https://open.spotify.com/track/4ynFu3W3EAJjPsTJQezIXB?si=43b5074ba9f84f0c

the jen song

the leaves turn  brown
it's getting red tonight
the ghost fly out
as jack-o-lanterns bright
the spirits dance
like zombies from their graves
tim burton romance
is what i'll watch all day

oh it's that
october feel
coming back
it's so surreal
what to do
what do say
please remain
don't go away

don't go away
don't go away
don't go away
don't go away

that feeling in october

i don't wanna live another day
i wish my body would just decay
i done battling my depression
reason for my suicide is out of question

i just want to kill myself already

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slfDT7I0bEE&lc=Ugw4q7QtFe94TKpx7hN4AaABAg

reupload cuz i made a new mix (actually like 20 but this one is recent)

9MM **MUSIC VID IN DESCRIPTION**

Brain is fucking up
I have had enough
I can’t tell who is on my side
What am I doing here
Why are they steering clear
Is all this built on top of lies
I don’t know what to do 
I don’t know what to do 

Don’t know what’s going on 
Hope it’s not too late
All of this feels wrong
No one can relate
Just want to be fixed 
But I can’t think
I can’t think
Can’t think straight

Stuck inside my head
Acting like a sped
Is this where I’m supposed to be
Now I’m freaking out
Not sure what about 
It’s why I can’t get in can’t you see
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know what to do

CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT

note: @state-surve told me my music was "not edgy enough" so I made this as a response

Spending all day in my room 
with the slop that I consume

All shit I see online
Always eating at my mind

Each day harder than the last
would you notice if I passed?

String you along for the ride
I'm committing double suicide

I want to kill you and myself
I hope to see you burn in hell	
I want to kill you and myself
I would never wish you well

New days bring
New pains 

And I wish
That I could change

Even though I want to 
I'm forever stuck on you

I'm too far gone to help
what the fuck is mental health 

Since you left all i do is whine
Now I'm planning our double suicide

I want to kill you and myself
I hope to see you burn in hell	
I want to kill you and myself
I would never wish you well

Double Suicide

og by @skunkbid
https://soundcloud.com/skunkbid/shitty-pitched-up-demo-wav

lyrics:
you wanna call me?
i ask u often
i make some noise
but i never end up talking
i don't know how to make it better
and i'm sinking further everyday
cause i'm so full
of condemnation
of all my thoughts, all my actions, everything i do
so on the day when u end up leaving
i'll blame a lot of things 
but i won't blame you
no i won't blame you
i won't blame you
i won't blame you
no i won't blame you
i won't blame you



i won't blame you(skunkbid cover)

HANDGUNS ARE BEAUTIFUL (schoo shoota cover)

youre so pretty and im just a loser

i hate myswof


oh what ya gotta say
no i dont care at all
oh what ya gotta say
dont got no common sense
i dont wanna hear it no
i dont care at all
i never pick up the phone
never answer the call
who do you think you are
who do you think you are
i dont remember asking you for a thing
i dont remember
i dont care at all
what you think no
i dont care at all
what you could ever come up with in yr head
oh yr so empty
just drop dead
do everyone a favor
just drop dead
you fucking airhead
who are you
i dont remember asking nothing
who are you
i dont remember asking nothing
not a damn thing
no i dont care who 
you think you are
cuz i know what you stand for
what yr made of
it dont at up 
makes no sense
i dont give a shit
who you think you are
it amounts to nothing
ya bitch man
yr a bitch man
yr a bitch man
i just really needed you to know that damn
I dont give a fuck who you built yrself up to be
whatever the fuck at means
it means nothing
dont you get it yet
dont you get it yet
who the hell are you to tell me a goddamn thing
go fuck yrself
who are you to tell anybody anything
like literally anything man

what ya say?

harm reduction

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