories
shout, if there’s a chance that you’ll remember me
how, am i supposed to just let her leave

“””
The San Francisco therapist kept telling me I shouldn't be terrified of creative experimentation.
"I don't know what's going to come out of me," I told her. "It has to be perfect. It has to be irreproachable in every way.
"Why?" she said.
"To make up for it," I said. "To make up for the fact that it's me."
“””

tear stained cheeks (ertu x jolst)

i was sad now i’m up i was paid right
started messing w the right ones now i’m alright
got to paving my own way 
went from darkness to the light
went from staying up late
to sleeping at night 

had my heart strings to having them break
fuck that
is it too late?
i think i need a break
so i got one today
i’m on my way
got my money up
so i say what i say 
had people hate on me for anything
for being me but i still sing
i stopped caring bout what u think
i’m doing me fuck what you think 

i’m better than your average chart singer
got bored of holding in the truth so i had to switch up
the whole scene is gonna take over
we out casts to the normies
but that makes us better than you all
we gotta stand tall
making hits in my bedroom
while your in the studio
do this by myself making my own beats
using some producers 
showing love to the scene

alrightalright (bended)

epic song ft. vails @alex-thomas-fox
prod. @pastencounters

LYRICS

Push me down to broken bricks, ill build back into double
Dust and ashes, crumbled stone, forage thru the ruble

Lone soul, i took action
Lost all, control, 
severed good ties to my faction
I pray i still got home

Took a rotten path back home to where i dwell
Some friends may leave but the real ones are still here to tell
Things will change, time moves forward
Forgive your mistakes, but i wont forgive your words

Wording how i never felt, put me in the wrong
You were one of my best friends, in a second gone
guess one-sided connections, dont last long

Lone soul on another journey
Grab my bag, but i'm not leaving in a hurry
Blood may spill, but my truth will always cure me
I know who i am, fuck the judge and jury

[vails]
And all these thoughts I’m having lately all just seem too Copesthetic 
When I struggle with my mental health they call me so pathetic
 It’s a lot to fuckin handle, 
and it’s hard to face a smile
 I can pretend like I’ve been fine
 but my reflections in denial 
I’ve been a lost cause, a lone wolf in my eyes 
It’s been so hard, way too real to be lies 
I’d swap paper for a bitch but seems that bitches want the paper “Not a hater”, see you later? Thinking twice about it maybe I’m a lost soul

[Blospar]
Lone soul, i took action
Lost all, control, 
severed good ties to my faction
I pray i still got home

Running thru the forest and the trees where my lifeline
Even if i had a portal back i could never find the right time
Or the right life, just to get by, cause in this timeline, im never satisfied

Lone Soul ft. Vails [prod. Past Encounters]

shoutout @xemmy_exe for finishing this, fuck zel he a bitch

[safeatlast]:

talkin that shit but i came wit intentions
next up better pay me attention
im in my bag and you cant get a mention
tough luck but i work for my interests

im gettin sleepy off double cups
boy ima run it up
pickin up scraps but im still goin hard as fuck

im just an artist wit not enough time on my hands
do what i love do it all for the fam

that boy wanna tote poles dont come my way
you aint got shit to show get the fuck out my face
2 blocks down heard gunshots thats the gang
do it for the message give a fuck bout the fame

who am i kiddin bitch ima be famous and thats on god
i got the digits im runnin the playlists bitch im on top
why is you simpin you dont gotta say it that bitch is a thot
the numbers im flippin are gettin outrageous think i gotta shot

that boy wanna tote poles dont come my way
you aint got shit to show get the fuck out my face
2 blocks down heard gunshots thats the gang
do it for the message give a fuck bout the fame

