Lyrics:
I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies
That do not pass the Bechdel test
And that makes me feel
Like I am a bad feminist
But I pirate them
So that makes it better, I guess

I’ve been trying to soul-search
And write more and destress
I’ve been clinging to hope
Like a guard rail, like a life vest
And I’ve been asking everyone,
“How long do you think the ache will last?”
They don’t know yet

Can something be prescribed to me?
I don’t like getting high but there’s
A game of operation in my skull
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

I’ve been losing my balance
My cellphone, and good sleep
I’ve been googling
“The best manifestation techniques”
And I’ve been taking quizzes
Based in pop psychology
And they’re always a letdown
But I’ve never been easy to please

I’m steeping in anxiety
I’m teetering on the tightrope
And I’m waiting for the moment when I’ll fall
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

But I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies

Bechdel Test

All songs written and produced by Holden Laurence

Holden Laurence - Bass, Guitars, Synths, Vocals
Michael O'Brien - Drums, Percussion

Recorded at Fe True Records and Bobby Peru Recording Studio
Engineered by Dr. Bassie and Shane Olivo
Mixed and Mastered by Shane Olivo
Artwork by Matthew Childers

© 2017 Holden Laurence
© 2017 Romantic Americana Publishing (ASCAP)

Wild Empty Promises

Cover Me In Roses

Prom Queen (Official Audio)

picture this you and me in the morning
kissing over the coffee you're pouring
it could be like that every day
hate it that i wish you were

hoping that im a better replacement
for the guys that youre always out chasing
or should i accept things i can't change
hate it that i wish you were

i wish you were gay so you could just hold me
call me your babe instead of your homie
don't know what to say
but i wish you were gay

i wish you were gay so it would be easy
for me to say that i'm catching feelings
and i know you're straight
but i wish you were gay

now i see you get off of the subway
haven't seen you in months but it's okay
i'd forgotten but i feel the same
hate it i still wish you were

you walk up and i'm dreading the small talk
with your boyfriend he's chatting my ear off
so i lie and i say i can't stay
hate it i still wish you were

i wish you were gay so you could just hold me
call me your babe instead of your homie
don't know what to say
but i wish you were gay

i wish you were gay so it would be easy
for me to say that i'm catching feelings
and i know you're straight
but i wish you were gay

we'd be so good
give me one look
i know you don't mean it when you come to flirt
the dreams that i'm having are just getting worse

(emotional guitar solo)

i wish you were gay so you could just hold me
call me your babe instead of your homie
don't know what to say
but i wish you were gay

i wish you were gay so it would be easy
for me to say that i'm catching feelings
and i know you're straight
but i wish you were gay

i won't trade four roses for your heart
i won't wait forever in the dark

Wish You Were Gay

open your eyes, or don't.  Either way I hope you enjoy the song.  Feel free to let me know what you think.  Getting comments is hella validating.  Have a wonderful day friends :)

EYES

Written by Brye Sebring
Produced by Kailey Wells
Mixed and Mastered by Professor Fox

Overrated - Single

Overrated

Cherry Bomb

Buy in Itunes

Watch the Video! https://youtu.be/Exh39w7PaHY

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5B9rI5j4G8AfPDvfDnWIhd?si=mUPvW95iRaWiAt-ZJPnBjA
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/poster-boy-single/1502427707

“Poster Boy” is a confessional song about Scott’s experience overseeing music at his church where he was often revered to a point of unease. A lofty position he’s never been comfortable or happy being in. “People tend to put you on a pedestal when you hold that kind of position,” Scott explains. “I was constantly treated like I could do no wrong, and that’s a dangerous place to be. I felt like I had to play a role and hide my flaws, and so it was hard to be myself. ‘Poster Boy’ calls out that unhealthy expectation of perfection, whether self-imposed or brought on by others. It’s meant to give the listener permission to be human, since mistakes are inevitable for us all.”

"Poster Boy" follows the overwhelming response to Vân Scott's debut singles/videos, "Tough Love" and "Die Young," released in the fall of 2019. His Kickstarter-funded debut album is due out in 2021!

"Poster Boy" lyrics:
I am not a mascot for anyone 
Never asked to be one
Missing out on all the fun
People got me pegged and pigeonholed
Trying to make me fit the mold
Doing everything I'm told

I'm not good at doing everything I'm told

I'm not a poster boy
Whether you like it or not
You can't pin me on the wall
Not a poster boy
There's no denying my feet will leave this pedestal

Oh, I stand for something
I can't stand for nothing

Never chose to have a halo on my head
I'd rather wear my hat instead
Keep my face from turning red
But now you know, if you didn't already guess
Didn't mean to false impress
My life is still a total mess

They want a pretty face
For everyone to see, oh
That's exactly how they'll make a monster out of me

I'm not a poster boy
Whether you like it or not
You can't pin me on the wall
Not a poster boy
There's no denying my feet will leave this pedestal

Oh, I stand for something
I can't stand for nothing
I'm just not a poster boy

They want a pretty face
For everyone to see, oh
That's exactly how they'll make a monster out of me

I'm not a poster boy
Whether you like it or not
You can't pin me on the wall
Not a poster boy
There's no denying my feet will leave this pedestal

Oh, I stand for something
I can't stand for nothing
Oh, I stand for something
I can't stand for nothing


Music and Lyrics by Scott Oatley
Produced by Jesse Carmichael, Andy Davis, and Scott Oatley

Cover Art and Photo by Adam Griffin

Poster Boy - Single

Poster Boy

new song :)
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im fine
why do you ask?
do i look tired to you?
do i look depressed?

youre right
im not doing too hot
im too busy trying to be
somebody im not

even if you say
everything will be okay
it doesnt change the way
i feel about the situation

and im just holdin on
to anything that feels like home
so please just leave so i can be alone

lifes hard
or thats what ive heard
am i doing it right?
i can never be sure

but if its true
can i at least be with you?
so never again
will we ever be
alone.

even if you say
that i shouldnt waste
my worrying on you
i cant help but feel the way i do

and im just holding on
to anything that feels familiar
so please just leave 
so i can think of her

im fine

creep

bored&blind

Blends Mope-rock, Post-punk, & New Wave deftly w/ bittersweet tone & cinematic delivery - CLE Scene

Contact:  info@holdenlaurence.com