produced, written, vocals, mixed & art by me

lyrics:
and its always just something next
the taste of defeat, i swallow my best
nobody even need to know extents
i wake up and go back to sleep, another to forget
body shutting down under excessive stress
looking down at how far the depression gets
maybe its just not meant to be, still i detest
i didn't try so hard for this long for you to not be impressed

there confound you, stare your fill and get your money's worth
bloodied eagle, on the way, imma make it work
my bad, i jumped the gun, should have guessed it'd hurt
im so overwhelmed with all this shit, i been hauling earth
blood on my hands still isn't washing off
they said i was going up, but am i even though?
everybody out there swimming and I cant even float.
so i'll be changing shapes, i'm sculpting a soul
i don't wanna be me anymore, so i'll just be your hope
it's way too much to fear, it's like i'm barely even there
I can't go out of my way, i'm not proud if we being real

I don't wanna be here no more
blood on my hands still isn't washing off

and its always just something next
the taste of defeat, i swallow my best
nobody even need to know extents
i wake up and go back to sleep, another to forget
body shutting down under excessive stress
looking down at how far the depression gets
maybe its just not meant to be, still i detest
i didn't try so hard for this long for you to not be impressed




produced, written, vocals & art by me
mixed by praise @fuckpraise

memory receptacle 07/07/25

lyrics:

Let me sit inside this shit for a moment, im quitting it
I been asking god for favours like im giving in 
I swear Ill get you back one day just let me live again
The damage been done and I get that you not into it
I know it changes,
I see it comes back around just to change us
My own brain like a strangers,
My whole world looking like I installed some shaders
Its like im barely alive
Waking up inside my body feeling like I was just buried alive
I never wanted to have to tell you that this shit was a lie
But I finally met up with myself just to end on a goodbye.
I lift the cup up,
The scalp off,
That brain rotten,
Mouth froze up,
The taste buds get shaved off it

Like what you tryna say about me?
You been a joke for a while, dont bring that shame round me.

Choke, choke
Been acting lazy,
Still walk around so shaded
But I been busy dazing
And theres no peace when the days end,
This trauma truely ancient and I stumble through it naked
I needa clean up the
I needa clean up -

Its too late for all the time spent.

I needa clean up the
I needa clean up -
Im back where I started 8 years ago,
In the downstairs we were rapping as indigo
Remember that we would spend hours in studio sessions
With mattresses sound proofing audio

Now im falling backwards through hallways
This shit wracked my brain, hit the cortex with claw shapes
I guess its my bad, held my tongue and ignored fate
Destruction is all that you left us in your wake
Is it my fault that it ended this way?
Like I believed everything I would say
Collapse under pressure, stuck thinking is my faith for nothing if I cant believe the ordained?
Still I gave my heart to the shade,
The strength only tested when foundations shake
Still I gave you all of my praise,
I guess its on brand that you festered my faith
Still I have my heart to the shade,
Im standing up tall through the poison I taste
And its all for the eyes with no face
You were only but words, not even halfway.

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