featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

the sewerperson sample is used from his unreleased song "that's my brother jay pt2" if fr some reason u want me to remove it dm me

lyrics

she not coming back 
so i’m not outta shit to make 
listening to my emotions keep going back to that mistake
i been lookin at shit different turn that love in to hate
i been feelin summin special
in the blunt in the drank

woah woah
havent got a text but im still scrolling thru my phone
i got love for all my bros inside this smoke filled home
i don wanna let u know u don wanna let u me go
on the porch for 20 mins i bring it up now its too cold?

i know im in the wrong
u know u are too
way too fucking long
to get to the truth

i cant help it why im wasting all this time with u
she said y u blue she said y u blue 
pulling over hoodie coz i dont wanna talk it thru
i just want a view
then wanna hit the stu
cookin up some shit but ive been skipping on the food
hiding in the dark so long losing sight on truth
i dont know how long i can do this im tired of shit sifting thru
know ive got bars forever, living in the …

now u just staring at ur phone
i can feel it in my bones
just one tap ill turn to stone

i guess that i dont need ur help yeh i can do this by my self now
but that not how the world yeh u destined just to fail
should call them all jay coz they got me when i need some help
but this a me thing oh dont u see just let it be if i dont make it just let me melt

they all got my head turned back i cant let em
get inside my head this for their safety i could end em
i dont need to change my ways, its for the better

she just crazy for the words just offend them
i dont wanna hear a whistle walk away when i could end em 
i would rather end my fuckin world b4 i dead em
crossing over paths but they dont see that theirs a dead end

be alright reference

sewerperson sample

bro 2 (jabarionthebeat)

thank you to @sewerperson

bates:
im alright
but id be better if i could just step inside
and i took the reigns
just tryna take control back of my life
but its too much to fight
i reach back and swing, i try
i gotta wet my knife
said it to my face and lied
im too mortified
entrances stay fortified
i dont want advice
trust ive heard it a million times
i cant take in sights
swear that my fuckin brain is fried
such a lonely night
i cant say it but i'll try

i kept the worst all around me
now you'll know better than to fuckin doubt me
its been way too long
i can hear the shadows call
more than writing on the wall
reaching forward and i fall

yeah its terrible
absence of words just happened to say it all
it got way too much i just couldn't go out and face it all
its all my fault
give into misery, lean in and i drop
couldn't find the words
looking back and i seem to know it all

sewerperson:
tell me twice
first time i was mummified
i'll abide with anything u say is right
in the dark we all turn to lesser life
candle light saves me in these lonely nights
war inside ur head is purely natural baby
once i say my grace i turn to animal baby
pray for me cause i been out my head as of lately
tables turn and friends turn into heathens that hate me
i feel i'm the perfect candidate in this purge
i got shackles on my ankles while i pick at this dirt
i guess i dont got my angel looking down on my state
cause if they were then i'd be subject to a numbing of fate
as time goes by i could feel me rot
the light cuts thru me and it tears me up
i apologize for the pain i had caused
i know it doesn't make it right but at least i fought

bates:
yeah its terrible
absence of words just happened to say it all
it got way too much i just couldn't go out and face it all
its all my fault
give into misery, lean in and i drop
couldn't find the words
looking back and i seem to know it all

hindsight bias ft. sewerperson

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
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long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

butterflys in ur heart
and i will take them to my grave
i am doing my part 
but i cant choose to be saved
we can worship the stars
time just stops where we lay
ive been delt all my cards 
and i am well out of my depth 
and deeper when pressing my scars

i can feel the pressure building
fast
push u out the way, theyre on
attack
in jeaporady when getting to
attatched
feeding on my bones until they 
snap

protect th silk casing like my worthless pulse depends on its
ur beaty will project to outside planes changing course of comets
im not what needs to be beside u in the end in fact far from it
i jus hope u can appreciate our final moments

ink is running out 
most likely my last few pages
everything battered and worn
theres not many too more stages
but i am yet to explore 
the deepest part of my core
but  this aint about me anymore
im happy to pass the torch, in this storm
im still warm, coz i can tell that ur changing ur formv

still one arm on this battle ship i steer
there are one too many waiting for us at the pier
it isnt fair
we’ve come so far 
it stops right here
now this ur part
i hope you’ll know that this is what i wanted dear

butterflies in ur heart (killedmyself)

