Damnnnn this is actually so perfect 😭🥺

track 3 
n i’ve never felt as low as this
when u told me that u hate me
i died a bit 
now the sun feels so cold on my skin 
and nothing tastes the same, again, you win

 
yea and i cry every night when i go to sleep
i don’t wanna fight anymore please just bury me 
you’re the one i like
despite what u said to me 
i’m high as a kite 
off this mud
keep on tellin me 
that i should get help 
but u never been a friend 
so please don’t sit and cry
fake tears on my bed 
u the one that tried to help me til the end
why the fuck i need a therapist when i got u instead?

*inhale*
*exhale*
it’s as easy as that
*inhale*
*exhale*

just breathe it’s as easy at that 
as easy as that 
so i just breathe when this bitch get me mad
grayfox the king i be here til i’m dead 
had a slow year think my shit about to fall off
but i’m still here with this blood on my hands
shoutout to tropic, as easy as that
shoutout to loveless, as easy as that 
run thru the street when i’m off of my meds
but i’ll still be right here while these boys follow trends
3 playlists 1 week i’m scheming again 
people can hate but ain’t bled what i bled 
i’ve seen the fall when ur stood on the edge cus i’ve seen my own mum in a hospital bed
i’m way too high so go argue with them
got my whole life in the palm of my hands
make a no hook and then go right to bed
and u can sendflowrs when im laid to rest

just breathe, it’s as easy as that (mackk)

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

its not a red dress
she a different girl when she get undressed
brought a stack of flowers to the court and caused some unrest 
sunset over miles of trees and she on bed rest 
my breath fogging in the air alone n upset
train departs only once in every hour
crying at the station?
guess my tank ran out of power
I cannot pretend like I don't miss u every hour
its been a couple years, how u doin, how u now then?

life feels so wrong
I have no one
all's past all's gone
its ur mess
figure it out

ive come a long way, back from when I'd mutilate myself 
honest, was that promise that I made instead of getting help
I don't work right, uptight, awful mental health
there's a brightside, I'm fine, building up my wealth
I got his whole networth tucked beside my belt
cashing unemployment, what a way to show the world
u just wanted happiness, show me how it felt
I know that I loved u, still do, hope ur doing well

life feels so wrong
I have no one
all's past all's gone
its my mess
I'll figure it out

aeternum, semper. (sk8miles)

w/ @fleshgolem

first single off of the ep, 
happy bday fleshy

lyrics

[mæsk]
im worn, im worn
been wearing and my skin is all torn
but i feel alive, when in eye of a storm
i tip my hat off to those that can move on

she said lets go
well ur just going home
ima be drifting slow

she paddles out to sea to see i see her halo
i cant allow it, need to escape 
ill fuck u up, 
please just go back to where u came

depression i just battle it
im sinking on this battle ship 
steer till i cant battle shit
this is my own settlement
until im old, thats if im old

im holding on to rafts with no sign of a life boat
i know on this 1 i wont have time to grow

she sent a signal to me that i wasn’t alone
now urs to take 
all my flesh, yeah my skin and my bone

im outta time in this world im outta time 
and its just me by myself on this grind
and its time to let the pen down
write my final words coz im just out of time

[flesh]
so why is there still time to waste?
i'm still disoriented from the time the tidal wave came thru
cause i've been washed up, cleansed all the way thru
and i'll be damned if i'll be drowning cause of you
it's a process, that's what i tell myself 
inside my head its saw traps, i run with reason 
but i always tend to talk back, it's changing seasons
nearly autumn guess i'll fall apart in my room

i said let's go but i'm just going home
i wish that you'd come too, lay my fantasies out on the table
high seas, pulling me away
i went too far the tide is tryna steal my shame
i try to battle it, i swim but i'm just paddling
there's water in my lungs and i don't think i can handle it
i'll tip my boat, that i'll do
before i ever admit defeat to what i knew
before the life before me ever became true

signal w/ flesh golem (flesh x sunshowers)

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

produced by lil nightshift
feature by the homie decks
this ones just for us
completely non profit

lyrics

mouldy cups in my room
rotten bags full of food
i got tar n muck n my shoes
top it off with bad attitude

mouldy cups in my room
rotten bags full of food
i got tar n muck n my shoes
top it off with bad attitude

there's a store that shuts in my head at noon
if u had a point better make it soon
deprived of shut eye I'm craving snooze
online it's highlights and pay per view
this scene is dead but I'll make it thru
when i carve a pathway of naked truths
consistent drops will always grow a project
consistently will top whatever drops next

up next.

