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.... band rehearsal / jam, rec. 27.06.2025 with Zoom H1n // www.youtube.com/@dephaze
dePhaze: AdmassD ... Groovebox,Vocals, Percussion // Biff Debris .... Guitar, Electronics, FX //
Marc Kirschvink ..... Bass // Ali Blue ... Drums // joerxworx ... Saxophone
... Relaxed start to a long night, finger exercise without sequencer and looper :-)

dePhaze // Latin Jam // live recording

Good Vibe$

Hidden World III

The Edge of Dawn

A song of unrequited love.. from my early twenties… precious metal reasons.. I’m so blue! ( not about Detroit Lions.. or Hawaii, ha!😆) .. give me a C.. a bouncy C!! 😅..just moving another song from K2 and the Four.. back to my @ paid page! One of my earliest recordings.. from 2020.. best year ever!!!🤔🤣🤩

Honolulu Blue and Silver

Interlude - Fallen -Fire Ark Radio Production

Interlude - Fallen

“I Wish (I Was Like You)” is an emotional song about longing, self-denial, and the fear of hurting those we care about — wrapped in a dark, poetic vampire metaphor.

I love exploring different genres and diving into new musical worlds — and right now, it's musical theatre that's calling me.

This song is part of a musical project in collaboration with Sarah Paradise Brown, centered around themes of inner conflict, unfulfilled love, and the tension between light and darkness.

A new song with Sarah is already in the works — and there may be more to come as we continue to unfold this mysterious chapter.

Lyrics / Music / Vocals: 
Axel Menningen



"I wish (I was like you)"

You wake up with the sun in your eyes.
You breathe like nothing hurts.
You laugh like life is simple.
I watch you from the dark.

I try to move like you.
To speak like you.
But my steps are too heavy.
And something inside me always pulls me back.

I wish I was like you.
I wish I didn't want what I want.
I wish I could be close
without the fear,
without the hunger.
But I can't.

You hold my hand like it's safe.
You look at me like I'm still human.
And for a moment,
I almost believe it.

But the night speaks to me.
It whispers what I am.
And the blood calls louder
than your voice ever could.

I wish I was like you.
I wish I didn't want what I want.
I wish I could be close
without the fear,
without the hunger.
But I can't.

I don't want to hurt you.
I don't want to lose myself.
But if I choose you,
I lose what keeps me alive.

I wish I was like you.
I wish I could just love.
But I'm built for hunger,
not for peace.
Not for love.
Not like you.

I Wish (I Was Like You)

BiG FUNK

moonlight lemonade.....
Une petite chanson sans prétention
un air d'été acidulé
à siroter sous un palmier (ajoutez du rhum et une feuille de menthe)
image: Vika Glitter

citronade au clair de lune By Zitou Itou & Blackcat

instruments: Jeff Gardiner and jo richter
modulation, arrangement and all that: jo richter
lyrics: Jeff Gardiner in collaboration with jo richter
image: Jeff Gardiner in collaboration with jo richter

in an accent long unspoken
in an ancient dialect
curses, blessings, symbols, token
the janitor, the architect
born to care and to dissect
and dream the dream of the unwoken

like a bird within a flight of thought
falling upwards, held within
an endless tunnel copper-wrought
bats, the arching acrobats and next of kin
to passage-dwellers of the interim
who cuddle up head-down and midnight-fraught

about to take flight to the light
like a silent spell and serpent word
burning brightly in the night
like a river’s moon shedding a midnight beam
sheathing the last, unseeing and unseen
sheathing the last remaining sword

scalar field pt 6: Toltec Heath--With Sonic Structures and Silent Stretches

'toxic love' 

note: yet another spontaneous shitty live phone recording, first and only take.

Well, this is hard.
That we know.
Add to the scars, 
or just let go?
We know there's love.
There's no doubt.
But, when fucked up,
we run our mouths,
and say some things
that we regret.
And, these words sting.
We can't forget.
Yet we find
we can't let go.
Attraction
takes control.
And we forgive,
and seem okay,
until we sip
too much someday. 
And, then the shit
will escalate.
I'm feeling sick.
It's not okay.
I won't forget, 
for it's been fun.
Not just the sex.
But, us as one.
But, so we have
now become
a toxic love that
has come undone.

toxic love

(No GenAI involved : my voice + Vst instruments)
I release this song during a musical challenge at LZMP (a community of musicians)
Let's rock
(Traduit plus bas)
-----
I kept my mouth shut down
I played the game too long
What the hell they think they are
Holy talk and shining stars

I watched them, broken arms
Just smiles and plastic charms
What they built is upon my own fear
It’s time to scream, let's make it clear !

I'm gonna stop the show
Or they will never know
I am not a toy i'm a gun
It's my time to have a bit of fun 

Who makes you feel so bad
Who makes you feel sad
Who makes you feel mad

We live in toxic worlds
With bunch of crazy lords
Should we bow, should we just obey
We'd better burn their mask today!