Produced by Branwen
featuring sewerperson
lyrics:
feeling myself expand my mind
I dont wanna talk mind filled with knifes
I dont wanna talk just to hurt u now 
I could never forgive myself if I hurt u
whatcha tell me yea u hate me so 
I dont really care I sold my soul
u could go ahead and bury me

feeling myself expand my mind
I dont wanna talk mind filled with knifes
I dont wanna talk just to hurt u now 
I could never forgive myself 
whatcha tell me yea u hate me so
whatcha telling me isn't making sense
whatcha telling me doesn't hurt me yea
whatcha telling me doesn't help me grow

could u help me yea I lost my way 
could u help me out yea im bleeding out 
im not giving into the pressure
u dont want me now in a second you'll haunt me
cross on my chest ur not gettin near me 
when im in a rage I just hope u dont fear me
she just wanna fight I dont wanna fight

Feeling myself I dont need ur pride
Overworking myself on a Thursday night
Sick of myself and my hopeful mind
Take a look at dry mouth and my blood shot eyes
Soggy old pelts
In the rain we survive
Oh im Cooking myself 
So u could Eat me alive
With the sos out
There’ll be no help now
Blood lines the camp ground
Of where we will die
Farwell 
She will never ever leave home now
Every time a tragedy comes around
She cant move or anything and shuts down
Brain cells
Wrapped around the fingers of the devil
When we heard the cry we should’ve come home
Now we lay in dirt graves all alone
We are all alone
Eating myself from inside my head
I been thinking just how I could tell my friends
No one cared then for the things I said
All it took in the end was the guilt of a death

feeling myself expand my mind
I dont wanna talk mind filled with knifes
I dont wanna talk just to hurt u now 
I could never forgive myself 
whatcha tell me yea u hate me so
whatcha telling me isn't making sense
whatcha telling me doesn't hurt me yea
whatcha telling me doesn't help me grow

could u help me yea I lost my way 
could u help me out yea im bleeding out 
im not giving into the pressure
u dont want me now in a second you'll haunt me
cross on my chest ur not gettin near me 
when im in a rage I just hope u dont fear me
she just wanna fight I dont wanna fight

feelin' myself (she dont) feat sewerperson [prod.branwen]

produced by ztope and killedmyself
completely non profit

lyrics

ice and mud is giving way
its a waterslide

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

i guess these circumstances arent exactly normal, i can give u that
faint roads, the pain grows, always clawing at the scabs 
i play a song from my memory
something inside me still struggling
somehow i grip on the muddy reeds
nothing could take it away from me

i found shelter all alone
on a shore in freezing clothes
20 miles barefoot snow

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time

swept away (ztope x killedmyself)

no capital letters

prod by caves
completely non profit

lyrics

her brown eyes are warm
n my tired face is worn
my shaky hands are torn
but her brown eyes are warm 

its a quarter past 1 and im high us fuck
im just thinking bout the weekend when my darling comes 
i gotta breathe, let out hatred in black sludge
now its april and im wondering, the fuck is up?
shawty i think im in need of new bed springs
(i need new bed springs) 
voddy n cran rip a bowl n get headspins 
(you bring better things)
ill take the train if u want we should lock in
(lets go, lets lock in)
winter weather just feel like wisconsin 
(wont fold, im all in)

winter weather just feel like wisconsin 
ill take the train if u want we should lock in
winter weather just feel like wisconsin
shawty i think im in need of new bed springs

catching trains again
trekking through the mountain air
this time through the south instead
from her eyes i wipe the hair
double down and vault the stairs
ill be there when no one cares
light my stoag and ponder there
out back with my vacant stare

its a quarter past 1 and im high as fuck
(i need new bed springs)
im just waiting for the weekend when my darling comes
(u bring better things ) (with my vacant stare)
i gotta breathe let the hatred out in black sludge
(lets go, lets lock in)
now its april and im wondering the fuck is up
(wont fold, im all in)
shawty i think im in need of new bed springs 
(ill be there when no ones cares)

im all in

wisconsin (caves)

This song was released and later removed from Bryson's SoundCloud

They told me Bryson
You always sit in silence
That shit gonna turn to violence, yuh
In a year
Yeah, so I'll lay by the violets
Right before the sky lit
'Cause finding peace in silence sheds a tear

What could I do better this time?
Four in the morning and I drive
Drinks with my friends in the night
Just hoping for a smile when I arrive
It's gonna happen
Whipping a classic
No automatic bitch
Blowing by traffic
Rolling up magic
Up in a cabin rich
'Cause I'm on my own time
I'm on my own time
Watching the sunrise
Did this shit myself
Left the drugs on the shelf
Louis V on my belt
Living life, no help
Living life without constants

They told me Bryson
You always sit in silence
That shit gonna turn to violence
In a year
I'll make sure the violets
Come before the sky lit
'Cause finding peace in silence sheds a tear

hindsight bias ft. sewerperson

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