A & D

[Verse]
I stare into a crevice; a black abyss.
Eyes look me; I look at them.
What has become of society?
It’s all over for Husky Xing.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.
FIN.

[Verse]
Love is dead; falling in love is a trip.
At this point I’m way above being lit.
Let me tell you about this one person.
Who really took my heart, it’s a cursing.
Just thinking about them tears me apart.
His name is Willy; he was cool, he was fun, he was silly.
Our relationship was perfect, really.
But it wasn’t; mistreated him not knowing he a dime out a dozen.
Not giving him the proper time, caring, and loving.
There’s no excuse for what I did.
But the past is the past, leave it alone, kid.
Would you please just forgive me?
Being without you isn’t easy.
I was sleazy, but I never thought you would ever leave me.
Things have changed.
Made a 360, I put down the game.
I’m a new man, that’s word on my name.
I want us together to share all this wealth and this fame.
Then watch everybody burn at our flame.
I guess that’s just wishful thinking now.
Right before my eyes, it was over, wow.
I’m still baffled, I don’t even know how.
You leaving me completely ruined my style.
So, this is it. I’m down life. It’s over with.
It’s going on too long, I hate being alone.
I cry like a kid, even though I’m past grown.
It’s time for me to escape, with a gun to my dome.
Use the steel to peel off my chrome.
Every word I said set in stone.
Dead soon, I’m about to be gone.
I locked the doors, nobody comes in my home.
Click, Clack, Pow, as I sit on my throne.

Suicide Note

[Chorus]
I’m just sitting in my bedroom.
Gun to my head, boom.
It’s all over, I’ll be dead soon.

[Verse]
I’ve prayed to God; I’ve done everything.
But it just seems like life will never get better.
The sounds of hell ring, hit the bell, ding.
Take my bling, let me in, I’m suffering.
I give up, I quit, this is it.
I’m about to flip, pull the trigger, my head split.
Screw everybody, get a hobby.
Before I nail everybody in the lobby.
Then take every body, and hide them away.
Then tell myself everything alright, it’s okay.
It’s finally night, I’ve been waiting all day.
Sitting under a dim light, getting ready to spray.
Here’s my last words, listen closely to what I say.
I love you all, I hope I make it to Heaven.
Thank God for this weapon.
Remember me, Husky Xing, as a legend.
I said remember me, Husky Xing, as a legend.

[Chorus]
I’m just sitting in my bedroom.
Gun to my head, boom.
It’s all over, I’ll be dead soon.

Dead Soon

[Chorus]
I got so many thoughts racing thoughts,
I can’t get out my head.
I got so many thoughts racing thoughts,
I just wish I was dead.
So many racing thoughts.


[Verse]
I got so many racing thoughts, I can’t keep my mind clear.
But their headed for finish line, so I don’t really care.
Let me tell you what I really want in life.
Start a family, my own kids, and maybe a wife.
But I know that’ll never happen.
Because I’m 23, with no lover, I love nobody; nobody loves me.
It’s alright, not the one to take things to the heart.
I’m lying; every little thing you say tears me apart.
I try to keep my head up, stay positive, and smile.
Been depressed so long, no happiness in a while.
Sometimes I feel stuck, sometimes I wanna give up.
But as long as I can, I’ll stand on my two feet. 
Creep, and leap, on my way down the street.
BP vest in the summer; I’m prepared for the heat.
I’m not finished yet, this is only verse one.
Can you please take a seat? My name is Husky Xing, and this my story.

[Chorus]
I got so many thoughts racing thoughts,
I can’t get out my head.
I got so many thoughts racing thoughts,
I just wish I was dead.
So many racing thoughts.

[Verse]
I got so many racing thoughts, I wanted to be acknowledged.
Graduate from high school, meet success while in college.
Game Design, Sociology, Psychology, FBI, or CIA.
This the truth, honestly.
But that’s when I know I had a gift.
I prayed to God, but I made just one wish.
Spun around in a circle, then realized life is a twist.
That when I’m gone, I just wanna missed.
Loneliness my greatest fear, I turned to love.
Myself, everybody, and the God that’s above.
I’ll just keep bugging you ‘till I get the buzz.
That I feel I deserve; no one on this Earth is better then Husky Xing, you heard?
Sleep on me now, I’ll just wake you up later.
Good morning, eat your breakfast, now it’s time for prayer.
Looked to the sky, then realized I am God.
I don’t need a savior, just sign the pink waiver.

[Chorus]
I got so many thoughts racing thoughts,
I can’t get out my head.
I got so many thoughts racing thoughts,
I just wish I was dead.
So many racing thoughts.

Racing Thoughts

[Chorus]
I wish I had a molotov.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
I wanna destroy the whole world.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Best believe I take your girl.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Time to give Husky a referral.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off.

