An adventure gone sour, a journey through dark times and muddy stormy waters. What appeared to be a dream at first, turned nightmare. A paradise full of sorrows and regrets. Poisoned hearts, flaming shadows and a tale of two souls in a fierce battle of mediocracy. 

Narcissism, Games, Lies and two sides Of the same coin… a bitter rivalry and a story full of folly and bewilderment, so bittersweet... what came masked as love turned out to be pure evil. 

However … Change is inevitable.

I have taken actions and removed myself from this person‘s life by going into no-contact. Do not entertain these clowns. Whether it‘s narcissistic behavior or some other form of toxic malevolence, do not stay in contact with vile people. It’s better to be alone, than with someone who is abusive and overreaching on a regular basis… take care.


Cheers

Poison Paradise

Supervillain

The counterpart to my track “Superman”…   A true story depicting the battle (arch-rivalry) between a narcissistic woman and an empathetic man. 
Over the last decade, I’ve become a lot darker…  so not the regular Dark-Empath, but rather an Empath who’s gone dark.

My latest tracks are supposed to showcase the situations I encountered, as authentic as possible. This isn’t about making beautiful songs but rather about making honest music 🎶

(This villain-thing? It’s what narcissists often do… first they abuse you and your trust and when you want to leave, they flip the script and tell everyone how awful of a person you are. Suddenly you’re accused of being toxic, a villain and a narcissist yourself. It’s so terrible, because not just did they never really love you… they do anything that could potentially harm your future and they even enjoy inflicting pain to you. They will use any force necessary. Even call and lie to the police to get control over you… when you try to get out, before they have new supply, they will blackmail you. It will feel like a constant battle and they look for any ammunition you give them, to use against you. They will push and push until you act out of character (reactive abuse) and then when you finally snap and do something stupid (like cussing etc.) - they show that reaction to others and make it look like you’re a crazy person for reacting to their abuse. As if nothing ever happened before. They could for example have told you that the airbag isn't working and if they feel like crashing, you're screwed (btw, this really happened and she really said that)... they intentionally cause physical and mental damage whenever they feel like it. Just straight out of the blue... That's how I got my ear burned by her (we weren't even arguing, just out of nowhere). This other time I was kicked in the belly because I wouldn't cuddle her. Stuff like that...  

The worst thing about this? She would instantly change the narrative of the story and suddenly she would act as if I just kicked her. Crazy stuff like that. Despite her coming across as rather normal and charming. If I had not been this close to her, I would never think her capable of such actions. It's not that I ever thought that she is an angel. I just didn't expect the devil... and this may sound harsh and/or exaggerated, but I kid you not. If you saw that devil's grin and her evil eyes, after she caused mayhem, (obviously enjoying the chaos she just created) you would instantly understand why I'm saying this.

Be careful out there and watch who you let into your life. Doesn't matter whether you're a man or a woman. Make sure not to waste your precious life on people who don't even deserve a short moment of your time. 

I learnt some valuable life lessons... but it took too much. If I could travel back, I would have never talked to this person who is a master at wearing masks. And even though I would say my love is "unconditional", if the person you believe to love is just a trickster and you fall in love with their false facade and mask, then it's not love. Because, what you love, is the person they are impersonating. And in fact, no one ever really loved them (it's true)... not the real them. Because they don't show up as themselves. The moment I saw her true face, I knew I had to get out asap. It was much worse than I first suspected. Getting out with these people is very tough. In case you want to know how I did it and what to be aware of; in case you're going through something similar, feel free to message me.

And in case if you wonder who won... I did. A lot of problems. Besides that? Well I didn't find love (as expected, for it's probably like Santa Claus), but I did once again find out, how vile people are and that most people can't be trusted.

I hope you never had to go through something horrible like this, nor that you will ever have to. 

Cheers

Supervillain

Bittersweet

I know me, so I know someone...


Still in progress but a first draft for keen ears, who want to see this journey proceed. Have fun or learn someting, not sure how to call this current chapter... perhaps healing phase or better, 
get-to-know-myself-a-little-closer phase. 
It's different; I know. Something you don't hear every day, I‘m sure. 

Hope this tastes not too bittersweet...

Bittersweet 3.3

Changes come regardless… but what remains the same? Truth? Love? The way ahead?
Change; change is inevitable.

Change is inevitable

Restless… one of many different versions of this song. Give it a try. I personally really enjoyed making the track and don't mind sharing a few new versions of it... 
Hope you enjoy & Have fun 


Lyrics:
Restless

Let it rain, let it sink,
let it appear out of nowhere,
and wash away your sins,
all forgotten,- yet still flying, 
it's probably in vain,
just make it go away,
yeah it's - gone' - unforgotten,
but nothing stays the same,
as I'm all-in forever, 
yeah I know it sucks,
but I don't want no vengeance, 
No - I just like justice, 
just like that, just like that...

And it come(s) and it goes, 
it comes around and flows,
comes around and knows,
all the things that you don't,

that forever all forgotten - all alone,
all my thoughts are wrestling on,
as I'm ever-hollow here and nothing is real, no,
nothing ever changes the heart inside,
and it cries-out in the night, as it calls for help,
as you're struggling alone - in the dark,
yeah I'm commin' and I want to rescue you,
but I'm lost - so far - deep within,

(and) a thousand moments of misery, 
won't change the way I feel about things, 
constantly forgotten and all alone, 
these thoughts are ever-spinning,
residing in my soul, 
throw me the rope and turn my heart,
(one day) the rain will wash me afar,

I will prevail - just like this, just like that… 
as it goes, comes around,

a thousand moments of misery,
won't change the way I feel about things, 
constantly forgotten, all alone,
these thoughts are ever-spinning,
residing in my soul,
throw me the rope and string me up,
(while my) heart is turned inside-out,
the rain will wash me away sometime, (but)
until then,- I (will) prevail !

Let it rain

Restless 4.4 (Supreme)

A light in the dark - I light in the dark


Lyrics:
I've been fighting for far too long,
7 armies (it seems) couldn't hold me down (back),
it breaks your life, so-
I carry you around -
carry you around,
seeing all the(m) shadows,
creeping up behind you/me,
I don't even know, what I want to know,
oh - your face,
I see no way,
it makes no sense,
(just) make it all go away,
ohh - you know,
your darkness,
is all soo dark,
your eyes - they flicker,
(Yeah) and a light in the dark,
I light in the dark,
Imma light in the dark,
A light in the dark,
I light in the dark,
I'm a light in the dark

...
I light in the dark ∞

Light in the Dark

🎧 Sîlky Harmony 🎧

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Der Spielmann

Alternative, Folk, Indie-Rock, Indie-Folk, Alt-Hop, Funk, Psy, Blues, Soul, Acoustic, Indie, Jazz, Medieval, Atmospheric, Singer-Songwriter, Rock and Roll


Much to say ... so little time - The Calling - around 1000+ songs were created, but only a few are made available for the time being. Mostly adjusted to current life events or as seen fit... 


Have a blast 💥



All sounds, songs, samples, etc. that were uploaded here, are self-made. (except the drum samples for the song „Accepted“, which was created in a collaboration and mastered by someone else.) 
Otherwise, these recordings are mainly of natural origins, with emphasis on organic sounds (acoustic, instrumental, vocals, etc.) and storytelling, that is based on true occurrence in real-life. 


If you got any questions, feel free to pm me.

Light in the Dark

Denk