Their unabashed opinions
Nauseating dominions
Feeding hate on every stage
They are so good at that : breeding the rage 

Who makes you feel so bad
Who makes you feel sad
Who makes you feel mad

So spit back what they preach
Out of reach, out of leash
I don’t need a cage or throne
Queen bee, look at me, I'm not yours to own

I'm gonna stop the show
Or they will never know
I am not a toy i'm a gun
It's my time to have a bit of fun

Who makes you feel so bad
Who makes you feel sad
Who makes you feel mad

Who makes you feel so bad
Who makes you feel sad
Who makes you feel mad

-----
J'ai fermé ma gueule
J'ai joué le jeu trop longtemps
Qu'est-ce qu'ils pensent être
Des paroles saintes et des étoiles brillantes

Je les ai regardés, bras cassés
Juste des sourires et des breloques en plastique
Ce qu'ils ont construit, c'est sur ma propre peur
Il est temps de crier, soyons clairs !

Je vais arrêter le spectacle
Ou ils ne sauront jamais
Je ne suis pas un jouet, je suis une arme
C'est mon heure de m'amuser un peu

Qui vous fait vous sentir si mal
Qui vous fait vous sentir triste
Qui vous fait vous sentir fou

Nous vivons dans des mondes toxiques
Avec une bande de seigneurs fous
Devons-nous nous incliner, devons-nous simplement obéir
Nous ferions mieux de brûler leur masque aujourd'hui !

Leurs opinions décomplexées
Dominations nauséabondes
Nourrir la haine sur toutes les scènes
Ils sont si bons à cela : faire naître la rage

Qui vous fait vous sentir si mal
Qui vous fait vous sentir triste
Qui vous fait vous sentir fou

Alors crachez ce qu'ils prêchent
Hors de portée, hors de laisse
Je n'ai pas besoin de cage ou de trône
Reine des abeilles, regardes-moi, je ne t'appartiens pas

Je vais arrêter le spectacle
Ou ils ne sauront jamais
Je ne suis pas un jouet, je suis une arme
C'est mon moment de m'amuser un peu

Qui vous fait vous sentir si mal
Qui vous fait vous sentir triste
Qui vous fait vous sentir fou

Qui vous fait vous sentir si mal
Qui vous fait vous sentir triste
Qui vous fait vous sentir fou


Who makes you feel bad ?

Neon Frog

Ruby

This is a track for those moments when you need peace and relaxation. All sounds are produced with software instruments from Logic Pro, Analog Lab and Native instruments and some Pink Floyd flavours. 

Gentle touch

All things will pass away

This is a track that Jeff and Mahan Mahan had started and almost finished by the time I took a listen.   When I did , I loved it.    

Mahan 💀 Mahan  - beats, bass, synth, acoustic guitar
Stonerjazz - vocals/lyrics
TexMex Shaman - electric guitar and mix 
 

lyrics by Stonerjazz:

ponder and ponder if you wanna
speculations bout meanings and measures and structure
of time and the present
and yet it remains completely unknown
made no dent in the fabric
of monstrous illusion
collusion of unseen forces
nibbling away with whispers
while meekly we, perish, never knowing
what we're feeding
believers believing bleeding rivers of remorse
and of course, the horses don;t ponder for a moment
the nature of being--
--stonerjazz

Nature Of Their Being - w/ Stonerjazz and Mahan 💀 Mahan

Illuminated Dreams

Mac , music , lyrics ,vocals
Scotty , lyrics and vocals
Shane , lyrics and vocals

Jimmy really should have learned how to drive 
But he thought he was the last of the lads alive
He never knew his signals or emergency stops
Took a blind side right with his headlights off
And that was the end of that 
But there’s always some daft twat
Who dabbles in disaster for a silly laugh
Perhaps it’s apt 
But Christ it’s proper sad
He was probably an arsehole but someone’s little lad
And it makes em mad in the daily mail
When every little jimmy fails
“They should be building bigger jails , these criminals shall not prevail”
Fuck off Doris ,I’ve got news for you 
You can climb down off that high horse
Cos it ain’t fit for glue

Those with glass minds throwing rocks tonight
Knowing that they never lived a day in their lives

Well, Linda sits upon her porch 
with cigarettes and beer,
waitin' for her cheque and askin'
the mailman each time he's near.
She lives with other women,
who are very much the same.
Seven babies from eight daddies.
Makin' them is just a game
for them to live in ignorance,
sit and do nothing, 
but complain about the immigrants 
that make them quite insane,
even though they're working difficult, shit jobs 
that they're too proud to do.
Entitlement based on their skin
colour and where it was they grew.

There’s two sides to a coin
When judgement calls
Those opinions are the shovel that will bury us all
And that’s all 
X

Fit for glue

Hostal Handshake is an Athenian hard rock/stoner band formed in 2001. After releasing promos "H2" (2002), "Public Affears" (2003), and "Bitched Up!" (2005), they launched their acclaimed debut album "Hellish" in 2007 via Secret Port Records. While there are no plans for live performances, Hostal Handshake intends to release new studio material (singles,EPs or ...albums!) from 2025 onwards.