[Verse]
Ever since birth, I was treated wrong.
Mommy left me home with stepdad all alone.
And he was beating me to the bone.
From the way he treated her, she should have knew all along.
But she didn’t, then my grandparents found out.
Called child protective service, then they took me out my house.
They put food in my mouth.
Taking care of me without a doubt.
Even when I kick, and cry, and pout.
Mommy beat the case, I know she felt proud.
Then we had to live on the streets.
Had to do everything to get back on our feet.
Even when being constantly faced with defeat.
Move to the burbs, finally seen peace.
Well, I was naïve, so that’s what I thought at least.
It was then that I realized it was time for me to face the beast.

[Chorus]
I wish I had a molotov.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
I wanna destroy the whole world.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Best believe I take your girl.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Time to give Husky a referral.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off.

[Verse]
Fear became reality for a couple of years.
At home, and at school, all my problems were clear.
I should have listened to God when It whispered in my ear.
But I didn’t, I was stupid, didn’t have time to hear.
So, I started walking down a dark path.
Started failing in math, and getting laughed at in class.
I just wanted to pass, but I just simply couldn’t last.
At home it was even worse, my new stepdad a curse.
He didn’t whoop me, he just used mind tricks.
Could say anything just to make me click.
Then I graduated, got out the house quick.
Thought my life was good, and everything was lit.
Reading books, meditating, getting fit.
Moved to my grandparents, said this is it.
But then my grandpa died.
And I found out it wasn’t.

[Chorus]
I wish I had a molotov.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
I wanna destroy the whole world.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Best believe I take your girl.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Time to give Husky a referral.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off.

[Verse]
Me and grandma alone, we been mourning for years.
Sometimes it’s really hard just to shed not a tear.
Anxiety, depression really starts to kick in.
My life really spiraled, I was facing the end.
OCD kept me away from society.
I crossed the line, and lost my sanity.
Turned into vanity.
It made me the man to be.
Blocked my vision, made it hard to see.
I couldn’t think, it made it hard to eat.
I couldn’t even take a seat.
Every day it left me beat.
I can’t even cross the street, I had nobody new to meet.
This emotion was elite.
6 years later, look at me, I’m OG.
Yet, here I am, still in the hands of defeat.

[Chorus]
I wish I had a molotov.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
I wanna destroy the whole world.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Best believe I take your girl.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off
Time to give Husky a referral.
'Cuz I’m Pissed Off.

Pissed Off

[Chorus]
I’m a drug addict, I know it’s a bad habit.
It doesn’t matter what kind of drug, I gotta have it.
Overdosing, comatosing, I’m straight savage.
And if I don’t get them, I might just turn rabid.

[Verse]
Drug addict; subtract it, I turn into a classic.
Ill swerving evil; malicious, euphoric maverick.
Feministic tendencies, counting numbers making sense to me.
I sin with a triple beam; a sensei on my sensu bean.
I’m happy when I see you, my eyes gleam.
Inhale, exhale, burning gas to the siren.
Teamwork makes the team work.
Since you left me, all my dreams hurt; I just wanna leave Earth.
Name Mary, Molly, Lucy.
I grew on to them, I’m a groupie.
From the stage to the screen.
Ready to make a movie.
On to better things.
I put my life down, that’s what I wish for.
Quadruple everything.
You know I want more.

[Chorus]
I’m a drug addict, and I know it’s a bad habit.
It doesn’t matter what kind of drug, I gotta have it.
Overdosing, comatosing, I’m straight savage.
And if I don’t get them, I might just turn rabid.

[Verse]
I’ll sell my soul instead of selling a boat.
Levitate off me feet, so you can watch me float.
While you’re checking your wrist.
I’ll be taking your dough.
My answer is yes, I just want to let you know.
Before you start asking those questions.
The journey is long, no time for guessing.
Don’t doubt me, Husky Xing gotta weapon.
Nothing but foot soldiers at my feet.
I can’t see my future ‘cuz I’m in way too deep.
From the jump I knew that drugs were a big leap.
But now I’m insomniac, I’m never getting sleep.
I want out now.
So, I’m starting to creak.
I realize I’m talking slow.
So, pardon my speech.

[Chorus]
I’m a drug addict, I know it’s a bad habit.
It doesn’t matter what kind of drug, I gotta have it.
Overdosing, comatosing, I’m straight savage.
And if I don’t get them, I might just turn rabid.

Drug Addict

[Chorus]
I just wanna live my life carefree.
But sometimes I feel like an escapee.
Are you spaced out? I agree.
‘Cuz I wanna escape reality.

[Verse]
I just took some LSD, so now I feel kinda trippy.
I fall into the sky blue sea, and the Crips are there waiting for me.
So I limp across the water, no need for a Jesus piece.
Throw up the deuces, then head towards east.
My brain too good, have a seat.
There he goes using letters again.
I don’t even know where to begin.
There can be no doubles, there can be no twins.
Leaping off a mountain, then I land on my chin.
Get up, dust off with a grin, on to the menu.
List of rappers; all of them bin food.
Husky Xing, you know that he been rude.
Change my flow on the drop of a dime.
It’s 2016, I know it’s my time.
No need to remind me, I know I can rhyme.
Gazing back at you losers not crossing the line.

