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thank you all its only up from here
huge and special thanks to @decago i wouldnt be making music if it wasnt for him

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you want me to stay 
you want me to go
my heart on the outside ice and the snow

you put me onto a stage 
you wanted a show
so what was it worth?
i guess ill never know

i wanna change things can we go back
me & u we want the same things is it so bad?
now im screaming from the outside feeling so trapped
now that i finally have youuuuu

you tell me open up
you say its almost time
i knew this day would come
when we would say goodbye
you dig into my skin
i knew id never win
but that i understand

so baby take that knife
and dig into my eyes
i wish that i could see
so i could be your guide

ill be your anything
ill be your any side
now that i finally have youuu

from me (decago)

@discerning @coversoverme

girl dont u go away
u know its our story
girl dont uu go away
ill cherish all the days
all the memories r thru
yet i did it all for u
swear tht i will stay
girl ii
swear to god ill treat u right

when all the petals blossom
spring comes when i stay with u
flowers bloom when ur closer
look back to these times when im older
when the winter falls
ill show u that i cld do it all
and when we both grow old
ill stay by ur side

girl dont u go away
u know its our story
girl dont uu go away
ill cherish all the days
all the memories r thru
yet i did it all for u
swear tht i will stay
girl ii
swear to god ill treat u right

ill cherish u
ur my dearest
we'll live our life
as we pass thru time
ill hold ur hand
knowing that ull be mine
im so blessed
i know tht ull be there for me
it started with our story

our story prod irony & yoake

@rewind214 @1akura

coming back 2 me again
like whats wrong this time please just say it
stuck on the words that you said
was it all just a dream
you dont know how much it meant 2 me

and ill never let my guard down
not 4 u again
im just lying to myself but i think ill just pretend
need myself to calm down
head full of regrets of the past that i wish i could change 4 u

(rewind)
never let my guard down
its too hard not to want to rip my heart out
new scars, think ive fallen way too far now
new start, maybe i can find a new route
no matter how hard i try, it never can be how it was
and ill cry, but maybe for you im enough
i was giving up learning how to love
i just need a hug
hope that im enough

hope that im enough
know i never mattered to you cause we're not in love
if i lied then im sorry that i lost your trust
dont know why i made a fuss
im seeing right thru im calling out ur bluff

guard +rewind (akura)

feels good to be back

prod @yuikase

lyrics:

lost you on my side
i told you i cant lie
why couldnt you just see my side
just pause for once and take your time

i just wanted us to stop it all
cause i cant break your fall
you couldnt hear the call
you didnt care at all
one last time and soon
ill make us all immune
leave this mess to you
one last night in june

i dont care what you have to say now
whats left in my head is a memory
push it all away
mentally still on the edge

feel done, moving on
still my iris focused upon
a neverending crisis that you call
i feel it echo now from wall to wall
from wall to wall

lost you on my side
i told you i cant lie
why couldnt you just see my side
just pause for once and take your time

i just wanted us to stop it all
cause i cant break your fall
you couldnt hear the call
you didnt care at all
one last time and soon
ill make us all immune
leave this mess to you
one last night in june

i just wanted us to stop it all
cause i cant break your fall
you couldnt hear the call
you didnt care at all
one last time and soon
ill make us all immune
leave this mess to you
one last night in june

june

june (asagao)

@1akura @rewind214 @yashio20k @afterstoryx 

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so turn me to ashes and turn me to dust
u know i dont want it if it isnt us
u made me feel like a monster
&& everything stuck
u watch me step in the picture
22 keep us one

if its me vs u know i dont wanna lose
when im battered and broken
black and im blue 
tell me all i can do

now that i finally have you

@1akura

now that i finally have you
i cant live without you
so baby dont leave 
just wanna be around you

if all i could see
is your face in front of mine 
then bae i dont mind it 
im scared of the silence

yeah i need u to call me back 
its the end of my world
think im falling fast
u are my only girl

i dont want u to cry
give u my life
its not worth being alive
if our futures not us together

ashes&&dust +akura (rewind, yashio)

depraved + kruu

@tores @ihateyourei

shoutout akura for doing fx :p

this feels too familiar, in the worst way
u moved past me and I'm still hurting 
I hope ur happy, cuz u deserve it 
a happy ending, girl ur worth it, worth ittt 
hope we can come back and rekindle this 
don't u miss me at least a little bit? ;(
don't u miss the little things we did?? >:(
I still miss the way ur heart beatin  </3

its all up to chance, all up to fate 
its hard to stand but I wont break 
sad u went but I'm glad u came 
we'll cross paths again someday 
its all up to chance, all up to fate 
its hard to stand but I wont break 
sad u went but I'm glad u came 
we'll cross paths again someday 

maybe it's just better that I don't kno.... 
I tried to make an effort but u don't show up 
couple months have passed and there is no us 
<3 so blind I misplaced my trust 
wanna hear ur voice even if its made up 
if it were my choice we'd still be in love 
tryna fill the void when I take these drugs 
tryna find the one that thinks I'm enoughh 