[ӼØ︎3]:

im just here for the message don’t een hit my line don’t text it 
i been wondering why did all this shit have to get messy 
i don’t understand why she had to leave could’ve gave her blessings 
it don’t matter yuh i found me a new obsession

get that bag (yeah) go get back yuh (hey)
that’s sad, damn got stabbed 
relax finger finna squeeze talmbout huh subtract 
yeah i had to leave but huh im back

intentions

intentions ft. ӼØ︎3 (mobe)

https://soundcloud.com/avxid

time
running out, cus i fuck up each time
taking these pills to feel fine
throwing up when i see what's inside
crawling down into your spine 
crushing my way past the bricks that i hide
reckless 
how could i forgot this
there's an ache in my heart
it's infectious
seems i hurt every soul i touch
breaking down when it all gets too much

will he text back
feeding the anger
regret that
i cant control 50 feelings
lazer holes in the ceiling
but i'm not a nice being
i'm just fine
cant do this lonely shit
all the time
suffocate me with reason
wont make it to the end of the season

i spark it up n i'm flying
i feel i'm closer to dying
honest i'm not even trying
i do not wanna keep fighting
i feel like more of a ghost now
life is too fast need to slow down
i cant think what it takes
i let this take it all away

taking these pills to feel fine
throwing up when i see what's inside
crawling down into your spine 
crushing my way past the bricks that i hide
reckless 
how could i forgot this
there's an ache in my heart
it's infectious
seems i hurt every soul i touch
breaking down when it all gets too much

s0ul (ft. AVXiD) (caves)

lyrics

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

so ill kick rocks in my head
i guess
im numb
i think my minds gone

i know im too much sometimes
its all right
im all right
break me till im hollow
and come see me tomorrow
i found conscious inside of the grotto
magic in a cup
im lost in a bottle
drunken sailor
im not drunk right now
just give me some time
give me some time ill be fucked up by the end of the song
ill give you a rhyme that youll like and youll want
this isnt the song that you play in your car
its the type of song you listen to when all hope is lost
youre punching your walls
theyre not picking up calls
im nothing without you baby i cant even walk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk
my bones are made of chalk

im so sorry every lyric sounds the same i met you at the party
big brown eyes but you want to be barbie
baby youre so perfect
i dont need anybody else
i dont need anyone else

words leave room to misjudge
i need extra time to talk thats why i rap so much
waiting for a single to blow up
tighten my circle
but im introspective cant grow if the grounds not yet fertile
but her eyes deceptive one look and im sucked into the wormhole

chalk (p. michael harrison)

nightstand (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play yhe victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

winter cold tells me something thay i dont know
wind chill on my heart sub zero word to homie nick i tried but not a hero 
tried to make a list but i left it up in reno
i don’t know whats gotten into you but i cant help but wonder why you lost our love 
i know im not enough x2

yeah i know its hard x2


long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play the victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

guess i couldn’t be your man
3 years gone now i dont know who i am
but i know its hard
but i know its hard

flesh [sorrow bringer]

You ask for directions…

Love you all 

All plats soon 

Lyrics:


You ask for directions i say it’s under hand
Five miles in you question I swear we’ve been here again
Brochures I sure have left them back at base camp
But don’t blame at all the sign says no photos taken 


Sign after sign we ain’t getting nowhere 
We’ve been round a hundred times think I’m losing my head
You gotta look on your face that says that you hate me you wanna go home
And we’re going round in circles stuck in the woods with nowhere to go 
I’m in search of someone or any sign of life
Sos I’m calling out I’m in need of advice
Maybe just maybe I might be wrong this time 
I should’ve took a brochure when he asked instead of laughing at the guy

Morgan-monroe state forest (mackk)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

Lyrics:

This shit is something i can't fix
Its something i regret to a really big extent
Its something i don't like
But i don't wanna fight
I'll hold my mouth closed tight
At Least just for the night

I've dealt my cards, too late to fold
Did I deserve it? I don't know
It's just a mountain in the road
I don't need help, i'll do it on my own

I've dealt my cards, too late to fold
Anger in my chest, its uncontrolled
I need to climb, don't know where to go
I don't need help, i'll do it on my own

I think ill do it on my own now
ive been trynna find my own route
lost in circles
ive been, ive been
betting on the wrong move
thought i had it all till i found you
couldnt get enough of the energy
that surrounds you
full house dealt my cards
still raining
days pass but to you my hearts
still pertaining

I've dealt my cards, too late to fold
Did I deserve it? I don't know
It's just a mountain in the road
I don't need help, i'll do it on my own

I've dealt my cards, too late to fold
Anger in my chest, its uncontrolled
I need to climb, don't know where to go
I don't need help, i'll do it on my own

<3

nightstand (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

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