uber eats bro i fw ramen
rolled up 50s, baggies, palm it
came to play, boi I'm fuckin starving 
piece of cake, watch me bite this tarmac 
here's to a year of me still complaining
bunkered down in my mental basement 
fuck the labels and fuck the placements
here's to sinners, get fucking brain dead

mouldy cups in my room
rotten bags full of food
i got tar n much in my shoes
top it of with bad attitude 

mouldy cups in my room
rotten bags full of food 
i got tar n muck in my shoes
top it of with bad attitude

decks

let it fuckin build, what have i got to lose
i been fuckin braindead since '22
& if u watch me implode its pay per view
my own mental state will make money too

i been grinding for years & it wont stick
nothing i do's worth a damn to the public
i do this for me till my deathbed
what the fuck does it matter when its all corrupt
& the money i've spent's an investment
don't think i dont know what i have accomplished
i could do this from my basement
but veins and i aiming for bigger, just trust that.

where my face hit dirt ft. decks (lil nightshift)

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prod by jolst:

@jolst
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pitch black like it's nightfall
i guess i'm the type to keep it vague and keep the lights off
rinsed that, now it's all cold
brace now, it's over
i gotta go
if i make it out it's on my own
i planted myself here by my own hand
try to face it all before the snow lands
i don't keep in touch i guess you know that
and daylight never meets me guess i know that
i got all these habits
can't control that
step into the night i got my own back
always like that
it almost feels like someone's here
could you empathize though i'm not near
show face, i don't want to
dont need to explain what i've been through
just go patch it up
swear i tried, turned to dust
i can't mess it up if i never show some love
i give doubt, not trust
sit inside this house and i rust

vague (jolst)

single off upcoming alb w/ @fleshgolem
music video out now 

produced by @taylor x @fleshgolem
mix & mastrd by @fleshgolem

lyrics

it’s uncertain
expressive on the good i’m not that person
purpose, look at me in my eyes tell me it’s working
keep searching for moments that ain’t in reach know ur not perfect anymore
coz it’s all just from ur lense 
u gotta seek deep in the source

we fighting the time
but fuck all the ticking don’t worry ur mine
functioning fine
tipping off wine
trips for the flicks 
don’t u worry bout dimes

deeping the trips on monday 
don’t get to see but i’m texting on runway
so it’s cool
going to this one place
it’s cool we might freeze it’s a long break
oh and the view
brains just a dumb maze
right on the brink every week then new phase
opens up
call it dumb luck 
but it’d be the same every path i was fucked

right from the start
a bruise on my heart
my brain never helped coz it had its own scars
developed like sars
like moving to mars
there was no escape 
just a suffering star

humble in past
now belief i’m off far
now need it consistent coz it can get dark
oh trust me it’s dark
still sits right next me but without could i right all these bars

this ain’t a gimic 
i’m writing these lyrics 
a book that won’t finish 
in this life time, no

you’re taking our pictures
i’m writing our scriptures 
we’re climbing these pillars
this is our life

so we should love it now
live it down
ill then pass the torch to those feeing drowned
swimming round
circle bound
hear me out, hear me out

i want change i’ll soon change my sound
i want to leave the dirt different ground
i’ll pave a way for those looking down 
i know where i’m at, i know where i’m bound

uh uh 
i need a lie down 
you see this life that i’m living
through, sound waves and vintage filtered pictures
but make no mistake oh
this message wont break mold

i could never tell u that i’m home 
id rather spent nights on the road
walking outside of the lines alone
and they’ll say you’re outta control 

objective so confusing 
still find my self cruising
this adventure so amusing
want for you
the best is all that i want for you not what i know

what i know
what i know
yeah i would talk more but i’d rather just see the seeds grow
 
i cant show u what i could do if i believed in myself more coz i already do

nothin to prove 
but nothing to lose
the setup is fucked but what can you do 
except choose
theres no wrong but thats up to you

our adventure

our adventure (taylor morgan x flesh) music video link in bio

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

old asf thing from the vault w/ @torvamia <3 

luv yall thank you so fkn much for the support lately. shit gives my life meaning

vague (jolst)

homesick

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