its all up to chance, all up to fate 
its hard to stand but I wont break 
sad u went but I'm glad u came 
we'll cross paths again someday 
its all up to chance, all up to fate 
its hard to stand but I wont break 
sad u went but I'm glad u came 
we'll cross paths again someday


we'll cross paths again someday x4

a happy ending (tores + rei)

prod me

ur a million miles away
what i’d give just to see ur face
dont understand these games u play
lets take it slow i’ll match ur pace

can i hold u close like i’m supposed to do?
cause i just dont know what i’m supposed to do
if you said u love me, would it be true?
cause i can’t go on if i’m not with u

u U u U u U u U u U u U u U u U
u U u U u U u U u U u U u U u U
(cause i can’t go on if i’m not with u)

ur a million miles away
what i’d give just to see ur face
dont understand these games u play
lets take it slow i’ll match ur pace

can i hold u close like i’m supposed to do?
cause i just dont know what i’m supposed to do
if you said u love me, would it be true?
cause i can’t go on if i’m not with u

u U u U u U u U u U u U u U u U
u U u U u U u U u U u U u U u U
(cause i can’t go on if i’m not with u)
u U u U u U u U u U u U u U u U
u U u U u U u U u U u U u U u U
(cause i can’t go on if i’m not with u)

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A Million Miles Away

Prod by me

w/ @kyxtsnxwy

[Hxroshii]
its 4 AM in my room ive been feeling lonely
its been 6 hours looking at my PC
my head is hurt, feels like about to explode
i know its not healthy

and i know that ive been trying so hard
everyday that i just want to give up
but i cant i just want to try tomorrow
maybe ill do better in the next day

sudah kucoba lagi, lagi, lagi dan lagi
sudah kucoba gagal, lagi, lagi dan lagi

maybe i need to chill again more often
ive been trying so hard to chase the thing that i after
maybe i should care more about myself
evertime i spend made me feel so wasted again

i dont want to complain, i dont want this to end
but im so tired to keep all this emotion

[Kishi]
im a broken heart nigga
im still sad while counting figures
im still steady pulling triggers, while you breaking up my heart yeah
bitch im up, lil nigga
im still stuck like a sticker
i be drowing in this liquor, while you breaking up my heart yeah

babe, ikaw yung mahal ko
di ako sanay sa ganto, di masabi harap mo
nandito lang ako para sayo
ang ganda mo baby ko, hawakan mo ang puso ko

(but you wouldn’t wanna talk to me at all)
(im unstable and soon im gonna fall)
(im so sorry, none of this makes sense at all)
(visions of me dying, i accept it all)

[Hxroshii]
Sekarang diriku jatuh
aku tak bisa bangun
sayang tolong genggam tanganku
aku tak bisa bangun tanpamu
and i know that i messed up this time
can you please hold my for the last time
cuz every night i just wanna cry
crying on my own, crying for the thing that i love so much
4 day ive been losing sleep, i feel so weak
and ive been trying so hard to take care of myself
im so tired of this cycle
ku sudah muak, ku ingin melepaskannya
ku sudah berusaha tapi gagal lagi
tapi akan aku coba di besok hari

[Kishi]
get back, baby get back, im unstable
take a step back, take a step back, you’re unable
don’t you come back, don’t you come back, cause im up now
call back, don’t you call back, got me stuck now

don’t you talk to me at all
i be dying baby, i hope you fall
got me crying baby, cutting off my tongue
see the signs baby, i accept it all

Again and Again (me)

most recent clips!

this has been a hard month for me. thank you to all my amazing friends (some of whom are in these clips!) who have supported me and pushed me to go further. i love you all

if you want to use any of these, dm me!!

0:00 — date (sample from kimi no na wa) +@r1yy
1:14 — our sky +@rewind214
2:06 — flora +@jihyo39
3:20 — +@miriyami
4:08 — flutter +@jihyo39
5:05 — july 4th +@moz-103259352

##july25 (+riy +rewind +jihyo +miriyami +moz)

Instrumental by @yashio20k

I guess that you’re sick of me
You’ve been acting differently
If I’m being honest
You were all I ever wanted
I know that you don’t think of me
I remember you so vividly
An Aphrodite incarnate
But I didn’t mind your sharpness

Oh my tongue’s no good
And my mind ain’t too
Can’t convince you
So what am I to do
I’m in love with you
But your love’s untrue
No matter how long I pursue
The truth won’t be less cruel

It’s so hard for me to open up
You took me in, and dropped me off like you don’t give a fuck
Ah, ah... what a way to mess me up
I think about you every day
You've probably already forgot

But it’s cool though
This ain’t nothing new, no
Chew me up and spit me out
Make me feel like a fool, oh
I’m not someone you should worry about
I know that you don’t, there is no doubt
Nobody wants me around
But I guess it doesn’t matter now

I could scream and I could shout
I’ve lost all I’ve ever found
But I won’t make the faintest sound
’Cause it’ll get drowned out...

aphrodite (yashio)

!!!!!!

#MyCerita @htmyc
sometimes i sing sometimes i produce

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Again and Again (me)

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