[Chorus]
I just wanna live my life carefree.
But sometimes I feel like an escapee.
Are you spaced out? I agree.
‘Cuz I wanna escape reality.

Escaping Reality

[Chorus]
What’s the deal? I know this can’t be real.
All I do is smoke weed, drink lean, and pop pills.
I’m starting to feel ill, it’s getting hard to chill.
Swallowed by depression; on top Melancholia Hill.

[Verse]
It’s been many years now, I done lost count.
Dracula sucking sadness, drained by the ounce.
Chilling in my house; it’s all cool, I’m staring at the walls.
And I can’t, and I won’t bounce ‘cuz I don’t have the balls.
Head down crying, tryna smile, wish I was dying.
Change my color with this rope around my neck, such a good tying.
No loose ends, my bow tight; closed lids, it feels just right.
No hope left, jump off the bed, and be dead before the night.
With no armor on, I point a gun to straight to heart.
All of this sadness every day is tearing Husky apart.
About to finish myself off; let’s get on to the start.
Did I tell you that I really have a fondness for art?
With that being said, I think it’s time for me to paint a picture.
‘Cuz I’m thirsty for some bullets, and this gun is my elixir.
I can taste the steel on my tongue, weighing down, take out my lungs.
Laying in a pool of blood; And just like that, life is done.

[Chorus]
What’s the deal? I know this can’t be real.
All I do is smoke weed, drink lean, and pop pills.
I’m starting to feel ill, it’s getting hard to chill.
Swallowed by depression, on top Melancholia Hill.

Melancholia Hill

[Chorus]
I feel pain in my back; panic attack.
I’m about to crack; panic attack.
It’s breath that I lack; panic attack.
Now my mind is off track; panic attack.

[Verse]
Have you ever had a panic attack?
When you’re sitting in your room like “God, cut me some slack”.
Or leaving slits on the wrists until the bleeding persists.
There’s no reason to exist; life a seasonal twist.
Nothing even makes sense giving a sense of worry.
Thoughts racing; feet pacing; heart in a hurry.
What will I do? I might just kill myself.
I know talking negative is bad for my health.
But I don’t care, I just wish my mind was intact.
I swear to God this how it feels to have a panic attack.
What more can I say? I’ve been waiting all day.
Time for my gun to spray, and my body to lay.
All I can do is pray, hope my voice is relayed.
Every action that I make is delayed.
A shadow of a doubt is just shade.
Dark thoughts can persuade.
So here I stand, betrayed.

[Chorus]
I feel pain in my back; panic attack.
I’m about to crack; panic attack.
It’s breath that I lack; panic attack.
Now my mind is off track; panic attack.

[Verse]
I’m threat to society, what will y’all do?
I’ve lost my mind, hope I find a clue.
Time to pay my dues ‘cuz I untwisted my screws.
Measured the length of your life, now I’m breaking the rules.
Can’t think straight, my thoughts are straight bent.
Do you have your phone? Hope you run with a sprint.
Pay me back what I lent. What am I am talking about?
Is my voice low? ‘Cuz I feel high, and I shout.
Thoughts in a shamble, so random, my life that I gamble.
Next in line, need a disguise; picked up my mantle.
Got hit with the steel, now it’s time to light some candles.
Body lying on the beach at the foot of bum sandals.
Snapped back to reality, so my thoughts aren’t so whack.
Moving on, life a song, yet I feel off track.
As the sun sets, my life booked while I sit with a Mac.
This how it feels to have a panic attack.

[Chorus]
I feel pain in my back; panic attack.
I’m about to crack; panic attack.
It’s breath that I lack; panic attack.
Now my mind is off track; panic attack.

Panic Attack

[Intro]
Gaze into blank skies; tears drop from my eyes.
Reveal your face of lies; please yield the surprise.
Or come to your untimely demise; it’s time for me to rise.
Tales of the wise; we can’t hear your cries.
The loneliest type of guys.
Just spies in disguise.
They despise what we devise.
And our allies we comprise.

[Chorus]
Steadily progressing; never stay stressing.
Count everything as a blessing.
Listen to what I’m addressing.
It leaves people guessing; emotionless, my apathetic expression. 

[Verse]
Apathetic mentality, not one for the formalities.
Heartless until department, counting up the casualties.
Lost sympathy for my people, no hope in my society.
Watching cynical dreams get turned into reality.
What’s really going on? Can you tell me what’s wrong?
Thoughts completely unfocused, but lips moving to the song.
Never deciphering lyrics yet you still sing along.
Dogs in the field tryna catch a bone.
Sent into a trance by the sound of the tone.
Everything is all mental.
Useless physical body; take it back, it’s all rental.
Brain a piece of paper with thoughts for a pencil.
Sticking to the script left me stuck, and reprogrammed through a stencil.
If you think everybody is your friend, then you’ll reach a dead end.
Stabbed in the back; hands around your neck, now you’re coughing.
Next day, your people pray as they lay you six feet deep in a coffin.
This happens often.